... ramblings from a poker player...

Looking back and forward - New Year's resolutions

2010-12-31T07:45:00.000+01:00

Pfeeewww.... 12 months without writing anything in my blog. This year was busy, hectic, crazy and pretty much x5 that the last 3 words in it covers. In one word i would describe the year as TOUGH, and so that would explain why it was last thing for me to write anything here. But i will try to remember back at stuff and post some short memoir of the best and worst of this year.

I prefer to start with the best and good as most likely this is what will keep me coming back at later days in my life when i revisit these days. I already often picture the best things since Kristof was born, but i'll put out an effort right now and describe it from my perspective. His arrival planted very controversial thoughts in me at first (mostly about freedom, love, life and responsibility), I never really understood what it means to be a father, and the first few months of his arrival i could best describe it as CHANGE, WORK, RESPONSIBILITY and I don't really have anything else to say here. All i was thinking how i'm gonna cope with all new that struck into our home. Now back 16 months ago i still was a kid in a man's body (am afraid i still am) so being afraid of having a child was totally alright, but i started to grow into my role day by day. With the rhythm of my life it was often not very easy. But i grew every day and I'm growing as of yet into it. After a few months of getting used to it, i am starting to realize that having and raising a child is the deepest most intense sport there is to life. The love and bonding between son and father is so huge i would not be able to describe it even to my best efforts (Imagine that multiplied by infinite and thats what it is between mother and child). And yet he is just 16 months old. He is the greatest thing in my life and i hope to be the best father to him just as my father was to me. I have started to understand just recently how much our father has given to us, how much he fought for us, for our comfort, our well being and our future. He fought the world alone if he had to, didn't let anyone to hurt us, he fought for the better always, and never stopped doing so. I couldn't understand, really, up till now. Being a father is huge, and you get enormous power from it, power to protect, to fight and to keep going. That's how i understand it. And that's the expectation i set out for myself to be the best me i can be, to be the best father, who will protect his son in storm and fire, no matter what happens. These are my expectations, and i hope they will match and overachieve my son's beliefs. He is the greatest boy. He gave so much to us this year, always smiling, being really really happy, that says something about his environment he is growing up in, he is loved so greatly he is a very happy child. I remember back in last January we were amazed when he was sitting up causing one of the biggest break-through to us, we haven't yet known anything, the next steps like standing up, walking and saying the first words just came so quickly. It was not so long ago, when let him hang and sleep on my arms as a baby and now he is almost talking to us. Everything happened so quickly, before we had enough time to enjoy the first developments the next happens and again and again. By now he is saying daddy, he likes to play with me and he greets me every day with the biggest smile and joy when he sees me. I "think" i love being a dad. :) I wonder where our road will lead us... but i look forward to that adventure from the bottom of my heart...

A child's coming into a relationship is not all hee hee and ha ha though, it puts a heavy stone on the couple and the frustration, the change, the coping with the newborn caused a lot of trouble, stress and emotion into our relation, but after ending this year i think we destroyed some barriers and can lead on a happier life with wife. We broke through a lot of milestones this year, and while our journey together is far from over, i look forward with great expectations to a happy life with Csilla. I'd like to mention that she as a mother is fantastic, she started cooking this year and added quite a bit of recipes to her repertoire and made it her own so much that now im having trouble eating somebody else's food. Now this is a great thing, prior to this year Csilla never cooked we always ate out and now that im getting spoiled with some home cooked heaven its really teasing me well. I already have some real favorites like homemade hamburgers, her bolognese lasagna or the multiple choices of soups she can make. The soups are probabily my favorite, probabily because i just love soup so much in general, but to give a compliment i like her stock more all day long than my mom's and thats a huge thing. So yes, it was a tough year for us, she had to cope with Kristof for the most part, with cooking and time to time with me as well not to mention Benny. So yes it wasn't easy. Oh yea, Csilla also did the shopping all the time this year, i think im gonna add a bit more of that into my chores so she wouldnt feel all left alone.

During the year we went Croatia for a week and i must say it was absolutely great, Kristof really enjoys the sun and the water, so he is looking to grow into some real beach person. :) I'm definitely taking family back again this year, i could even make a good case for the same hotel same place as the town had a fantastic atmosphere, the water was nice and clean and the hotel was super awesome with great food for kids as well.

So we will see.... To our surprise Kristof really did wear himself fine, it was me who couldnt take the long drive. Actually there is a good story about this. We started out at midnight so we would be at the hotel by the morning and so Kristof would sleep through the night, now we ended up almost turning back home at the Croatian border (about 4hrs away from destination but 3 hrs away from home) as we didnt have Kristof written into our passport. So it looked like we are trying to steal baby out of the EU and stuff. :) Now since running around the EU countries is so easy we never thought this could happen, but it did, so thinking about it we had a few options, either we try by the Slovenian border or we are not going to Croatia and go to Italy which is part of the EU. So we decided to try the Slovenian border which wasnt far away, but we got our punishment big time, while we were let in Croatia there, it was quite a good trip down there , it turned into morning and traffic from all west and north countries emerged into a fantastic 5-6hr traffic jam... So beautiful Kristof also started to be a bit cranky, not to mention me. So the story is that instead of a 7hr easy trip it became a 15hr eternal hell drive... Wonder why it always happens to me that im missing planes traines and rides or everything takes double time... I wonder ... :)

My task for this year was only one challenge. To make money in poker and support family, to some extent i am through this one challenging year, to some extents we are not secure enough and pretty vulnerable to short term variance and other risk factors, so i'm not really sure where this career will lead, but i'm always ready to challenge myself into something new. Now that is not a talk of giving up, although i'm pretty sure what i've been through this year most people would give up. First of all i left the hotel business(own choice) end of last year so i can 100% give into poker and make a great year, turning myself a pro. It wasn't without lot of thought and consideration given into it, and we had a good team behind us with a pretty successful last year earning somewhat short of 40K. So if i think about it it wasn't a random idea, plus i've been playing poker for 4 years at that point and every year except the 1st one i turned a decent profit. But the year started out pretty bad, first without the hotel's income not supporting my back i turned more vulnerable to tilt, my game deteriorated from its A game and i mostly played in a B to C game status all year with hugely bad variance hitting me for the most part of the year, i actually have never ran so bad in my life, and just figured what bad variance can mean this year. I ran around 4K dollar below expectation for the whole year maybe a bit more plus the other factors not included that my luck was just plain shit, at least what it comes down to cards. Also in the first half of year right after the big decision to go pro my team fell apart somewhat as we got scammed by our old coach. Pretty shit situation to be, started to question every single move i made and it didnt help my game for sure. So struggling with my game struggling not to go under with bankroll and struggling with tilt, wife creeping out on financial issues and all kinds of distractions like my old office where it wasn't quiet and calm it wasn't really a good start as a pro. Another distraction through middle of the year was moving and changing apartments with a 9 month old. Please do not try such a foolish thing. Definitely not recommending it. My dad was key in this situation, he organized the rebuilding and construction work, so that made our life so much easier, but still. I was for the most part of the year under rolled and that just felt like always keeping one hand in the fire. Games got also much tougher and definitely higher variance. What i dont mention is that it was really hard getting back to normal, getting back to a focused mindset, i was working on my game all year long, but when you are working on the wrong stuff you can work your ass off results will not come your way, at least not positive ones. Definitely after we moved and i got my own quiet workplace in the new apartment, my focus turned for the better, i started to play immediately my A game for at least 60-70% of the time and now i feel comfortable that when the variance changes i will produce the results. I really believe that this is the toughest career one can choose, and with all the insecurity of online poker im not quite convinced i chose the right path. This next year will have to be even harder work, i have the cooler environment, i have faced the hardest emotional barriers, we got used to changing our standard of living a bit this year, got accommodated with son in family, so i'm really looking forward to hard work and definitely more positive results than this year. I will also have an alternative game to cash games and will try to beat and grind some low stake sitngos as well. So with better prospects to the new year im ready to leave the old one with heads up and hopefully with a solid start i can really achieve what i set out for next year.

When i wrote my last years resolution blog i said i dont expect much from this year, and i still got so much more from it, im happy that our family really backed us so well this year without them it would be so much harder. And every minute and cent of their help just raised us from sinking under. I really appreciate their help, in my opinion that can only come from them. I would mention a few poker buddies as well, but i believe poker buddies are more for socializing and for learning, they are not gonna come over and solve your problems. You have to take accountability for everything you do and achieve, even if the results are not to your liking. It has to be you who makes the change - after all your neighbor wont come through your door giving a helping hand, in this country if they come they always come with a complaint. Now that i just said that we have a lucky situation in this regard, we have some really cool elderly neighbors by our apartment :)

And finally I'm going for the New Year's plans and resolutions, i set my expectations high and look forward to achieve all of it in a good fashion...

Personal

- take action on my sleeping and more routine into my sleeping habits even if i go to bed 3AM in the morning, but i want a routine that becomes a standard and have my 8hrs of sleep consistently (thats how much i need or my body shows its effects)

- do 2x a week power yoga (that would be 104x yoga for the year) and if i feel like doing more i can add extra exercise (like swimming, biking, running, etc), definitely biking is due as we plan this for years

- learning French, Spanish (the year's goal is to pass through some basic knowledge and acquire basic communication skills in French)

- possibly buy a bigger car (not sure about this as the new seat for my child is a perfect fit) and i just don't wanna sell the car if not necessary, although a cheaper maintenance car would be nice too, we will see as the year goes along

- while it is unlikely that we gonna move this year again, i haven't given up on the idea of living on a nice tropical island or in a warmer climate place for a few years or possibly moving into a bigger city destination with more opportunities ... this I just put out here as a reminder for myself that i still have some way to go towards this, but it should be done within next few yrs

- possibly write a blog every quarter at least (that means 4 blogs for next year - 4x overcommitment compared to this year)

Family

- few trips around the year (skiing, visiting some sea and maybe hiking trip)

- I'm not saying that i'm not ready for a little Susy, so we never know what 2011 brings :D

- Date nights weekly with Csilla - better planning and execution as we lacked about this quite a bit this year and if we had a date night it was every few weeks time, so we definitely need to be more alert about this

- complete furnishing Kristof's room (bed, some drawers, etc)

Business

- sell part of real estate so we can build it up or sell entire real estate

- start up trading fund from money and start seriously learning to trade, it is a function of what happens with real estate

- depends on poker results consider options into the future (possible future businesses, career opportunities)

Poker

- mostly playing 100NL for the most part of the year , looking to build my skills and game and bankroll to a healthy 200NL position with better security while i can still withdraw monthly for expenses

- continuous improvement in SNGs and do a monthly volume of around 1500 on the side of cash games

- Discipline about bankroll, game selection, and volume (especially in SNGs)

- Create game plan for SNGs and gameplan for Cash game (that is first week of January thing) and keep to it

- Playing a bit more of easy live games as well, especially cash games (maybe setting goal for 1x / week at least)

- Consider some coaching as year goes along to up your game both in SNGs and Cash games

At the moment nothing else comes through my mind (probabily missing a bunch of stuff, but thats what happens when you wanna cover the whole year in one plain blog), the year was very busy, mentally challenging, financially draining, but on the other side we learnt to value things from a different perspective, we grew love to a higher level in the family and we certainly became better at ourselves in whatever physical and mental development that we passed through. Year passed, came out smarter and stronger and definitely more experienced !!! Good bye 2010, Welcome 2011!!!

And if u still happen to read my blog, I wish you a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

And last i would like to post one quote that is one favorite of mine and i try to live by the quote from the movie Rocky Balboa coming from Rocky:

The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life.

But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done ! Now if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth.

But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers, saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody ! Cowards do that, and that ain’t you!”.

Im a father, 2 jobs to 1, money matters and the new year

2010-01-02T05:10:00.000+01:00

It took me almost 5 months to finally make a small script here. Life has changed. Drastically. 180 turn i would say, its not to say for the worse, it's changed. And that change requires a lot of change on our side. I became a father. Was waiting for this moment so long and Kristof arrived, stirred up feelings, stirred up emotions, and created a hurricane in our somewhat orderly life. Change has come...

It started on 26th of august, sunny day, we both very excited. We were waiting for this day so long. And Csilla still didnt feel a thing, and doctor was worried and took the safe path and started the birth with some medication and normal method that started the birth, but Csilla didnt want to let go of Kristof yet and the decision came to a ceasarian cut. But before that hell took place in the hospital. I was there with wifey joking around, talking about stuff, future, what ifs and what whens...we just didnt know that plans will be ruined at that moment when baby pops out... lots of future talk and some present joking...we didnt know one bit whats coming but were kind of waiting the child thing to hit us :) then pain starting to hit and Csilla fucking started to go nuts... and i was like totally clueless how could i help looking down at her suffering ... that was probabily emotionally as much of a hell for me as it was pain for her physically... then doctor stopped her suffering after about an hour and half and says they are gonna cut her up taking baby out... Im getting all relieved and now im like all laid back waiting to meet our baby... I was actually worried a bit of the surgery too, but i think that was 100% better than seeing wifey suffering on the bed and being all helpless... so that was good. Nurses went asking if im going to take pictures of the baby, and im all hell yea. I just need to jump to car pick camera up, they go all oh you dont have time for that... im like what?!!! So i ran accross the hospital which was a long run, and ran back as quick as i could in probabily 30 degrees all over the hospital and outside, just to find by the time im back with camera im hearing baby crying... What a moment... Im sure i just fail describing that moment, but if i thought i was strong and powerful and big, the moment i saw my son i was the exact opposite, he symbolicly made me bow in front him, demanded my respect. When he started to feel me he got all quiet. When i stepped away he cried and then i got closer he was quiet again. Dont know if there is any sense for babies for their close ones but it felt like it. Like a kharma thing. Also i was crying like a little bitch struggling with my tears the whole time, so no good pics from newborn if at all there exist any out there... Half an hour later whole family got to know the news, but still everyone was worrying about Csilla still lying in the surgery room. It was the longest wait in my life i think, took about 1 hr till doctors came out and said everything is alright... It was a worthy wait as their job was more than fucking excellent. I cant see a thing on Csilla, well a small cut, but its really minuscule and i think it will be further diminishing down the line as time passes.

The first week

It was a bit of hell and a bit of more hell... I think that was the hardest week so far in raising our child. I stayed in the hospital with Csilla in a family apartment and was there the whole week. Baby was a bit weak, Csilla had to take antibiotics and got like million visits a day by nurses, not letting her sleep and stuff. In addition to that she was injected like 5x a day, which caused her extra pain other than her belly cut. Looking back at it she was so clueless... she couldnt milk her breasts ... LOL... and when nurses did it for her it was a bit painful i would estimate from seeing Csilla becoming a total nutjob screaming with nurses... I wasnt aware what im looking ahead to... :D Is Csilla going to be such a nutjob at home too? I hoped not... But at the time it felt like the hospital was a big help for me, and it is like a crash course for dummies in baby raising. Well, to be honest by now i think coming home to a much relaxed environment is so much better, figuring out whats good for us and the baby, what works, what doesnt... its just a relief...

Things ever since exploded on us in a bit harsh way... we are home and we learned everything just like every parent does in the world. We learn by experience and we read stuff here and there, but experience is biggest teacher. We learn what is good for our son whats good for us. There are million advice and how tos coming from all over the place, but you gotta do it your own ways. Parents dont know shit anymore... :) They raised us 30 something years ago and those methods are old school. We know more about children then ever. And every situation is different. I think im pretty good with my son, know what he likes and what he wants, i think i also spoiling him a bit, but in a good way... He is not spoiled yet with Ferrari shoes and D&G gear, rather he is spoiled by me holding him in my arms when he needs attention and this job is so rewarding. As baby grown up he is getting used to us, now i stayed home for the first 2 months and it was time well spent. I got to experience my sons growing phases. Its a big change every week, and after about 6-7 weeks he started to recognize our faces i think and he makes this beautiful greeting smile taking after Csilla at us... Its the biggest joy of all things and makes us forget pretty much everything all the suffering, frustration and all the pain we had to live through. Raising a kid is not some Malibu vacation, time to time its fucking hell, but its enjoyable and its kind of a cool... Maybe its not even hell... but so far no private time, no time to relax, no time for mommy and dady anymore... nothing... we havent spent almost any time with Csilla, meaning not going out ever since. I do go out alone with friends or by myself but i never did that before. I just used to take the woman with me ... now i feel like im on my own...It feels like it... I know with time its going to get better, and i know Csilla is occupied 24/7 and i cant wait for that period to end. A matter of fact i think we give more affection to Benny then we give to each other. Its like we run out of power, our batteries die by the time we can get there. There is a whole bunch of stress piled up under the carpet i would say, lots of issues on dealing with each other, dealing with baby, different opinions, my night lifestyle, and a small apartment is a lot of times a cause of storms in relationship. Add up to this some tough hours in hotel, at home and everywhere. If i had sleeping disorders back before baby was born, i think it is now not a disorder its a distraction, i just would love to sleep, but i cant... No shit Csilla's situation is much worse. All in all i think we gave up everything these last few months and often cry back for the old times. I think we reached to a point where its going to start getting better, and every month we can reach for a bit extra privacy a bit more routine and bit of more of each other. Its going to be a good rediscovery of each other and it will be good times again. Im looking at it positively, but i also like to take reality for its worth. And reality is not always shining at us from all positions. All this writing i have made i did it about 1 and half to 2 months ago, and things got a bit better with Kristof. He is now a big boy, and a lot easier to deal with other then his weight that is killing both our backs. :S Also he is developing very fast, he is big like a 7-8month old child which is weird as none of us are that big, and he is rolling over now and likes to coo a lot and is one happy boy smiling a lot at his environment.

We are very much compensated though. We get a lot of family help, we get a lot of positive feedback, and we get our son growing, smiling, laughing at us, which is the best medicince for all issues so far. I love him so much, i cant describe the feeling, its such a fantastic thing. I remember i was selfish enough not to want to raising a child up till last year, but its really one of the greatest things happened to me and its not neccessarily a rewarding job to do, but yet i still find so much fullfilment in it, its great. And if u dont experience it, i dont think anything can describe this feeling good enough so you would give a shit. There were friends coming talking about their babies and shit and i was like who fucking cares, its a baby... all babies are crying... :D Not anymore, im like fucking unbelievably stoked and proud and everything :) You would probabily not understand. I didnt. Up till now, but u will when u go through this. Its all gonna change.

Slowly i will need to get back to my old self. I will need to turn into Don Juan or PimpMacDaddy again and conquer Csilla's world again. So i warn ya watch out lady... I hope this time comes very soon, i have low expectations nothing before Kristof gets 1 year old. I have some expectations by this date, hopefully we will be able to start travelling again, hopefully we can get more private time and hopefully our nights will be less disturbed and we get a fair share of break, both of us. I believe it will be so...

Eversince of this writing i went back to hotel. It was 2 months i did basically nothing but played poker and spend most of my time with Csilla and the baby and Benny of course. But i couldnt just stay home, as there was another responsibility that needed big care that is the hotel. In all sense i was very tired but i said im gonna go back and in fact move my office in there. It turned out was a bad idea. From that point i didnt see my family almost never. I took 24hour shift every 3 days and stayed in to play poker the other days often going into the nights and sleeping there. It was starting to bug me first i think, but my environment family came to me first i should have not done this at the first place. Well before i could make this realization i went to NYC for a week that was planned by me for ages now, and then to Macau to meet my coach and learn some Pot Limit Omaha. After i got back home it took time to get back with family and the hotel needed me more than anything as one of our receptionists went for maternity leave after being pregnant for 2 weeks. Anyways, understandable people get super protective of their health and stuff when it comes to the most important thing in their lives. So yes all this hassle, basically 0 time before christmas with the loved ones and a bit of an away time from family got us to think i will not do the hotel for long. In fact i stopped doing it on the 31st of december with a huge outrage me being pissed off and smashing my Iphone into pieces. So now i dont have a phone. Well i do but i need to find my old phones charger. I could go and replace it but not gonna do it for now.

As of this writing i have given up the hotel job. I talked about it with my family and decided its no good for me. Yes some money i could have made is going to be lost, but you can see i put my actions were my mouth is. It will be all good, that job made me miserable, took away time from my family and all it gave me was some decent money, nothing exceptional but decent. Which of course will have to be replaced partially, but thats to be done through me doing what is best for my whole environment. So yes now im a fully self employed person. Took me a business degree and 6 yrs of time at the hotel to realise i dont want to do this. :) I knew it before but i never had the guts to lose it, to leave it behind, i was too attached to the money it earns and the lifestyle we could live. I think its the way i was raised.

But after all money is not important. Family is... and there are 100 zillion more important things then money. I make a small sideway about this here, just real quick. I realized that already having a bit of hard time to relate away from it ($) time to time, but i keep a strong will and try hard not to get consumed by this shitty concept MONEY. Its all good but there are so many things that are more important, i could just come up with millions of things, family, love, health, friends, self fullfilment, confidence, experience, motivation, self improvement, improving your environment , etc , etc... I mean just look at those people who worked their whole life made billions of dollars and at their end of life what they want to do? Make an impact, help the world donating it away. They could have started doing this sooner. They would never be so rich and their influence would be smaller, but if we think in mass, only like 1 out of 100K people get really rich.... so if u think what that 99.999% of ppl could do with their time and effort in the race while getting rich the answer is right there. Its important you think of others, and your environment, you make the world a better place. There are so many scumbags out there, a helping hand will always be rewarded with a smile and friendship. I just tried to make a point for not falling in love with money so much afterall why you need that much money? Im telling you i know of a few people that got really rich and are happy, in fact they got so protective over their property and shit that they would kill for it in bad times. They relate to money in their relationships, they judge the world in $ terms. Kind of a sick stuff. I came from a wealthy environment, and thus i know what it was like. There is bigger crisis here in my town then anywhere else in the developed world, and to be honest im a bit happy for it, because people are running away to all kinds of havens like family, friends, love and real good work. Its very nice to see this. We feel its tough times, but in all ways its a good teaching from life, how well we can survive without all the things money can buy. Im gonna finish at this point with this.

So why do i play poker? At start it was for the money and the freedom it can buy. Then it became a self improving and self discovery endeavor and now its more like earning a living, while having fun and shaping my own self. It's not to say i stopped improving, i am just getting into this really right now. I have no other choice then to beat the game, or i can take a crappy job at some corporate money maker's and do the rat race. At this time i enjoy poker very much, and its hard to imagine a different job for me. I also want to do something creative in the future i dont know what it would be, but i find out sooner or later. At this time im happy i made these decisions and the challenge is on. Im a full time poker player for the time being and the grind is starting now. Watch out if u see me, u simply dealing with a daddy. :)

Since its the beginning of the year, i will mention christmas was fantastic, we got to relax a bit and enjoy quality time with family, it was like heaven for me. But in general i love christmas. I also gained about 2 kilos(its for the feel only, i dont know exactly as i havent stepped on scale for months now) in december, i couldnt hold exactly to my diet in the always constantly changing environment, like NYC, Macau, hotel, home, family... it was hard and it ended up me eating too much processed food and sugar... Anyways the holiday went perfect and one of the biggest presents we got is i could take my wifey out to the movies to watch the latest big hit Avatar. Out of multiple tries this was the first time i felt we were on a real date. It was awesome and look forward to the next ones to come... New years Eve wasnt much of a blast rather staying home trying to relax... Maybe next year, and next year it should be...

Summing up 2009... it was a tough year... it was hard to not fall down, and it was hard keeping up... but we managed well... and at the same time we had a baby join our little family circle also making things a bit more complicated... All the toughness this year brought us made us realize new things and a baby is always a blessing. It is challenging, but i think we are coping pretty well. On my goals that are set for the year were mostly satisfied if not overachieved. Some i didnt fullfill but the more important ones i did, and im happy overall. But to review this i put up my last years note below ...

Goals for 2009:
Become a semi-pro poker player CHECK

- grind 30 hrs a week and kind of do as a half time job NOT POSSIBLE FOR ME WITH ANOTHER JOB, BUT CLOSE I PLAYED THIS MUCH

Move up to 200NL both skill and bankroll wiseSome poker records - 8K hands a day record CHECK

- one 5 digit tournament money - possibly win myself into the WSOP DIDNT PlAY TOURNEYS MUCH, AND WSOP WAS NOT MADE THIS YEAR>>> so this was a small fail or goal not set well as im not a tourney player....
Reduce debts by 25% CHECK overachieved
Save X dollars (the no. X is not public at the moment, although this goal is borderline reachable) CHECK

Baby plans as can seen CHECK
Destroy old building on land i bought and buy architect plans for future construction, this has low priority as goals no. 4 and 5 are higher importance once failed

For the first time in my life its hard to plan for 2010. In fact i feel confused in many areas of my life, i made some big decisions in 2009 that will impact me for some time in the future. I have no real goals for 2010 other than to survive and to live a fuller life. I do have some goals id like to meet, maybe they are

-move into a bigger apartment or a house

-provide family a living from poker (200NL is goal for the whole year, no big expectations, maybe shots at 400NL and learning PLO)- the utmost challenge for 2010 as poker become the only source of income

-paying off some more debts

-do something with real estate (sell it or start building it)

-self improvements (getting into routine, wake up normal hrs latest 9.30 on most days, grind 6 hrs/day, getting into some workout as that time was killed at end of year for me, and keep living a healthy life)

I made these goals up not so long ago, as i have no REAL plans for 2010. I dont know if its the baby thing or me being very tired, but i just feel like in year 2010 things will just come their way for me, i know what i have to do and i will do that, nothing i can do as my hands are tied down atmo, so i dont expect this year to completely be in my own control, but i will try to manage it so it would be something to my own liking... Thats all i can promise... no crazy big plans...just life in general...it might feel a bit scarry not having plans, but there are always some plans, and no plan gets executed as it was planned... just not possible...thats life!!!

I dont know when will i be posting a new blog, i have done some serious script for NYC and Macau, but when will they get posted im really not sure. They are there for me and sometimes i have little interest in blogging to show off or blogging to inform friends about stuff going... i think i prefer chatting or talking on skype over the blogosphere. Im not saying this is my last post as i like writing some stuff off my chest time to time, but you can see it took me 5 months to come up with this script. I'll be back soon, but when that will be I dont know. 2 weeks, 5 weeks, 1 year? i dont know, in the meantime you know where u can find me... I try my best to not get lazy blogging ... WISH YOU A HAPPY NEW YEAR MY FRIENDS!!!

Counting the last days...

2009-08-18T01:07:00.004+02:00

It's been a long time since i didnt post anything. Im feeling alright despite a bad day in poker, and decided im gonna finally write something. This blog could be 50 page BSing what happened in the last 2 months and could be a minute short as that many things happened to us basically. There was a lot more going on under the surface then in real life, but i would say things were happening in the right order.

I start off with the worse... Life is tough at the tables for me. Deck is really not treating me right and for about 2 and a half months now im breaking even, which is kind of daunting and depressing as it is. But better now then in the winter i say. Also life responsibilities as they grow also have a bit of effect on my game, and im definitely not playing my best. The tables are also quite crazy and got much tougher these days. Another things is i have to come up with a hell load of money every quarter, so basically i can say financially im as broke as i was in high school. Ok not that bad, but not where i want to be. A positive sign though is that im 85% done with yearly financial plans that i set out beginning of the year. Plus ive got a decent base investment beneath which once will turn into some money hopefully. Recently im thinking more and more about doing something with myself... like put more time into some business building activity or do some other business other than poker... was thinking about a lot of stuff, but i think i just have extra energy i wanna burn off recently... not sure what i will do but i might come up with a random plan shortly. I know its not the right time to start building a business so this is not something i will do the next 12-18 months. But its more like planning for now... until then i have a lot to work on my poker game and have to fight myself to turn into a better man. Im also seriously thinking picking up trading stocks again. I did it in college with no capital and no training and no discipline and little success, but i learned a lot in poker and learned a lot about educating myself and since trading is similar to poker i might pick it up as an extra curriculum for me. Will see there is quite a lot of change that gonna take place in my life and all that extra time i have right now, might be all tighten up as baby is coming shortly.

Talking about being better, trying to improve as a poker player, as a person brought a nice little change in my life... I became more concerned about long term living and became more health aware or health conscious... started out with looking at my posture early this year, which ended me buying a new chair. Still think it was one hell of a good investment. Recently i got a fantastic pillow from my mom, which according to her saying was 140 euros (i cant see myself spending this cash on a pillow), but she surprised us this weekend. How lovely is that from her. Its some orthopedic pillow and the material used in it is used in fighter pilots chairs... Very comfortable, adjusting to body movements (and this one really does adjust) and since im using this only for 3 days now i cant say anything to its effects but i might post a very positive note in the near future about it. Hopefully :D Anyways, all this is due to my neck problem which in my opinion is a side effect of my childhood gaming. I used to sit in front of the tv or monitor playing games turning my neck and posture into a wreck. Now im trying to fix it but its much harder than screwing it up. Also it will never be in new condition any more... Once its broken its never like the new original stuff... :)

Also my sleeping is not as screwed up anymore as it was last year. If u remember i shifted every day about an hour past my last days sleeping schedule basically living a 25 hr day. What i had realised is that it was more of a self discipline problem rather than me being special in this matter. Discipline was always one of my monsters and i have to admit to some point im struggling with it till date, but im fighting it now and it got much better. So thats good. If i just could have learnt it in my childhood things would be much easier right now. But according to astrology (me being a scorpio) i have self destructive traits in me which i can absolutely confirm knowing my past. Anyways healthy living became one of my high priority goals to follow and pretty much im enjoying it.

I tried to change my diet earlier this year to a 5x a small meat diet plan, which worked very well, i was sleepy all day from eating the wrong food and gained 5 kilos (around 12 pounds) so i started to look like a pig... Must not say an opportunity came from a friend right after that, basically my poker coach Jason told me i should switch to the warrior diet or at least try it, so i read the book so i dont do stuff incorrectly and eat bad food and stuff. I was hooked at first try and am enjoying this eating style very much. In very short summary the whole lifestyle is a very contradictory to todays clinical studies, saying we should eat once a day. Thus one big meal per day. So basically during the day we undereat(drink fruit juices, water and eat fruits, salads only), basically fasting and at night we can eat the whole day portion for dinner if we eat the right food (no fries, cakes, soda etc) This way the body can clean itself during the day from toxic material and be always alert and ready kind of like a warrior (eating berries during day, training or fighting in war times or hunting and finishing day with the big meal, while at the same time being lean and muscular) ... Its a bit more complex then i say here, there is a book afterall about it, but its not hard at all, plus i dont have to think food all day. Most people on a diet are thinking food in the morning, food at lunch and food for dinner. Its like their whole day is around food. I dont have to deal with this issue, kind of like the best lifestyle for my personality and style of living. I would say for most people it would work too, as with other diets the problem is they usually gain weight after finishing it. Afterall most ppl have no resources (time, money, will, etc) to follow a diet for a long time. This diet however is easy as walking. Anyways, the book is very motivational and explaining facts about nutritional treatment to our bodies, cycles, cleaning, psychology , state of mind etc etc. The diet not just that worked for me really well, losing slowly 5.5 kilos - 13 pounds in 6 weeks, but i can eat every night rewarding myself for a good day turning every night into a feast. Its really awesome and during the day i also feel all alerted and focused which definitely helps me play better. Another important thing the diet balanced my insulin production which was all messed up because of the mucho sugar intake in my previous diets... So i was like sugar hyped in one moment and then felt all sleepy all of a sudden in consistent wave patterns... This is no issue these days. The diet suggests its own workout as well, but i didnt go for it as i liked Beachbody.com's Power 90 excercise series... So now i can workout at home not needing to go to the gym and stuff ... its really really awesome and actually after 10-12 years im doing excercise regularly (2-4x a week) and hoping to shape my body into good condition. I ordered some weights for home and i like to use them pretty much. I never really liked to go to the gym in my town anyways. The gym is packed with brainless chicks watching every moves of the big buff guys who breathe steroids and shit. Kind of not my world. And most likely im not theirs either. So yeah no good fit. While i can do excercise at home it saves time, it saves money and excercise actually gets done as it is right here right now kind of thing, no need to go places, which is often a turn down for most people (including me, especially in cold weather). Its a bit anti socializing myself this way, but its not like i was chatting too much in the gym either.

All that i just wrote was an enlightening to me how i want to keep myself in good shape for a long time ahead in time. Im seeing fat people eating burgers and sweets all the time, not working out and having all kinds of issues. They are more keen to start having drinking problem and diseases hit them faster then anybody else. I just wanna be the exact opposite. And im not saying im not gonna die young as this is not what i can predict, but im gonna do everything i can to enjoy life as long as possible. And that requires a healthy mind and healthy body. End of story here. :))) For only this change this is a very special realization in my life i believe.

Dont know if there is any reason for this, but i think it also has to do with a baby coming to our family. I want to be a good husband and a good father. Im not sure how i will do at any of these things but im trying to. I want to be special in this world for my family, not for anyone else but only for them, i know values shifted a bit recently in todays world, people are cheating on each other, divorces multiplied, lot of people are disappointed with their life with their relationships, careers, or just simply need something they cant get that leads them to strike for excitement which often lead to bad marriages, selfish behavior and the media is out there at every point to support that its the way to go. At least ppl get this feeling in mini doses i believe. Basically i dont wanna do that, i was raised in learning different values and in this sense im pretty conservative. So yea, i wanna do my best and try to be the best mate and father for my family. Easier said than done, but im determined, and u know what that means.

The pregnancy has come to the last few days and it looks we are becoming parents were soon. We are both so excited, but i can only talk for myself, but i would describe myself totally superexcited about this. Im waiting to meet my son and getting ready for the times with him. I remember at the early stage of Csilla's pregnancy i could say i was a BIT disappointed in getting a boy, but now im just like happier for it then ever. We went through again some names and we changed his name from Dennis to Kristof (english equivalent would be Christopher). I think both names are very cool, but we decided to give a name that goes better with a hungarian name like Vas.

Talking about names we went through name numerology luck factors, horoscope compatibility and all astrological bs that exists there. Especially me as im a true believer in astrology. For some reason most of the traits a scorpio has fits me, while the writings of a virgo find to be true for Csilla and for most people basic characteristics fit smoothly well. So yeah i was looking for incompatibility issues as well, things that need attention in the raising of little Kristof. Also name numerology we went through ppl surrounding us and those who had an unlucky name had actually suffering more in life then avg, and those having a lucky name had better easier lifes as usual, so if you find your life be average or to that fact below average i would recommend you looking into your name as well, and maybe even changing it, afterall. Im not sure after all logical reasonings and logical living why would i turn to this kind of superstitious stuff, but it just works for me, and i have had the business running through the help of astrology and some feng shui stuff and some hard work. So yeah, even if its all BS im pretty sure it does no harm to follow this stuff :)

Lastly but not least a few words on the lil baby, thus my wifey... She is hanging in there pretty tough, very fit mom, does work like all the time and does live a very active life still few days before baby is due. I can see now that her body is taking a toll on her more and more but she just keeps it real positive and like nothing is happening to her. Actually she is craving for some shopping for herself, so i promised im gonna take her with baby for a full day of shopping a couple weeks after baby was born.

I wrote so much already and didn't even cover about a trip to Lake Balaton where we visited Balatonfured along with Benny a couple of weeks ago, then we made another trip there for the swimming through the lake that i missed because of traffic jams. Then there were a bunch of trips to the doctor with Csilla that were all some pretty nice experiences and there were some great nights out, a Krav-Maga party and some night out with Tibi and a lot more, couple of live poker nights that i havent wrote about that i will remember with good memories, but right now i cant wait to become a dad and i look forward to it very much and all these memories while very nice we concentrate on other big moments of life.

Im eagerly counting every second till the date comes... Looking forward to meet lil Kristof and become a dad providing him a comforting nest and home...

Expect to see another blog soon ...

Adios

2009-08-12T17:10:00.002+02:00

Hey all,

it is really not me who is selling stuff out in the wild, but after 5 weeks on the warrior diet im really stoked, i feel really well, i feel all energized and younger then what i felt 2 months ago. This is really a great lifestyle i can only recommend. oh yeah i also lost 12 pounds as a side effect. :) I also have to say i tried out a diet that recommended small portions 5x a day. And i eventually gained 10pounds. So this diet really worked for me and i am so excited how much more i can achieve with it.

Here is a short text im gonna put up, if u feel like reading the book i definitely recommend you to buy it. Im all hooked. Few things in life get me hooked in such a short period of time or to and extended period, but i think this diet seriously did.

So text as promised :) And i promise i blog more in the future. Im getting myself to it one of these days to post something up.

The Science of undereating

by Ori Hofmekler

Generally speaking, scientists and science have shown clearly that when you

undereat, the brain exercises exactly like a muscle exercises. Brain-derived

growth factors are triggered and new brain cells are produced by stem cells.

Tissue recycling - a controversial issue - occurs. Nonetheless, scientific

thinking is dogmatic.

They postulate:

"If this is the Prediction then let us start isolating

diet elements. Let us isolate the calorie intake alone. Let us then analyze the

exercise element alone. Then let us combine the overall diet element and the

overall calorie intake element. After that, let us examine the exercise

elements and see how the two - exercise and diet - interact."

I contend that these sub-elements cannot and should not be separated. For

example, a person adhering to the principle of intermittent fasting, as

outlined in the Warrior Diet, should under-eat during the day followed by night

eating. After a period of time they will find that appetite and food

consumption, their choice of foods, even their taste preferences, will change.

This usually manifests within five to six weeks. If you follow this eating

cycle for a protracted period, you will eat differently and crave different

foods. You will naturally develop a taste for foods at the bottom of the food

chain. Your appetite and preferences will morph and become different. You

literally will undergo a transformation in habits and tastes.

According to Dr. Mark Mattson, a leading researcher on intermittent fasting,

participants who follow a one meal per day cycle have shown a natural tendency

to reach a full sense of satiety on a lower calorie intake than the fixed

calorie intake requirements imposed in studies. This skews results: instead of

letting the participants follow their natural instinct, to eat less and feel

full faster rather than observe how a one-meal-per-day approach naturally

morphs caloric intake downward, participants are force-fed. They had to keep

eating, against their will, to comply with the study's fixed calorie intake

terms and precepts. With all due respect, it will take years before researchers

realize how things really work in real life. There are so many variable and

complexities, various elements are intertwined. There is the feeding cycle

element, the food/fuel element, the calorie intake element, the exercise

element - there are changes in food availability, and don't forget the gender

element! It will take scientists, using classical analysis, forever to analyze

and dissect these findings. Perhaps in the distant future science will come to

the conclusions what we already know to be true! We already have so much empirical

evidence, so much real life experiences, that one can only hope that science

will eventually catch up.

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I am my own prisoner

2009-06-08T05:08:00.002+02:00

Another month passed by so time for another blog to be released. I am just enjoying my 2 day break i gave myself and thinking of nothing that happened in the last month, It was such such challenging and it really did get to me... But read on and u get the details...

Ok 3 months ago i was looking to get some excercise to get in better shape and i was looking mostly to join some martial arts club, well that did happen and Tibi and I started to do Krav-Maga classes. Krav-Maga is really not much of an art, its rather a self defense class learned by Israeli secret agents and military forces. It is close combat techniques for survival in very short. I like it for multiple reasons, it gives me great condition, it provides me survival instincts, i get tougher, and its 50m far away from my house... That is i dont even need to get change clothes with me :) Nice feature to have when im always out of time... Anyways, just after i started, i got kind of injured and had to skip this last month, there is this excercise when we kick each other in the leg to strengthen our thighs and calves, but in the chair in front of the monitor no real muscles were generated in the last few years, so i chickened out after some of my veins got so pumped and swollen i had to skip a few trainings. Still on the injury list but this time for other reasons. My palms did get some infection and i have not 100% recovered from that. So as you can see Im a broke down ol man... :) Here is a short teaser of what is it that we do...

So thats about excercise for these days, i am looking for other ways to move out of my room/office/playground as i need to be out on fresh air more often... Csilla has stopped doing shifts and that just reduced my time outside even more as i used to do walking with Benny but i lack to do so ever since she is home as she does that from now... So to get out more im looking forward to buy a bike in the near future and even possible to buy one at end of this month as a treat for playing good poker, but only in that case... So now i have the motivation to play well for the month... i still need to look around what bike i'd like if its a speedster or some kind of mountain bike... will see how that goes ... no real preferences for now...

At the beginning of this year i have decided we are inviting out a part of our family each month for dinner. We get treated so well by our family from both ends that i somehow try to give back and spending extra time with them so this is kind of good fun... So we attended a few wine tasting and dinners that we really enjoyed and plan to do so for the rest of the year... It is just going to have to happen... It only depends on how i will do financially i guess but im pretty positive that we will somehow find solution to this matter. It only depends on my ability to work hard nothing else I guess. Being a customer we can choose from over a bunch of restaurants in town and around as there are so many out there... Im pretty sure that Komarno has the most Restaurant/person in the world... its just unreal, and its just weird... as all of the restaurants are completely empty... we dine out quite frequently and every time we go, no matter where we go we are always alone... But the market keeps raising more and more of them, so there is a good chance this number will grow in the very near future... To be honest this is not just not good for the market, but neither it is for the customer, i mean it is kind of low cost to maintain a restaurant and everyone finds SOME business somehow and making moves here and there ppl never close them down. Also if they do, it just becomes a rented property, having said that i can state they never close down, just their number keeps growing... Kind of a sick state... Im not sure that in a democracy a state/town/region could define a quote for maximum no. of businesses but im pretty sure it would be needed in this town... This way no one restaurant is going to make a profit in the future, at least not for the near future... Also this hole situation creates a culture of empty restaurants, which in turn does not attract customers. I mean who wants to go to a restaurant if its always empty... this is a Check Mate situation as our Mayor and politicians have absolutely no desire to turn things around, and the market to be honest is the dumbest ive ever seen in the world... Its going to clean up eventually but it could take a decade or two.... Also empty restaurants follow up with shitier service...so in the short run (5 yrs) we are screwed... just an opinion not a complaint... i dont really care, if i want to eat out we just go to the big cities around us and we also have a pretty good restaurant at hand ;)

So yeah, life goes slow around here, and i need always some motivation to carry on... And last month some really stupid motivation was my personal leader... I decided im gonna carry out a 160hour month in May. That means i have to play 160 hrs close to my best game. Now knowing my history this target was set to fail, and so it did. I did achieve bunch of records though. I did achieve better in every sense except my game. My game was way off, till the point where it just completely got lost and tilted hard... and i also got a huge burnout that i feel to this date... I mean i dont know what i have expected... Playing 160 hrs of poker is really not easy... to play 60 or 80 hrs for me was a challenge before, and now i did want to achieve such ridiculously high amount... well i tell you what happened... I looked for motivation... so there were bonus offers out there for me, there was a million dollar race out there, so the higher i reach the more i get paid... and finally my goal... it was all about me beating myself... and i did, but i still failed.... stupid goals lead to disaster anyways... Justin wrote me in the very beginning... quality over quantity... this was always natural to me by nature, but the game got me greedy and got me all lost... i was warned by a lot of ppl not to do it but i still carried on... Well, i got burnt out pretty badly and that caused me not want to play for a long time... so i took a longer break... At the end of day im still happy what i achieved this month... i did realize my barriers and a lot of leaks in my game... i would say my weakest part of my game is still my mental game, although i have a few bad habits as well that need to be fixed. Talking about habits i am trying to learn new habits and try to train good habits into myself in all aspects of life...

So summing up this month would look like this:
Positives:
+ most hands played per day (6282 hands) although this was in june already
+ biggest win/day
+ biggest win/month
+ 362nd in the rake race earned me a nice bonus of $750
+ all bonuses cleared
+ most hands played per month reached (61678 hands)
+ most hrs played per month (117 hrs)
Bottom line with rakeback and bonuses was a nice 5 figure month... I could live with that any time

Negatives...
- 160 hrs not reached
- biggest lost per day
- burnt out at end of month
- lost the lifestyle i wanted to live
- lost touch with the world (sitting in my room all day)
- lost prop bet on goal not reached

So all in all although there were positives to last month there was a lot of negating factor making me decide not to do this type of rush any more. I need to reorganize my life towards more cycles of fun and less cycles of self destruction which i am very capable of ... this is why the title refers to me being my own prisoner... when i could just enjoy life as it is given to me i often find ways to destruct myself and this has huge impact on my environment too... I was not just missing out meeting people, but family as well... So another thing was learned... at least i hope... should be anyways...

Now the last 2 weeks of the month were quite a bad run for me and thus the somewhat negative tone for my blog as well... I did crash my car once again, its probabily the 5th time in my life that something happened to me in the car, not to mention there were few others when i wasnt driving... I guess im just not paying attention enough... It was a motorbike this time, its all me to blame, because i was on the side road and he came from the main road, but for sure he did speed like crazy... otherwise he would be able to stop the bike... well, it happened so now there's nothing i can do about it... i am not sure if this didnt happen i wouldnt do better in poker, but since it did, i just had to stop... Also pokerwise i started to run shit crazy bad so while i was in the gate 3 times to earn a trip to Vegas, i guess this year its not going to happen... I would be pretty easily make it if i did happen to deal with it more than 4 days... but this year it just wasnt that important for me to go, in other words i didnt want it enough... Saying all that im going to try harder for the January Poker Tour in the Bahamas, as that would be a place id like to visit....

Speaking of January, it looks like im going to spend a few months away from home and family as im moving to Macau for 3 months to play and advance in poker... Camp Macau is going to be 24/7 poker in the weekdays and fun stuff in the weekends hopefully, so im looking forward to that... It should be a great journey, i already have the permission from my lil wifey as well...

Btw, im glad she is doing very fine, we are talking quite a bit to our little boy and he seems to enjoy it, he is fond of music seems like, especially norah jones's "Come away with me" :))) Little Dennis is also pretty active and times that are quite extreme like late in the evenings. He also shows signs of interest when Csilla eats chocolate or something yummie... :))) So he is showing signs that he is getting ready for the LIFE.... We are going for a monitoring tommorow again to see Csilla and him are ok, and today it is planned that we are starting to do some shopping. Guess i can say goodbye to my office at home and need to find a new solution very soon... Or simply we just need a bigger apartment or house... :)))

I guess i will leave this blog at that... i have a few more topics i was meditating about recently but it will just have to fit in another blog.

Latez mates

London calling - the missing parts

2009-04-30T01:57:00.002+02:00

I forgot to add a few great experiences that we had that i forgot to write into my other description of our trip... First i made a bad note on that indian receptionist that to me is still an effin jerk and im not changing my mind on that, no matter what, however not all indian people are bad, that would be a very bad generalisation on my part, and i'd like to mention this guy at Green Park. We went there and shooting pictures about each other with Csilla and me being in hyped shape was jumping around looking for spots and how i could pose to the camera. Generally i dont like to be shot but whatever i was in the mood. :)))

So we are ready to take off to see the Buckingham Palace when this Indian guy is shouting at us to stop and running like crazy and when we turn he shows up with my Iphone. I was like totally shocked... He was like bowing that it is his honor to be in my help. WTF? That was just such an experience... How nice of this guy to see my phone felling out of my pocket and then returning my phone to me. Its so nice, i should have taken a shot of him and put it in my blog, but i was speechless that such good persons still exist. Of course i would return it to the owner if i saw it too, and already have done it couple times, but these kind of events still shock me when they happen, especially to me... It is especially valuable to me since all my contact are synched with google contacts and if i delete a contact from my phone thus gcontacts would get erased as well, thus losing all my contacts. Seriously this gives hope in todays world that there is good ppl out there. I mean most of my friends are good people, as this was my choice at some fraction of my life to surround myself with good people but still there are so many ugly things out there... Im really shocked... and i wish i could tell this guy in the face, how much he did to me... i guess i will have to do something good to others to just get even with this... I hope this guy lives a good life, i wish him the best....i feel like i took mostly and less often was giving in life and i must revert that at some point.

This was most important i left out from my previous blog, but there are 2 more things i wanna quickly mention... If u ride the huge wheel called London Eye in spring or in the summer, when girls wear skirts, then there is a funny panoramic view when their cabin moves above your cabin and at some point it does, you can look under or in between or you know what i mean, i just realised that as one girl during our ride showed us some extra extension to our London skyline. :))) Just in case u riding the London Eye you might take this free ride too :)
LOL

Last thing, Kwok who lived in London for all his life, he is now in Macau, being another member in our team he advised me to visit Borough Markets, now i would most likely visit Portobello road or some other markets but never this one. Its pretty much hidden from the very tourist stuff, but that place rocks... This place is like a special market place where people sell cheese, wine, fruits, some special meat... but everything there is to this place is all of that comes from a special region, like one stand sells french cheese and to that they sell racqluette sandwiches, some other stands were offering caramelised almonds and nuts and all kinds of sweets, then there were stands with other dutch and swiss products... shells, fishes really everything, but all that you dont normally find in supermarkets, more like delicatesse stores where ppl find special borough products ... I had the option to try a specialty from Lyon region that i had never had the opportunity to visit before. They have this food called Cassoulette and it is pretty good stuff, i would definitely buy myself a bowl if i was hungry but we ate such a huge breakfast i was just completely stuffed... For reference the market is open from thursdays to saturdays.

I tought these things should be mentioned in my blog as they amazed me quite a bit. Well not the wheel, I just wrote about that for fun and sharing ... :)

London, May, Bets and Record Attempts

2009-04-29T23:01:00.002+02:00

This is one of my other posts that im using in my poker crew and i mostly use it for poker blogs, but this one post im gonna publish here as well. The blog about London is going to get a new post and it will be coming shortly as soon as my pics are uploaded to Picasa as a slideshow of that will be included in the post. The blog is ready to publish and its saved but im only publishing it once the pics are ready. So till then here is a bit from my other blog.

Just arrived from London and the city brought me new inspirations. I am really shocked how much the city has to offer, since im from a small town big cities always shocked me. I would consider living in a big city any day, but it would have to be at a place that is a really cool neighborhood. Also i realised that there are as few british ppl in London as can be. Anything where we went were bunch of indian, east european and african people. I mean where are all the british people disappeared from London? Beyond me... After checking out NYC last year there was a good comparison basis for me in between 2 cities. They are very similar in multiple ways, there is SOHO, Times Square vs Picadelly Circus, the parks... and different sightseeing stuff... Well, everything that NYC has to offer is bigger, richer, in most terms , but London has more history and feelings for its streets. Both cities are awesome, but i could only imagine myself living in the better parts in both cases, in NYC that would be Soho or Upper East and West side, in London it would be most Soho, Mayfair, and some parts of central London. Living in zone 2 and zone 3 really is not matching my expectations. Anyways, it was a cool 4 day vacation and the environment change was nice. One negative aspect of the city i realised is how most people judge others on looks, race, ranks and stuff... it just proves my beliefs that Europe is the most racist (by any means of prejudice) place on earth.

New inspirations to get better, to work harder and to do it now, as the opportunity is right here, right now, and who knows what will be in the future 5 yrs from now. So i decided to overcome all aspects of my bad habbits i will challenge myself for one month to really really overwork myself. How will it go i will keep u posted in my new Twitter blog. Link will be posted at the end of blog. Now to keep the motivation and to keep people interested I am giving u a short update on my history. My biggest month in terms of hrs played was sometimes last year where i managed to pull 102 hrs. This year i never really reached close to that number. So you might say am i gonna try outdo myself? Well, that is not the question here. THat is pretty obvious, but im trying to match my playing hrs with the working hour of an avg. individual working 9 to 5 working days. That is my goal for next month starting May 1st. I want to play 160 hrs, regardless of how i feel or how i play. I just wanna prove myself that it is possible, i wanna feel some kind of achievement, and outside these hrs i will still need to do family, work, HEM(Holdem Manager reviews) and doctor appointments that are due because of my bad neck. It will sure be a tough month, to keep myself focused, to get better, and to play mostly on a good scale compared to the players i play against. I think it will improve me in a lot of spots and i will get to know of more of my weak spots. In times when a player sets himself conditions he is uncomfortable with can he make the most improvements. It will be in fact good in terms of my tilt control and i will try to revert my tilting back to my A game that is always going to be in focus for all sessions. There are some leaks that can find correction during this month. Im just looking forward for this month pretty much. Im organizing my life towards noone really disrupting me and noone pissing me off and im asking for the support, so we will see how things will go. I put up a prop bet with Jason, for 120 dollars he is against me doing it and i have still 380 dollars available for more prop bets if anyone is interested. My limit is 500 dollars.

Im also having a budget to satellite myself into the WSOP 2009 main event. Im posting my updates on that how things go again in my twitter blog... It was just so awesome playing last year and this year i would do so many things differently, regards in going out and playing poker. My game improved a lot. I believe Heaven and Earth Poker where i reside at the moment would welcome a world champion in that event. :) So im excited to play 1 day/week full of satellites on Pokerstars again, that is to be added to my 160hrs of play. It will definitely be a hectic month so im looking forward to it very very much. Oh yeah, and there is some homework im working on to make it harder to reach my goals. Im so positive though that i will be able to do it. Wish me luck or challenge me with the prop bet.

Anyone interested in the prop bet, message me on skype.

London calling

2009-04-27T19:01:00.013+02:00

As we get further along the pregnancy period so do we run out of time to travel or take holidays. This is in mucho terms a good thing as we getting closer to become parents, but at the same time it requires some more planning on how we do get our time well spent on ourselves. So i got in planning earlier this month and planned a 4 day trip to London, that was made happen this weekend.

For the last couple of years, our interest, and in most parts our interest covers MY interest is all about big cities and a bit about beaches and hiking. Old historical stuff does not interest us, small town life either. We came from a small town, thus we are not as much interested in country culture as much as Metro life. And thus the choice for Paris, NY and recently London. It also gives us a good comparison of the different cities, their culture and motion they live. Anyways, not to go far away from the topic we went to London for a weekend.

It was a great trip, with a few hickups and few angry moments here and there. It changed my view on a few things in life which had to be realized sooner or later. Anyways, our trip started out with a flight that was almost as cool as it ever gets, fast without problems and being spot on all aspects to be a good flight, that is for me as Csilla had a bit of a pain feeling in her belly which made her panic quite badly. Also a new feat i found out that Ryanair seats are non adjustable, which means Ryanair is not gonna have us as customers in the near future, i mean Wizzair and Easy Jet they both have adjustable seats why the hell it is not possible to do it for RyanAir when obviously price is the same. I am really not picky for flights and i most of the time chose a decently priced option, but non-adjustable seats???!!! Common you guys can do better... Anyways, no ones telling me to fly with them so thats ok... Also they offered me the only option to make a reservation online, which other sites clearly lacked as their sight is down as of today... Maybe it is something on my side, but i really dont think so... Well other than that the flight was ok, on time, very precise, in fact never been so precise with any flights in my life.

Ok, London... I made a reservation online for a Hilton hotel as there was a pretty good deal on it, including breakfast the room cost us 159 EUR/night. That is not too bad considering we stayed at the gates of Hyde Park and at a good local area. One thing i can clearly say is that I am the unluckiest person regarding hotel reservations. In the past we stayed at Formula One, got a room for handicapped ppl, we had a deluxe room reservation in MGM Grand we got a room for disabled ppl, guess what happened this time? Ok, here is my expectation... we get a room somewhere around mid high floors as the hotel has 28 stories... and we will have a beatiful view of either the Regents Park, either the Hyde Park or the London Eye... Pretty much you must get one of these options... Ok, so here goes my luck with hotels... We get a room mid high floor, guy (Looks like Indian, or gipsy... whatever it is not the point, but...) keeps telling us hotel is so busy, and they have late departures... So he gives us the room and i find out we get a room for disabled ppl. Now there is really nothing wrong with these rooms, but they give me this creepy feeling, wide seat toilets with bunch of rails and holders in the bath... they seriously creep me out... And if it happened first time i wouldnt say anything... but it looks like im running into this things recently almost 80% of the time. Also my first 2 rooms we received after 1 am, that is acceptable and we had it changed next morning. If we had those in the hotel i would not even bother renting the room out for non disabled ppl. Maybe it was on our forehead written hey pls, fuck us real good, we dont care afterall what we get, its an honor to stay at your hotel as we are young and east europeans... Now if i knew that at first place that this is the treat we are getting in Hilton im never even considering making the reservation... Oh yeah, the skyline of London was fucking beatiful ... from the west we could see a very nice tall wall of the hotel... the window looked straight down the roofs the local buildings and it had a feel like im standing on the edge of a cliff making me dizzy ... and no view on any of the attractions i was talking about above... oh yeah one queen size bed for 2... Fuck me if this is real... im going down to the reception demanding another room... "Demanding"...i walk up to this guy and say " We dont like the room" so he goes into his computer and finds us a King Size bed with somewhat better view on the 5th floor... nothing spectacular, but did we have to wait 20 mins and immediately get a new room, why the hell couldnt he tell us at first place... what an idiotic jerk that guy was... must have had a lot of prejudices against east europeans or young ppl. It turned out later at the trip that the room we got was possibly even worse what we could imagine... I mean the standard of the room was top notch... but here is the thing... we are on the 5th floor. Now obviously priority guests get high floors so the elevator system works like this. It collects the ppl on high floors then by the time it gets to the 5th floor it is full. And it starts over, until the whole hotel is emptied out... Now this is only a small issue in the morning hours when most people want to go for breakfast, checking out or just leave the hotel for their own business... Not a big thing if u like to wait 30 fucking minutes to get to the lobby from the 5th floor... A normal person would ask why wait, its just the 5th floor afterall a small walk is no big feat... Well, London Hilton had no stairs or in fact no emergency stairs to that end... All they had is a hook in the wall that you can use with a tough wire and u could use it to jump out the window in case of emergency. Well a breakfast is not an emergency so we got the option to wait 30 minutes for a fucking lift... I was so pissed at the hotel that there is seriously no money i would go and stay in any Hilton facility ever in my life. I mean yeah there is some money, if for some miraculous reason someone pays me, but the chance of that is pretty close to 0.00%, so yeah... no more Hilton for me... these hotels are seriously overrated. The staff is really not friendly and not professional, the restaurant is a peace of crap, they ran out of Honey in the morning when I wanted to drink my tea with honey... that is ridiculous... Anyways, the trip was great, and the hotel didnt bug as at all that much, but i had to give my opinion on them in my blog, and of course i make sure this goes up to tripadvisor and some other major booking sites. Like it does matter :) Just to point out why we were treated as is I assume is that the 90% of customers Hilton had were late middle age business men or old couples or royal Arab families... we dont fit the picture, or do we? Its just me who always have to go to these 5 star hotels, and to be honest if any 2 star hotel would offer the type of breakfast these hotels offer i would go and stay there any time... The breakfast is just unfuckingbelievably awesome!!!

Anyways, once we arrived we started to head out seeing some sight seeing attractions and had a very busy walking weekend. I think last time we walked this much was in Paris, maybe not even there, and back then Csilla was not pregnant. There is nothing much to say about London, its a great city, it really is more comparable to NYC rather then Paris... Everything that is NYC is London, except the streets of London are cooler with more history, i liked this part a bit better about London and that it is a bit more Euro... However NYC is grander and richer and flashier in all aspects then London is... I mean the parks in London are not comparable with the Central Park, however there is a lot more in London, and they are very well used by the ppl. I really liked that London was as green as it is. Now the skyline of London could be viewed from London Eye, a huge wheel that gives a nice panorama of London. Well nice... could be said nice as NYC skyline and panorama is just stunning compared to the low story buildings of London. Anyways, the 2 cities are very close in nature and i wouldnt mind spending some more time in any of them. Oh 2 observations we found funny... british people are seriously non existent in central London, and the pubs always show 30-50 ppl smoking in front of the bars and pubs. That is a funny feat as the new smoking ban laws in public places bring the ppl out to the street, and the street became the social place, well at least for the time of the life of a cigarette bar. In one comparison i could describe London vs NYC is London is the modest, elegant gentleman while NYC is the flashy, new rich Yuppie... They both have their beauty, they are very similar, but in a way they are very different. :)

So yeah, we checked out most parts, like the Buckingham palace, Parliament, London Eye , the Tower bridge and most parks including Green Park, St James Park, Regents park and Hyde Park, and while doing it we checked out the London Zoo, which in size turned out to be a big disappointment. We would think a Zoo in London would be like 10 times bigger than in Budapest but to be honest its probabily the same size if not smaller. :S We also had a whole day of shopping. The shopping are of London is real neat, i really liked the streets, but man there is crowd... Ive never seen this many ppl ever in my life, not even in NYC... that was some crazy experience for sure...

We as always love to go to the movies and so we went to see He's just not that into you ... or something like that with Csilla on Leicester Square... it was a fun movie and we can check that we went to the movies this month as well... We usually go like 2x a month but recently lacked going out to the movies for some reason...

Also the last day we went out to meet Detti a friend of mine from college and had dinner together in a nice pizzeria near Covent garden... it was funny as we had a most likely russian waitress to serve us and it really felt like in the military... she had strict rules and served us accordingly, for one example Csilla was not finished with her pizza yet, but Detti and I wanted to see the desserts available, and she said once she finishes we can have it, and we were like OK, if thats how its done here we wait like little puppies... :))) Another funny thing is that Detti didn't realise Csilla was pregnant. The thing is she barely gained any weight, like 6kilos so far... thats some pretty good result...

The trip really was a good time, we got what we expected, and a bit of change in environment is always good for the mind. Now we are back and getting ready for the grind. At least it I do, as Csilla is soon finishing up with the work, as she will have other priorities in life. :)In fact i have new plans going for the next month that i will post from my other blog that i write for poker.

I post a few pictures below from the trip, they will be familiar to most., after all its gonna be Csilla and me on them :))) I hope to get in the habbit of picturising my blog. And one more thing ... if u use twitter follow my twitting... I made a gadget also on the top of my blog site so you can just come visit it there... They should be more up to date stuff like Facebook updates, except i dont like Facebook so much... so yeah its gonna be this new addition to the site from me always showing as last post.

Latez my brothez

And the promised slideshow...

Health issues/Alfacity/Poker

2009-04-19T19:21:00.003+02:00

So last year I turned 30 and ever since some psychological change went through my head. It is one of those times when we start to feel older, mature, i dont know what else, but it did ring a bell to me. I have to watch my health. Recently for the last few months starting last summer i have had some minor migraines. I thought it could have been due to my eyes or could have been from the weather changes or something more serious. So after half a year, dont ask my why i waited this long, i decided to get to the end of this problem. After all it is not normal to have a headache day after day non stop.

In the meantime i bought myself a good chair at the beginning of this year, i changed a bit of my eating habits, i got to improve on my sleeping schedule and just 2 weeks ago i started a self defense class called Krav-Maga. I believe the Israeli secret service and police force is using the techniques so it cant be bad as it is used in our age. So it is a bit different from Aikido or Kung Fu, it is more of a get yourself out of trouble real fast and to give you a better chance of survivor in case of attack or provocation. I dont know if i will need to use it ever, but i like the style and trainings as they are also based on having a good fitness condition, which is definitely what i need. So yes im working out twice a week now. What is nice is Tibi is also coming every time we started it together and another nice feet is that its less then 50m away from my house. So yeah i cant be lazy :)

Anyways, back to my health issues. I organized a couple days around investigating my health. My mom is a nurse so she got me in most places pretty pretty fast. And results turned out that my spine is abit off its normal position, plus my muscles are a bit tight and im holding my neck incorrectly or to that matter my head. So now im going into these rehab facilities and get free massages and laser cure for my neck, so im really glad i started to work in and i hope i get to fix my neck as well, and here i mean fixing how i should hold it. Im concentrating on it most of the time so it is a bit tiring right, but i assume results will come. Im figuring im also sleeping bad as some of headaches come right in the mornings which is supposedly from bad sleeping positions. So im looking into getting myself an orthopedic pillow. Not sure if thats how it called but whatever...

Topic change... Cars... Last summer we decided to buy a car and while it is really nice to have a new car there are other nice treats are packed with our Alfa Romeo that we didnt expect to have. A large percent of the people buying Alfa's are big fans, almost fanatics. So the admiration towards the cars is beyond their wifes and life in general. People just go and fan Alfas and they are just like a proud owner having any type of Alfa. So time to time there are meetings could be town meetings or for countries or international. Yesterday a big attempt to make the biggest meeting of Alfa owners happened to take place in our town. The organization was not very good but weve seen close to a 1000 no. of Alfas yesterday. So what is the treat having an Alfa... Well other then its beauty and sporty look, and attention on details and design it is belonging to a small community. The community meets on the road and sign and blink and honk on the road to each other when 2 alfas meet and I can say with some confidence that it is a global european habit as i travelled a lot abroad with the car and i get blinked at from a lot of spots. Its a good fun feeling, its like in older times when there where Trabants and VW Bugs on the roads this was kind of the same feeling for them, but now the feeling is owned by Alfa owners. I just wanted to state Im also a proud of owner of car and after 1 year i can state it was the best choice i could have made. Now i dont know about how i will like it when our baby will be born as it is mostly a 2 seater, but i'll figure it out.

I havent blogged much about my poker game recently, but im trying do ok in that field as well, and im confident ill be able to grow big with my game one day. It is definitely a tough theme to do, the games are very competitive lot of wannabe pros like i am and lot of eager students of the game. Now couple years back, like 5-6 years back from today becoming a high stakes poker player was as easy as to play on my limit right now. The games however got much tougher and raising one's rank in the game is now not an easy endeavor. It requires lot of work, lot of focus, lots of energy and results still come slowly. Now i made a couple of breakthroughs and first time in my life i managed to move up limits again to 200NL, which i occasionaly played before but was a losing player. Now im testing myself at these limits im confident that in time i will be coming out glorious here as well, and im also weting my feet in Full ring games that are played with 9 other players instead of 5 that im mostly playing. It is very different, my style just absolutely killed in those games, and i need to focus on making some good adjustments. So we will see in a couple of months how i do, but im expecting good results. It is funny like last year i played 4 tables of 25NL to 50NL tables involving around 200 dollars top. But today i sit down at 6 to 9 tables depending on if its 6max or fullring games and i always have 1200-1800 dollars minimum at the tables. I had to get used to the amount of money involved in the games, but to be honest im still a small stakes player, and the big bucks are at the mid high stakes. So my path is still a long way to my newly set goal. My initial goal to make a living of poker is probabily will be reached by this end of year, officialy, but i dont wanna go too far ahead, as the game can trick us in a few spots, although for 5 straight months i brought home some nice little profits which im happy i was capable of. So yeah, im still in the fight to get better, and that hopefully wont change. The results should just come after work and training is happening.

I shall stop here for now but as on the sideline i have to mention that a couple weeks ago, at the time of my previous blog we got to know that we are waiting a little boy to extend the love in our family and we were picking a lot of names and lot of choices and so far decided to name him Dennis. It is not a hungarian name which was partialy a priority at the beginning but we decided to go with an international name. It also just came real random as none of us were aware of this possibility but on the way home from the doctor Csilla just was reading some names and this hit us at first listen. So yeah, our little Dennis the Menace is on the way, and we cant look forward to meet him. Thinking of the only Dennis i know in life is Dennis Rodman :) its a bit funny, but hey he played in the Bulls maybe one day our Dennis will too, oh yeah and he dated Madonna, too :) Anyways, this is not final yet, but kind of a most likely name we are giving. I cant wait to meet our boy, but in the meantime im getting to know him through Csilla's belly, we are communicating with him and he talks back kicking and moving signing he is ok. Csilla seems to be also very happy whenever he can feel him moving, for every move he makes Csilla's smile is wider and larger.

For today... Thats all folks !!! Tah tah tah tah tahtahtah taahh tah tah tah tah tahtahtah taahh

The Pregnant Father

2009-04-07T06:22:00.002+02:00

It's been 4 months now that Csilla is pregnant and it had huge influence on my life. We went through some pretty big change, and i mean BIG. All of that change is not bad at all, in fact i think things turned towards the better i would say. All i can say is Csilla is taking the pregnancy very well, she is one of those happy mothers who laugh a lot, and really feels good about herself. I think it has to do a lot with support from both families and i cant be too shy of my support either :))) She gives back a lot of love to me as well, that really helps the balance and keep me in good shape as well. In lot of cases during pregnancies the stronger gender feels all left out of the circle and that can really screw up the situation. It's definitely not been the case for us.

I remember how hard it was for my sister, and to be honest i was afraid we could end up like them as well. Her case was very hard had an endangered pregnancy and her husband provided her mostly pain and humiliation and no love at all. I kind of feel for her just now. But looking back at their case was so different. In first place they should never even have a baby back then. Their relationship was absolutely weak. It is said that the baby brings out the worst of people and it will challenge our relationship big time. We are different, we have respect and love and joy in our relationship, even now in a supposedly harder time, but you know what i must thank God to give me such a nice present, such a cool pregnant period, such a great wife. Im just overwhelmingly happy Csilla is going to be the mother of our child. Also facing our worse, I can say i already saw the worst of myself playing cards, and i have turned out to know myself better than anyone else. I got to know my weaknesses and i learned from them and i still learn, and im getting better. Its been really a great journey and i think facing myself in life was the toughest thing to do for me so far. In life many people never face their own self, living life as it is thrown at them. Its a shame, its a great journey exploring once' self its a bumpy ride for sure seeing yourself in a mirror that sometimes just shows pictures you dont want to see, other times it shows pictures of u that are not true... Definitely worth a try to look into your weakest points, where you think you can improve. Luckily for me, poker has been the mirror, it tested me and tests me day in and out. I think it prepared me to be ready as a father and be ready as a good person and to be a more responsible person. But i dont wanna go too far, its not like im flawless now, but to be honest i think grew up. For the first time in life i think i can say that. Its not like a grown up person throws away the fun part of life, men can never be as grown up as women, they just need their little toys and fun time always, but yeah, grown up to me means take life and be responsible living it. This is what im doing, all 2009 is all about that... and time to time it's not easy and other times its the best thing in the world. I dont really know where i will be in 5 or 10 years, but i believe i will fly sky high compared to where i stand at the moment both emotions and both stability wise. We will see, but i will have a say in our future for sure. :) Definitely my no. 1 goal is to provide financial and emotional security for my family, provide a good nest and raise a child with a good heart.

Anyways, i got off the track here a bit and im talking about stuff that is not in main focus these days. Well it is for me, but there is something of higher importance that needs attention. So yeah, Csilla is growing nicely so far gained 5 kilos that is not too bad. If all things go well she will gain up to 15 kilos which is really not bad, and she wont totally deform as a lady either. Saying just that she is totally deformed by now, but in a good way, she is really cute with a little belly, and i totally feel good about her. She is so fit and happy and cute i cant really ask for more. I hope the second half of her pregnancy will go just as good. It's a really nice period we have been talking about names already and how we are going to raise our baby and all that parental stuff... :)

Today we are going to the doctor and hopefully we are going to get to know the gender of our little baby. Im so excited, btw Csilla doesnt really want to know, she wants a surprise. Oh hell yeah, SURPRISE MEEEE, TODAAAYY. So hopefully by end of day i will get to know if we going to have a football star or a pop diva coming to the family :) Anyways either way im totally in madly excitement. For years ive been talking about how i dont want kids and how children are pain in the butt, and how they just are too much responsibility, its a big change for sure, but i cant really wait for the moment to see my baby. In fact im totally emotional these days. Im like a pregnant father. Dont know what has changed in me but my hormones changed me into a very sensible (wo)man :)

Last time we went to the doctor and saw some Ultrasound Pictures my eyes got all wet and i got like totally weak seeing our baby. Its such a weird feeling, and people who never had been pregnant or did not wait a baby probabily dont know what they are missing. Its just been weird seeing something totally new that touches into your heart so strong. We saw the baby crossing his/her little legs it was just an amazing moment. Today we will see him/her even better, i hope i will be strong and wont cry. :) Anyways, either way wether the baby will be a boy or girl i dont care, as long as he/she is healthy. We all say that health is no.1 always, but at first i really wanted a little girl, as i think there is a bit more sensuality between daughters and fathers, but then again there is more context between fathers and sons. So either way it will be a very good story. Life is crazily big, i just realized what a gift we've been given.

Im going to leave with that finish, my updates on other parts of life will come in a different post. So stick around, more coming later.

Flickr

2009-03-18T20:17:00.001+01:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Big announcement

2009-02-28T03:05:00.003+01:00

I placed this announcement in my previous blog but i decided it should earn itself a separate post. So we got this present for Xmas as i got to know 2 days before it. Csilla is pregnant. It came earlier as expected, but was planned and we are both very happy, and looking forward to be parents very soon. We delayed the announcement for the first 3 months as Csilla was panicking something could go wrong as that was the riskiest period for the baby i guess. So hopefully all is going well, then by September i should be a daddy... I remember few years back i so didn't want a baby, but i guess I'm starting to mature as i am pretty excited for the news. Still sounds pretty crazy, that in no time another human being will start expanding the family. Sometimes i wonder how could i be a good parent? What will i be missing in the great picture? But i guess when it comes to that it should be somewhat natural and things should go well. in general. It is crazy stuff and as Csilla gets rounder and rounder I'm actually starting to feel more responsible... As with wifey we are getting along pretty well, sometimes we have a bit of arguments as she is more sensible these days, but to tell you the truth i am too as well... Don't know what causes this but sure i feel I'm a different person these days... Other than that I'm not sure how Csilla will cope with 2 children (aka baby and me) and a dog. I thinks its unmanageable but she did surprise me in a lot of ways before... Is she a superhuman? Sometimes i wonder....

GOOD JOB, WOMAN!!!

Family, France, Skiing and other random stuff...

2009-02-01T18:41:00.007+01:00

It's been some time since i blogged, and since today i have to work at the hotel i can do a bit of that as well... Actually there has a lot going on recently lots of change... One thing is for sure there is always change...

So since new year i blogged this and that how i start to become all health oriented, this is mostly due that i never felt so bad about my health condition as i do now. I also believe that my lifestyle is so screwed up that continuing this life will end me take a long nap down under by the time i reach 40. So i am starting to make the right steps toward the healthy living. It is a lot harder for a fucked up guy like me, but im not gonna give up trying. And there has been much improvement to that effect. There is 2 more things i need o work on, first sleeping schedule, that is always the case and i hope i can post some developments on this in a few weeks, or months. Second for so long now ive been planning to start some excercise, no evolution anywhere in this area. I am always willing to go, but i know how much i hate lifting weights and stuff, so im looking for the right sport as always, tennis would be fun, but pretty much i have no one to play with. So i was thinking of Aikido or Win-Tsun Kung-Fu. I know Aikido is fun but i'd like to try some other martial art maybe that brings out the TIGER from me. Till i don't make progress here, i will start going to gym from next week. It is so easy to find excuses i will just need to get in control and go.

January was a good month overall, we had a ski trip with some friends and Tibi celebrated his 30th birthdays that gave us an excuse to party, which i don't do much anymore. It was fun all the way visiting a few bars and drinking a few shots of whiskey everywhere up till a point where u pretty much forget where u are who u are and what u doing ... It's always like that with Tibi, i mean i don't know who likes to drink more him or i do... Occasionaly... i never drink but when i go out with him its a drink fest most of the time... So yeah happy Bday there bud...

In January our yearly skiing trip to France has happened... It was same old stuff as always... Skiing, drinking, partying and eating... The snow was just fucking awesome to tell you the truth. I believe in France the ski resorts are taken care of in a way that can be absolutely unmatched by any place on earth. Now i have not had the chance to visit the luxurious resorts in Switzerland or Austria, but ive seen a lot of places. And none were even close to that of France... Every night the dozers are working their ass off to prepare the snow for the crowd, also their resorts are vast... I mean fucking huge... I had not one year when i could ski all the tracks available in one week, then again im not much of a ski fanatic so i do it only a couple of hrs a day.

Ski trips are fun in a way that food is all taken care of, we always have an agreement that every day someone else is preparing dinner, so yeah great stuff usually is coming out of this. Better and better, each of the members of the group try to impress the others, so it looks like the tv show where celebrities cook for each other except here there isnt much competition. So yeah i definitely enjoy these trips in all ways, then all we do whole night is drink and play games and talk... I happened to jailbrake my phone the day before the trip, so i brought alone like like 90 appz on my phone where we found great pleasure in quiter times. Unya played the Mah Jong all day, there was guitar hero Iphone version and then there was Backgammon, which we happened to enjoy a lot... A few nights it was huge drunk fest as well...

Now we had some interesting convos one day, when Lacika (works for Durex) brings down a box of condoms to the room, so we all start opening it and there are like 20 packs in the box, lubricatives and so on, so the topic starts to go on condoms, and im like i never used one, ever... well it was kind of sick telling this to the room as everyone started to fucking give me the hardest time about it, i didnt know if it was so uncool or what the fuck, but i just happened to be with girls all my life that i could trust... it probabily had to do with most of them being in a capital city where everyone is like fucking with everyone ... :))) well wtf anyways... im still a virgin in this matter and i dont mind at that ...

So having a few bad beats, always occurs with me here and there in life too. Now i jailbroke my phone for one reason, so i can hook it up with my laptop and be able to use it as a modem where i have no internet connection, i managed to do all that, but roaming internet is super expensive... its 2EUR for 1MB so all i did is checked my mail a few headlines with pics turned off, and some more important websites i needed to check, plus i was accessing a few documents i was working on while i was there... I made sure i turn picture downloading and everything off, even skype that continues to use internet constantly... But u know what Windows gave me the biggest Fuck U ever... while i wasnt aware of it the bastard downloaded some 20-30MB upgrade in the background... i happened to realise that when i looked at my phone and saw something like over 30MB download... i was like omfg this cant be true.... yeah a nice little upgrade for 60 EUR... My bad beat story, i still feel sick about it...

There was this one night we went out to town, we wanted to visit a bar all drunk and high and shit... the place was crazy full of english hooligans... :) I mean no offense brits know how to party... :))) Now this one night slowly walking towards the bar we see the security guy arming one british guy down and as he tears him out of the bar 4 of his mates run to help him... Nothing is wrong with that so far... Now ok, the story starts here, the security guys are Shaquile Oneill size big fat monkeys who cant count to 2 and have no fucking morals.... they are hired to kill trouble and were not said how to do it... so what they do is pretty much disarm this obviously drunk guy, not to mention no disarming was neccessary as guy had no weapons or what so ever just had his mouth bigger and started to be a bully... so what happens is the black Oneill family puts him on the ground and thats it... right? Fuck no, you would think, they start to kick the guy full speed, now imagine Shaq kick you in the face and stuff , thats what happened to this guy, harmless on the ground and five Nigerians kicking him relentlessly till he is KOd. Well they knocked him out pretty bad as 45 mins later guy was still lying there unconciously on the frozen ground... Guess ambulance is not too fast in the mountains... There was another guy talking Fuck U Niggers and shit but not for too long as one of the security guys ran after him put him down the ground and just for fun kicked him unconscious... fun stuff watching it live... Not to mention i was shocked what these fuckers allow for themselves... Im so against security guards, they are the root of all evil... Im pretty sure stealing in marketplaces, supermarkets, would drop to 50% if there were no security guys existed, also the troubles in bars in most places are caused by these fuckers... they are just there looking for the first sign of trouble...its like they need that little spark and they fuel the fire themselves... well whatever... The cops arrived not too much later and they all shaking hands with security guys like they did a good job, in France this kind of attitude towards drunk troublemakers is probabily accepted... For sure they did their job, they got to the problem by its roots... Fucking Homos...

So yeah skiing had some fun stuff, oh yeah there was this bar on top of the mountain every day till 5 PM there was a huge party going with DJ and ppl dancing in ski boots , that was fun... pretty much skiing is always good relaxing every year, this year we partied quite a bunch though... and sleeping was not enough as my roommate snore too bad... it happened in Vegas it happened now,... i just realized i was so badly disrupted by snoring its unreal...

On the road back home we stopped for a few hours in Venice, its a fantastic city, and it has a great atmosphere in the winter as well, not so much tourists, but still a lot, but yeah the city makes my heart go all BOOOMMM>.> Ok there is really not much for a story in Venice, they always rip you off no matter what, after all its a mafia town... we went there looking for some Parking for the car, ok San Marco parking is good, we go there and i start to joke there how its gonna cost us 8 EUR/hr, but in my mind was thinking like 1.50 to 2 EUR. Yes on avg. it did end up about 8, as it was 22 fucking EURs flat fee. And there were some big boss mafia looking ppl at the gates so theres no escape from that once you enter the garage... I guess it is accepted in general for Italy or maybe for Venice that ripping people off is good, i was still kind of bugged by it a little... So anyways, we had a few ripoffs, but overall i felt good.

Poker was also treating me well online, not so well live, so i decided im not gonna do much live action this year. It just takes forever till i can win back the money playing once a week in live casinos... So i stopped doing that and now focus on my online game. Its pretty demanding and some progress was made, but my coach is not too satisfied with the group as in general... so i decided i will take further action on improving and further action on wasting less of my time... Wasting is still a big spew for me so i need to cut back and start living a life...

Anyways, i left this for last as this is the biggest thing happening around other than my best buddy got married in Peru. Unfortunately i can't be there with him, i really wanted to but sometimes life says NO to certain things, and i had to let it go. ANyways, best wishes for you bro, live a happy life with Erica i really wish you the best and bring mucho children to the world, if your kids will be half as good persons as you are the world is gonna be a greater place...

So now i will continue on my big announcement. Decided i do this in a seperate post. So it should be coming right after this post.

Anyways, off to another few weeks of vacation from blogging... Hasta la magnana ... LOL

Chair status update

2009-01-20T13:57:00.004+01:00

Today ive received my new Herman Miller Chair. So beginning of January i decided to do something about my posture and started to look for a new chair. The reason while i did this was my veins and muscles started to cramp and i was thinking im putting too much pressure on my body and its parts while im sitting 10+ hrs in my chair a day. So the look for a new chair started. By the way if i never visited the poker forums i would die stupider for sure. I had not a clue about chairs before, just one pro decided to buy this newest Herman Miller Embody chair and that hit touchdown to me as well. I read a whole bunch of reviews and decidede to buy myself a chair. I was really really about buying the Embody but seriously it costs 3,000 dollars here in Europe. I could buy a used car for that type of money, so i decided i will set a budget and put a maximum of 1,000 bucks for the chair. Business is going slowly i have some goals set for this year and the 2 things just dont fit very well together...

I dont have to mention that nothing fit the bill to my tastes, when again one of my poker buddies told me to buy it on Ebay. Off to Ebay and an hour mailing back and forth with a UK retailer i was purchasing my 3mnths old Herman Miller Aeron chair. Today it arrived in the mail and at first look the packaging scared the shit out of me. First it was half torn apart, i knew im buying used stuff, but it was stated as AS NEW CONDITION.... so i fell for this advertisement and bought it. As the parcel guy brought stuff to hotel i had to ask him for an extra 5 EUR to help me bring it home as i will use it there. So im home, unpacked the chair, and the chair was half way put together, which was totally cool by me, as i didnt have to do the heavy construction work :)))

I checked every single part like 10 times, i wanted to know where exactly is there a difference between a used and brand new chair, but other than the packaging and the price i couldnt find any difference... Sweet... time to try out the new baby...

I must be dreaming... I compared the 2 chairs side by side... its not comparable... In my old chair i felt the stiffness in my legs the heavyness of shoulders and that im kind of sitting uncomfortably... Now the new chair when i sit in it was a whole new story... It reliefs all the stress from my body... So unreal... I couldnt believe it myself... You just have to realize this... I mean when i read the reviews i was like yeah people can talk this stuff into their brain and feel the difference afterwards... but seriously this is no commercial gimmick... its so unbelievably comfortable i will have to test it how it performes in the long run, but im pretty sure this was 760 dollars well invested. Plus if i wanted to buy it in Slovakia as brand new it would be 1900. Sweet deal ... sweet chair.... Love it...

Its so adjustable, you can turn the armrest to outside normal or inside depending on wether u use keyboard or mouse... it has a tilt control so it does not allow you to lean backwards e.g. when u work ... but these things are just tiny little details that make the chair supercomfortable... I cant even think about what the Embody does for u as that is the newest version of the Aeron plus some new extras.... Crazy stuff... If you spend a whole lot of time in a chair and your company does not provide you a good one or u just sit in front of your pc at home a lot, i would definitely recommend investing in one... This is one of your investments in life that for sure considers your health and well being, you will never regret it...

Here is a review and some pictures of the chair....

More health, new gadgets

2009-01-02T21:59:00.003+01:00

As i feel all grumpy in the new year, i decided i look into my health problems. First of all i dont eat healthy at all, my sleeping is messed up as usual, and i sit in front of the computer, plus i have like no workout at all. This all adds up to a shorter life span plus unbalanced behaviour that i definitely feel on my body and in my brain.

I need to do some fixing of this, like eating healthier more vitamins (fruits in the morning), better chair for my desk, working out sounds appealing, too.

My posture went real bad for the last couple of years and i need to act, so im out for shopping for a good office chair. For now i dont want to spend any bucks that i cant use well and will regret in a half year. So 200 dollar chair that i will regret is out of question. I got this chair for last xmas and its a piece of crap if u ask me to sit in it 10+ hrs a day. So my wishlist for new chair was updated with the following possibilities:

Herman Miller Embody
Steelcase Leap
Knoll Life

All are decent high end chairs :)) I have already wrote the emails to the companies representing them in europe to send me a quote on them. I am kind of leaning towards the embody for now, but it costs 1600 in the US and im afraid it will be like 2600 here. So the chair is to be bought under 2K, otherwise i stick with the cheaper options. Not sure of the price of the 2 other chairs but probabily way way cheaper.

So here's to a healthier New Year!!!!

Good bye 2008.... and some future planning

2008-12-31T19:04:00.005+01:00

We came to the end of another year. Last year i went out with a bang celebrating a fantastic year, with almost nothing bad that i can remember happened. This year i think surpassed last year by an inch and if the meltdown that i felt in october never happened this year would by miles surpass all years i lived so far. Well, it is a cycle in everyone's life i think. We all have our ups and downs in life, so im cool with having my own at this moment. It's going to be tougher to live better in the future though, but i am ready for the new challenges the future might bring and as long as i am challenged in the future i will be ok. This is how i tick i think. I need new challenges and when i tear them challenges down i am happy. I also like to enjoy life, that for me means eating out, trying new places, time with family, travelling possibly with friends, but i enjoy travelling as much as possible no matter what and work in a field that i enjoy. So when i will be down in the future i will try to ask myself how i do in these fields that i enjoy. Things might change, but so do we. There is a saying only the wisest and stupidest people don't change. I guess i am not a member of either group which is cool by me. I never was the smartest person around and i am pretty sure im not the stupidest either. So who knows where im going, how will i change and what my environment will be like in 2-3 years not to mention if i look further away like 10-20 yrs. But for now im continuosly setting goals and i try to reach them slowly in my pace.

So before i go to conclusions and plans for old/new year id like to blog a bit about this xmas. This is probabily my 2nd or 3rd xmas in life that i was not well prepared for in mind. Well not that you have to get ready, but most of the time i am starting to feel the xmas atmosphere way earlier like early november and ever since after im in a very emotional mood and slowing down for the end of the year. This year was different, i guess i had to wait my party with friends on the 13th december and just after that i started to realise around the 15th that xmas is pretty much here. So i let Csilla organize a shopping day for us. I think i did well (well, i never do well in shopping days, but i still managed not to tilt hard). Surprisingly i couldnt buy much to Csilla, other than a few clothes and an iPod Nano that i earned through my Frequent Player Points on Pokerstars. :) But we almost bought everybody something special this year that i liked pretty much as well. Anyways, xmas shopping is almost always a pain in the ass. This year i took it quite well.

Anyways, Xmas you give Xmas you get.... Last year i wrote a huge list of gifts that people can buy me so it is easier for everyone and i dont get shit that i dont want or dont like that much, or some unneccessary crap. THis year probabily because of the fact that i spoiled myself everything i wanted i never wrote my wishlist. There was only one mouse that i needed and for years of wireless mousing i am using a High End gaming mouse with wires. Its sweet, super responsive , customizable and i love it. Of course Csilla baby got it to me. She knows my taste (i bought the mouse btw myself :))) ) What's really sick is that most likely next year i will be asking for another mouse again. For the last 3 years i consumed up around 5 High End mouses all ranging above 100 dollars. That's a pretty big spew for me, but i always must have the best out there. How can i break so many mouses? Yeah you guessed it right, i throw them to the wall or ground, slam on them and stuff when poker gets the worst of me. That was off topic a bit, back to xmas.

What people never realise is that i don't drink. I drink once a year or maybe twice and usually on xmas i open up a bottle of wine with everyone, but that's pretty much it. I dont like to drink and thats it, maybe i dont like alcohol. So anyways, since i turned 30 and xmas and all that shit this was unreal how many bottles of alcohol i got. Wine, champaigne, whisky and all kinds of shit. Seriously sick. This mistake im never gonna do. I wont be lazy to write a wishlist. I mean a bottle of whisky is 50 bucks or the wine i got is 40-70 bucks. I can just ask myself a USB key or something like that, its cheaper and im happier with stuff like that., well wine is always alright but whisky? Also mom is always trying to be a sweetheart and fills an envelope with bunch of cash. So UNneccessary, i mean i value every gift that comes from the heart, i just hate gifts that just were bought because they are easy to buy and one less person to shop for. THose gifts i hate so much. For instance my sister got me a bottle of Jim Beam whisky. I have never drank Jim Beam ever in my life and probabily wont be drinking much unless i can mix it with some Redbull or something. It's just not to my taste. She couldn't know this of course, but she could ask me if there is anything i want, or she could buy me a photoalbum etc... Those are much more personal, but getting a bottle of whisky to me says fuck u bro, i dont care for u at all....

You should see us with Csilla, while i would buy gifts much faster Csilla does reconsider every person in our family 10x if our choice is good for them. So while its not nice to complain on gifts we receive there is still a lot of truth in it on my side i guess. Well, if i didnt spoil myself this year all year long i would probabily be pissed about it, but now im just taking it as a splinter in the finger.

Xmas however is always nice. There is a movie called 4 xmases that was a pretty funny movie we went to see. Now xmas in my family is somewhat like the same. Divorced parents want their share of the xmas. Funny... And our day looks something like we wake up visit my mom, spend few hrs there see dad's house spend a few hrs there and go to Csilla's parents. By the end of the day we are sick full of all the goodies our parents cooked and probabily like 5 kilos up in one day. It's just continues throughout the hole holiday season. For each day we have appointments to eat and better and better meals wait for us each day. We also take our host roles and invite everyone to our apartment one by one, which is awesome as i get to drink a bottle of wine with everybody. This is the only time when i dont really play poker and i can get a bit of a buzz. What can i say i love xmas. Family is all happy, peaceful and we really enjoy quality time together. So much fun.

I really wanted to go out with a bang this year, there were so many good things happening with us, but poker kind of dissappointed me this december until of course xmas week and a week before. I started running well, and playing well. I also put up a pretty good grind and set some records for myself. I usually play around 20-25K hands a month and to come up with a record one week before xmas i made a 10.3K hand grind in a week, that was pretty sick for me. Also 2 days before xmas i put out a 3.6K hand a day grind which also brought me my biggest daily win of 11 buyins which is a nice treat by poker gods. Then i skipped 3 days and my buddy Kojak called me up if i wanna play in a Sit n Go in the neighbor town to Komarno, and in a last minute decision off we were playing poker. I did finish 3rd in the money out of 18 without buying any rebuys. That is a big a word since most fishes buy like 5-7 rebuys in a tourney like that. Then i was ready to come home but Kojak probabily first time in his life wanted to play cash games. So i took a buyin home from there as well. This was by itself a pretty good deal for me to the end of the year and i was ready not to play much poker till next year. BUT.... Pokerstars had a Guiness World Record week, they organised the biggest tournaments in history. First of all they had $11 buyin tourney with $500,000 guaranteed of which Pokerstars provides 150,000 as max entrants are 35000. Unfortunately i didnt make it as it was full by the time i wanted to register. So i thought im gonna try to get in to the Sunday Million tournament which usually has 1M dollars guaranteed but Pokerstars decided to up the ante to 2.5M guaranteed. I didnt have any money at my Pokerstars account just my FPP points so i decided to try to satellite myself in the big tourney and from 5400FPPs for second try i made it. Which means i got in for about 105 dollars to the 215 bucks tourney. This was already boosting my big bang plan for the end of year but i ran well and played well and poker gods decided ive earned to make a good finish. So there were 16260 entrants, and i finished 180th and brought home a nice $3.5K win. I went out as a fish but i was way 2 tired after 8 hrs of play. Anyways, since then i barely played a few SNGs for FPPs for money i played none and thats how i finished my year and went out with my desired big bang. Thank you POKER GODS!!! :))

New Year's Eve we are spending home. This is why im writing my blog write now. There were couple of places we could go but taking into consideration a few facts we decided to stay home this year which is first time in probabily the last 10 yrs maybe more. Im not sure... So we are having a slow finish and kind of waiting to for the start of next year where im gonna start out my biggest grind of my life.

Summing up this year in a few words is that IT WAS A BLAST!!! My plans were to visit my friends in America, check, buy a new car, check, move up to 100NL games, check, play 300K hands a year failed. Although i failed this goal by around 50K, so im still ok with that achievemnt.
Other things were we achieved good where i didnt expect to do much is we managed to transform into a 3* hotel now and my skills in tournament and sitngo poker were boosted unexpectedly well. Made it to the WSOP. I have also gained myself into a new pokerteam that going to start grinding next year and being a part of it should be a great promotion for me in my poker career the next year. I will let you know more on this once i can. For now im just saying this is a great opportunity and im expecting to get a lot out of this.

Next year? Euro is coming to Slovakia as the single european currency. Our GDP is going to be still positive but growth will be slower. Business competition will get tougher and we will get even better making a good life to the consumers. And some goals towards i will have to work hard and commit myself full year.

Goals for 2009:

Become a semi-pro poker player - grind 30 hrs a week and kind of do as a half time job
Move up to 200NL both skill and bankroll wise
Some poker records - 8K hands a day record - one 5 digit tournament money - possibly win myself into the WSOP
Reduce debts by 25%
Save X dollars (the no. X is not public at the moment, although this goal is borderline reachable)
Baby plans
Destroy old building on land i bought and buy architect plans for future construction, this has low priority as goals no. 4 and 5 are higher importance once

That is my basic goal guideline for next year, but there will be 100s of small challenges in the meantime that we will have to deal with on a daily basis and i hope i will be able to cope well in the next year. Wish me luck!!!

And i have one more thing. Please do a favor to us all. HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!

Partying

2008-12-16T06:59:00.003+01:00

Yo! SUP!

Back with a bit more blogging here. As I moved beyond 30, i needed to do some partying. As it supposed to be we did do a huge party with my family where a lot of people could celebrate their bdays, names , you name it... there were a bunch of stuff and the party was perfectly set up for good fun, i would say for the elderly. There was another group that celebrated the 50th for one guy, so i can't say it was too much for young people. Nonetheless we had a lot of fun, and as i promised to be all drunk and shit, that never happened. Somehow i couldnt pass this expectation. I felt like alcohol is not much for me, it wears down my body, it makes my nerve system all cracked up and i feel aggressive on later days. So instead of getting drunk it was a night to dance it all up, eat up and chat around with family. I am sure i felt the way about drinking was helped by the fact that i woke up half hr prior to the celebration meeting.

So the whole night was pretty much cool, and we got some special free stuff like a magician putting up a show to us. That was ordered by the other group of people, but we got to enjoy the show as much as they did. I was actually amazed of the entertaining of our magician, simply put he was awesome.

Anyways, i still had to put out the rave somehow, as family meetings are not that much about the rave, so i organised a bit of a get together with friends that took place this saturday. I wanted it to start out slowly with a dinner maybe going to a wellness centre before that, but as plans change constantly wellnessing somehow was out of the way. Similarly to my earlier family party i woke up not too much earlier again as the party started. I met up with a few friends of mine from all over the place. It was fun to see people from high school and college. So yes, we started out pretty slow, but dont get that wrong, slow just meant we chatted up a bit, drinking and waiting for our dinner which was quite a long wait. But nonetheless, i hope i can talk for all, i think we all had a good time. We don't meet too often, so having a good talk and a few drinks in between is quite valuable to me. By the time it was midnight we were all ready to hit the bars and discos of the town. At this point most of us got to a good buzz point that just kind of got deeper and deeper throughout the night.

We went to 3 places, they were all pretty cool, all had their own atmosphere, but the first one was just awefully packed. We needed to get out there pretty quick. Then we hopped into the taxi and off we go to the other disco and finally to the 3rd one. What surprised me a bit was discos are way emptier these days as back in our days. But nonetheless it was fun. It was good to see Csilla getting back her groove. She told me she was still feeling young enough for the place, and i was like totally she should be. If i can get the group together more often i am sure we will go to discos with a bit more frequency in the next year.

We got home early in the morning and we had a good long talk about everything there can be. Then we both felt a bit worn down and i had to take a bath at 6 am. For some reason i couldnt get myself to sleep so i went to play a few SNGs while being quite drunk. It was quite fun and i took down some money off the tables.

Most of the group left around 3. But some of us decided to meet up the next day and enjoy what the Wellness centre has to offer. Well so we did, we had a good brunch at McDs and then headed back to the Wellness centre. Csilla passed on that opportunity she went to visit her parents, while Tomi and Peti and I chose to go. So it was fun as always. One change they implemented is that the Sauna world did not allow us to go in with swimsuits or shorts. We had to put a blanket around us and use that for cover. But you don't go into the jacuzzi with cover so we were forced to put up with some nude show. Man and women all nude in one bath. Felt pretty weird, but i think i can get used to it. :) By the time i got home, i passed out so much that i immediately fell asleep.

These last few weeks poker is gone ok, average sessions, average results. I was ok by that, but what has changed a lot is that i got into like a new poker community that promises lots of work, lots of studying and lots of potential. I hope i can meet expectation there as group expectations are pretty much big hrs per week. This means 40 hrs for me, kind of full time. So that is going to be for next year. I think for this year this will be my last post, so if i dont get to talk with some of you i want to wish you a Merry Xmas, and have a wonderfull New Year!!!

Hasta la vista in next year...

Cheers!!!

My birthday - scientological experience shared :)))

2008-11-21T07:45:00.003+01:00

Please be prepared for scientific experimentation discussed below
LOL... I actually try to be somewhat serious this time...

Ok, as many of you know i turned 30 2 days ago. It's been a very fantastic 30 years of time journey living through ups and downs, hits and bumps here and there. Don't want to make big assumptions but i lived my own and i gained so much life experience, i would even say probabily a bit more than my fair share as of this age. But here is what i know... life CAN be very tough., but it is not necessarily is so. So why can it be tough? I give a few reasons below that might be the main cause of it... these don't take into consideration death and catastrophic scenes in your life but can be somewhat of a good basic...

First of all most important thing of all is you have to find out who you are. You have to know where your weaknesses come from what makes you strong, what gets you high and what puts you down. If you don't find this out about yourself you are going to be your own victim in living a poor(not financially) or rough life. One thing is for sure, the one thing that you can change in your life is yourself.

Secondly, you have to fight and stand up for what you like to do... this can be a college, some school , a course, training, a hobby, your career, a girl/boy or just about anything. This is very important. You cannot live for your family, you cannot live for others, you live for yourself and when you do people and friends will change around you and they will in a way that they will like what you are and they will hate what you are. But for sure only the ones that like or love you will stand by your side. And if you don't live truly to yourself how can you expect your environment to be true to you... You live someone else's life and the people around you will be like that someone else who's life you living... Live your own life...

Don't let anyone tell you what's the right thing, because they just want to form you to be their biyatch and follower. You must decide on your own. And this is very important again. Find balance. Always weight and think ahead, try to guess outcomes and be prepared. There will be always some shit that's gonna put you down time to time, but your preparation for those times can change world ends. Find balance in your hobbies and your work, your family, your friends and your own time, find luxury but be aware of your savings... you can't have it all, but once you find your special balance you will feel like you have it all ... and there is always more to be wanted... more to be achieved...dont' get greedy

Third observation, live an impulsive life but don't make impulsive decisions, especially not when it comes to your health, your family or your money.

I mean i could be writing a book about life by now and im sure i could come up with lots of great examples, taken from my own and others life. Could extend my list to be a book long but basically these things that i found crucial in my opinion that i wrote about above. That is find yourself and be yourself... stand up for your dreams... Find the right balance... is it a lot to ask for? It is harder than one might think... and lot of people don't realise that in their life ever... they just live some other person's idea of life or they run the rat race just because everyone else does... they are so out of line about marriage and money and they never even want to educate themselves about anything that is life... just accept what there is out for them. But there is just so much more for everyone out there... but nothing falls to your laps for free... you have to fight for it... want it real bad... and you will get it... In my conversation with god two days ago (you would ask how did i do that) i really come to a fantastic realisation. And it was that I CAN DO IT!!! So what is that silly talk? I watched a movie called FACING THE GIANTS... and it was really inspirational, really soul touching and really just a good movie... Watch it if you can it totally does worth it... watch for yourself... to me god's words came through this movie and said believe in yourself... but the movie was good entertainment too... i recommend it...

So now that i blah blahed all the way through this post i m going to finish up with some news... I turned 30... yes... i again am getting presents... and i am getting what i really looked after to get for myself... Not big stuff, but what is nice to my soul... like wine and stuff, general things other than my iphone (i normally sleep with it, IT'S SO AWESOME). That was my present from my lil wifey who surprised me with it when it came to store... but what else is birthday...so obviously presents, celebration, and partying... so far on the 19th i did a partial celebration... i took my wife out to Bratislava where i play poker every wednesday... She wanted to see where i play and i didnt mind her coming... while this is not very romantic to go to a poker party on a birthday i really wanted to go as this was the biggest SNG (Sit and Go) Tournament i was about to participate ever... Yeah believe it or not i play in a $2500 buy-in SNG. I was prepared in my mind for the worst that i lose it and i will not care. It was my birthday and i decided i will feel good and i will play well, nothing else i can do. And so i did... And we split on first place and gained a net $7500 dollars. That was a great b-day thing for me as October was just so horrible everything wise... and i needed some confidence boost that im still good and im still on the right path... and this win really helped it... It's also good to win when you play the biggest tournament of my life, will not forget it for sure... (well the biggest win and biggest tournament was the WSOP one this summer, but this one was the biggest i actually paid cash for and the biggest cash i won in one day)

Anyways, yesterday i asked Csilla out for dinner, and so went to some new place near Komarno, but we were both quite tired so we didnt stay out long. I have a party coming this saturday and im planning to drink my first toast there. I have passed 30 and havent even toasted myself... what a shame... well it was great getting all the emails and messages from everybody and so it made up for it... this saturday however im gonna get so freaking partying it up :))) THat is going to be with family... in december there is going to be a small get together with buddies too so anyone that can make it is very welcome... I am sending out the email sometime this week... Although dont expect it too much, i am weak with emailing so that might come next weekend only :))

So that's the story of this week. I'll update more on how the party went along. And sorry for my random ramblings...i just want to share ideas here sometimes that can serve you as a new perspective if you don't already know this :))) or at least something to consider ;) Ok hasta la vista baby... Terminator signed off lol

Catching up

2008-11-13T21:50:00.002+01:00

I have some catching up to do with my blogging. Really there is stuff going on always and i am pretty sorry about not being able to put down to words at all times. I am sure my diary would actually be so much more interesting if i put down all my ideas, all my opinions and all my experience that happens in my life. Since i live a life of a sponge soaking much of it up all day long i have less time to blog. However... as of most of our november and december months take place i work in the hotel. It is because all of our girls report sick and go to school and all kinds of different bullshit. I guess that is just a a way it has to be and at the moment i have no real solution to that, but thinking about it real hard during times when im not upset about it.

Since i am working today as a receptionist, i have all the fucking time i have to do just whatever i don't do at my other day's. Talking about hard work. This work is so not demanding at times, and today's one of those days when i just sit here and look ahead out of my head and can think and can play, and can listen to music or just watch a movie. I thought instead of waisting my time with such things i finish up or do some work towards my bloggin for this year. I also have a few ideas for new year that i might incorporate into my blogs. I am not sure i will ever do it but the ideas keep riping.

So i was just going to blog and was looking at my superbly organized bookmark toolbar for my blogger link when suddenly YOUTUBE's link popped out and asked for a click. You might all know that i don't watch much TV and thus my brain is a bit less brainwashed as the average person's. However i get behind on some very funny entertaining stuff as well while i do that. So on my journey to YOUTUBE (i take this activity partly as watching TV) i discovered her. And i was really amazed of her short videos. Probabily because of her high intellectuality :)))

Can a lady be sexy, funny and intelligent at the same time? You tell me. Although i think this about my wifey :))) lick lick lick

Ok check her out for yourself!!!

Change has come

2008-11-05T11:42:00.002+01:00

This election was the best election of US history. More participants then ever before, more hunger for change, first black president, and so much more. The results of the election surpassed all of my and many others expectation. This change was needed. Old policies were too aggressive, too arrogant, too uncompetitive, too inconsiderate and the consequences were felt everywhere around the world and to be felt in the near future. If the people around the world could vote i think the win would be even more notable. There is nothing wrong with the people of the USA, but when the police of the world starts acting on its own it is everything but not acceptable.

I believe the election of Barack Obama was so necessary for the world as water to a plant. I believe the optimism and hope he brings not just to US citizens is crucial in such bitter times. I believe he can bring back traditional values to people's life, such as work ethic, family orientation and much more. I believe his presence in foreign policy will make the world a better place (as i believed diplomacy won always before arrogance ). Not everything is just black and white of course, things are more complex as they seem to us, but i believe this change was really neccessary and the world and the citizens of the USA will both benefit from this alteration.

I hope it's for the better, but change has come!!!

US Elections coming soon

2008-10-30T16:16:00.002+01:00

Since i am not an american citizen i won't have the opportunity to vote. Unfortunately. I believe that the USA has so much power and so much influence on the world that the rest of the world should have a saying in this election. Well, since we can't i would like to send out a small message. A poker pro on the forums i used to hang these days posted a message in his blog. It's all about his hero. He is a bit overwhelmed with Obama, but i have to give him credit he did his job of research. Only if all americans would do this way. I'm sure Obama would get elected. Now i really hope he will. Please take a few minutes and read his story and check out the video on you tube. Thx! VOTE OBAMA!!!

Here's the post:

This is not a blog to try and bash John Mccain or any of the bad things I perceive the republican party has done over the years. This is not a blog where I vent my frustrations over the way my country is handling things. And this certainly isn’t a blog where I want to try and point out why Barack is the better candidate for Presidency amongst the two candidates. This blog is my true thoughts and beliefs as to why I believe not only will Barack be the best President in US history, but one of the finest men to ever grace this planet as well as a little of how my story helped shape my love for him.

I first decided I wanted to learn more about this guy with a funny name that everyone was talking about as possibly being the next President about a year ago. I knew that our country needed great change and that the current system was not one that had the collective interests of the masses at heart. Because of that belief and hearing that Obama embraced the interests of the middle class, I began doing my homework on him. I bought his book, Audacity of Hope, and watched as many youtubes of him as I could find. After poking around on youtube, I came across Barack’s 2004 DNC speech and it literally shook me to tears. I simply couldn’t believe that there was a man that had a very real chance of reaching the highest office in the land, who shared all of my core beliefs. In that speech he talked about so many things that I wholeheartedly embrace, but the one that stood out the most was when he said that he had a fundamental belief that, “I am my brother’s keeper. I am my sister’s keeper.” That really stood out to me. He later went on to say that, “If there is a child on the south side of Chicago that can’t read, that matters to me even if it’s not my child. If there’s a senior citizen somewhere who can’t pay for their prescription drugs and has to choose between medicine and the rent, that makes my life poorer even if it’s not my grandparent. If there’s an Arab-American family being rounded up without benefit of an attorney or due process, that threatens my civil liberties.” Hearing all of this made my eyes flood with tears as I recalled the times in my life where I got a close up view of just how ugly greed and selfishness can be. I too can recall my own parents placing their pocketbooks ahead of what was best for me in nearly every situation. I too can recall having a heart condition that I knew was more involved than the Dr.s who were incentivized to not tell me the real truth were telling me. And I can remember the concern I expressed about this to a family with a net worth in the 8 figures, only to once again receive the cold shoulder. I know what it is like to feel like you are on your own and it is certainly not a lot of fun. That is why I was in tears when I found a hero that actually had a fighting chance to help put an end to the suffering that so many families go through on a daily basis.

As I learned more and more about Barack following my intial exposures, I fell more and more in love with what he stands for. I really feel like I have gotten to know him. I have probably watched some of his best speeches 30 or 40 times each! The great thing about Barack is that if you are ever in doubt as to how he may stand on a particular issue, you really don’t need to think any further than to just figure out what is right for the masses is probably where he stands on the issue. He stands for doing the right thing. I also love the fact that he really doesn’t keep much of an eye out for the rich. As someone writing this who most people would probably define as rich, I am here to tell you that I don’t need anyone to take care of me. I don’t need a tax break. What makes my life richer is not going to be extra money in the bank, but rather extra smiles on the faces of those less financially blessed than myself. Barack understands something that took me a long time to figure out. I used to be pretty hardcore in the sense that when people didn’t have health care or enough money for retirement or money in their saving account for a rainy day, I used to say things like, “You had your whole life to make money, too bad.” Or, “If maybe you got off your lazy butt and worked a little harder, you’d have a job that paid for health care.” But then I came to realize two very important lessons. First of all not everyone comes from the same background as me and for some it is difficult to overcome all of the obstacles placed in their path. Obstacles that are out of the realm of their control. The second thing, and most important, thing I learned, was that even if every single person took my advice and worked their tail off to climb the ladder, someone has to dig the ditches, pick up the trash, flip the burgers etc. That will never go away. We can’t all have cushy desk jobs and executive positions. So even if the whole nation took my advice, it would just mean the bar would be raised, but the jobs still need to get done. So for me to not think of society as a collective group trying to reach a common goal just stopped making much sense. Barack helped me come to that epiphany.

When I think about the life that Barack has lead it has just inspired me to be so much more than what I am. Here is a man that grew up from a mother that left him at a young age to study overseas and a father who he only knew once for about a month when he was 10 years old. He was mostly raised by his Grandma who he described as the financial rock of the family. He, like nearly every kid growing up in a broken home, did poorly at school and did his fair share of drinking, drugs and hanging out with the wrong crowd. Despite this potentially devastating upbringing, something clicked along the way and after going to junior college for 2 years, he got into Columbia University which is one of the most amazing schools in the country. After graduating from there, he turned down all of the lucrative job opportunities bestowed upon him and worked as a community organizer for several years for just enough pay to get by. Later he went back to school, this time to Harvard. He became the President of the Harvard Law review and upon graduating, once again turned down the amazing job offers that literally could’ve afforded him the type of wealth few in this country get to experience. He again went to work to help those less fortunate.

That was the part that truly blew my mind. There are a lot of people in this world that accumulate a lot of money and then give something back to the community. There are very, very few people who turn down the option of becoming rich in the first place so they can help people out. This for me sealed the deal with him. I now have no reason to believe he will abuse his pwer as President because he clearly isn’t a man that seeks money and power. I have long been skeptical of politicians. It is my opinion that most say whatever it is they need to say to get elected, and then use their position of power in ways that totally violate the spirit of someone who is supposed to be an elected leader of his or her constituents. But I have no fear that Barack will do that. He has shown no signs at any point in his life that he would behave in that way. He is a man of the highest possible integrity and is here for one reason and one reason only. That reason is that he believes that the universe is bigger than himself. He recognizes that he has been blessed with an opportunity to change the world and truly serve the people in a way that can positively affect the way people live their lives on a day to day basis. I think he is well aware that when he signs his oath of office this January, that he may very well be signing his own death certificate in the same way that Lincoln knew the moment he signed into law the bill that would free the slaves, that he too stood a much greater chance of his own life being taken. Now I obviously hope that Barack remains one of the most influential people until he’s 100 years old, but I, like many others, fear for the man.

Many men before him who have stood up for what they know deep in their bones is the right thing to do, have been fought hard by those in power. On a very minor scale, I have experienced the same thing with my father. My father is one of the worst, tyrannical people I have ever known. The men in my family have maintained great power for generations and generations before me. They have consistently treated their wives like possessions and second class citizens. They have ALWAYS placed their own personal wealth above all matters. Their kids were meant to be seen and not heard, and to be a fine representation of the way their father’s felt they should be, not the way the kids themselves felt they should be. Rather than a mentality that wants to see your kids succeed, there was a mentality of wanting to see them do as well, but no better than the fathers themselves. And that power was going to be maintained at all costs by the men in control. And then I came along…lol. I have stood for what is right. I have stood by my family and for the treatment they deserve. I have stood for ending the mentality that the father’s pocketbook should be placed above all else, even the health of his first born son. And because of this, most of my family has been uncomfortable with the change they know in their hearts is right. And as a result, things have been dicey with most of them. Although I did get the most important endorsement of all to me recently, the one of my brother. I have always known that in him lay a great person that was victimized by the entirely forgivable act of believing his father knew best. To respect his right to privacy,I won’t go into too much detail, but all I can say is he ” gets it” now. Maybe not to the degree he someday will, but I have faith in him.

Change is not easy for anyone. Lord knows this has been an amazing climb for Barack. To have a very real chance of being the first black President in just 5 days is truly surreal. I am so proud of him. He has done it all with the unshakeable belief that the American people are tired of the same old politics and want real change. He has done it while maintaining true to his fundamental belief that “you do onto others as you would want them to do unto you.” I still find it incredible at how he has avoided some of the obvious things that he could point out about his opposition because he has held true to his beliefs of running on a politics of hope, not fear. He has said so many times that he wants to run on the issues and has stuck to his guns. He has let the Bill Maher’s and the Jon Stewarts of the world (guys I can’t get enough of btw) take the easy shots at his opposition, while he has continued to listen and support the voices of the people who are the backbone of our economy, the middle class. He has continued to fight for them and to help them just like they were a member of his family. I truly believe that Barack really does look at our country that way. You can just see it in his eyes and the passion and sometimes trembling in his voice. He LOVES this country and he LOVES the people who help make it great. And like myself, he has a special place in his heart for the people who serve our country. He is going to finally give them the real respect they deserve. The US isn’t just going to throw a medal around their necks and watch them pawn it 5 years down the road for a meal because they don’t have the health care (both mental and physical) they need. Barack is going to protect them and honor them in ways that will make us all proud and show are true gratitude for taking on the toughest job known to man. He’s get my vote on that alone.

The number one thing that I am the most excited about to see my hero accomplish, is the collective raise in conscienceless that I believe people will be infected with under a Barack presidency. I forsee millions of Americans approaching situations differently than they would’ve under any other President. I really do believe he will inspire people not only in the US, but all around the world to want to be better. For once, the US will have a role model who they can look up to to do the right thing. I’m not sure this country has had that to the degree that I believe Barack will inspire. The reason why is that not only is Barack someone who I believe is the greatest man in the country, but also because he will be so visible to the American people. Sure, JFK was inspiring, but how often did the public get to see him do anything? My guess is not much considering there were only newspapers and a few TV channels back then. Barack is going to be on the grandest stage in the world for years to come and he knows it and is ready for it. Like I said before, he knows what he means to the world. He is not arrogant about this, but rather he is just very aware. He is not going to get BJ’s from his interns. He knows that all of his work and all that he has accomplished becomes just a big joke if he does that. I was once an Edwards supporter (wanted to see him be Obama’s VP pick), but he clearly was just like most people in his shoes; just another politician placing his own ego in front of what is best for the country. This will not be the case with Barack. This man is too aware and too good of a person for that stuff. Barack is committing his life for us. Every day in office he is going to work to better our lives.

For everyone out there who is supportive of this great man, please get out there and vote. Don’t take anyone for granted. This is a defining moment in our lives. This election will help shape not only the direction of our country, but help restore the fundamental belief that this country id one big family. Let’s end the days where you look the other way and pretend you didn’t see your neighbor. Let’s end the days where we cut someone off on the highway because it helps us get where we want to be 5 seconds sooner. Let’s end the days where we place a dollar above the well being of our neighbor. Let’s end the days where people are suffering because they don’t have the health care they deserve in the richest country on earth. Let’s end the days where we glamorize designer jeans instead of holding the door for a fellow American. Let’s end the days where we value what’s best for the USA over the well being of other countries. Let’s end the days where we prejudge people over the clothes they wear, the ink on their body, their sexual preference or the color of their skin. And last but not least, I’ll end with another quote from Barack, “E plurubis unum” which means “out of many, one.”

Busy mixed week

2008-10-18T09:30:00.002+02:00

I started out the week quite depressed as it's been tougher for me to deal with stuff as on average. Still i can't say everything is wrong and everything is bad. No it's just my perception of things that went this way. So what i am trying to do is still see things realisticly and put myself into a positive mood whenever i can. Sometimes it's hard sometimes i just need to relax a few days.

I kind of maybe temporarily got through this stupid depressed mood i got into last week and hope to keep it this way. I took up on a few routine tasks that help me manage my swings a bit. Every monday i go to get a bit of tan in a near by Solarium studios. It takes up 10-12 minutes from my day, but i get a decent light therapy and at the same time i get a bit of a tan. I decided to do it as it supports my mental well being as well and once a week should not be too much harm to my skin either. I need some sunlight definitely. This year fall came too early, early enough that i already feel its effects. So i do everything to keep myself positive.

We get little sunshine these days, mostly moist and rain and grey dark skies. So what can you do in such times? I put myself into a decent grind. It does not take up much from my time and it's still doing quite a bit of fun "work" . So i do play 2 x 2 hrs a day. I try to do my first 2 hours early in the morning. Then when i finish it I go and do some work around the hotel. Oh yes that is fresh news. We have decided we are out of the Pension business and convert ourselves to be a hotel. It was in the plans for years as we operated as a hotel but we couldn't really decide if it is beneficial to us or not. And to be honest i still don't know what outcome it will bring, but i believe the future is in building out a hotel rather than small bed and breakfast type family businesses. So I am working on the conversion and we work on the Coffee business as well.

So when i finish my tasks (those tasks keep piling up and can never be finished) , at least a few of them then i come home and finish my next 2 hrs of playing poker. This way i am sacrificing the least from both worlds. If i see myself in the mood and feel little fatigue i maybe put in a third 1hr or soish session. I also try to put pressure on me so i can up my concentration time a bit. Sitting at the tables requires pretty much 100% concentration and for some magical reason my concentration after 100-120 minutes seem to drop to like 45-50%... So i am working on this new skill to acquire longer concentration during poker, so i can play maybe 3 hr sessions. That would be nice.

Benny is feeling much better, that makes us feel a lot better too. So the cure has been started and possibly in a few weeks time he should be completely ok. We keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best. I will keep posting updates on this as well.

Last week Tomi wrote me a message on facebook that we should party it up this week sometimes. So we got our old buddies from college together and off we were doing a meet up in Budapest. Thursday before i went i finished all my grinding and then took Csilla for a nice dinner as i wanted to spend some time with her too. I tried to fit everything in this day, was hard, but since i get up pretty early these days i can manage most stuff. Living in the nights just shuts me off so many opportunities, so i am trying hard to stay where i am right now. Anyways, i went to meet Tomi , Peti , Unya and Szabi. It was kind of the old boys meeting. We were like best buddies back in college and ever since we did not loose touch, however we do meet up very few times considering we are only 100 km far away from each other.

I was a bit early in comparison to others and that is a big thing for me :))) So Tomi and I were catching up on stuff a bit, he introduced me to a new game (well old game just new to me) named Go. It's an old chinese game and it is played with stones and it is pretty tactical, so i enjoyed playing it, though i was destroyed quite badly obviously lacking experience and learning basic strategy. And before the others joined us we were 2 shots of Unicum Next ahead. Then we all caught up a bit. I realised the positive and negative sides of my life compared to theirs, as they all work for some multinational corporation or some were taking jobs in some government owned organizations. They were bit of shocked from my poker habits. They knew i was into it, but not this much. I am not gonna lie about this part of my life to anybody. I want to be straight and this way i get to live my life straight. No lies on my part, this way i get to know how people will react towards me. Some really think i am a degenerate gambler, some feel achievement from me, i see different perspectives for sure, but telling it straight up to other's face is the way for me. I can pretty much see people what they think even when they say how nice it is i know they are thingking otherwise. Only if they know. I know my friends pretty much straight with me and they told me their feelings about it straight up. It was good to hear how they think about it, and that they warned me of it's downsides and emotional pitfalls. Not that i have not realised it before, but i found ways to cope with it pretty much and still am improving on that field.

But anyways, the fun started we played table soccer all night and were joking around quite a bit while we got pretty much wasted. Was big fun night for us all, and we got all emotional time to time saying each other how much we miss spending time with them. We passed out around 3 AM, was afraid that my sleeping just shifted again towards the afternoon, but hell, you know, living in Budapest has it's downsides. 9 AM i was up. The workers outside of Tomi's apartment were not kidding they were tearing apart some roads trying to set new fiber optics down or changing some wires or fixing gas structure, really don't know. But the amount of noise they put out there would wake up a dead man from his grave. So i got up with a slight headache and got ready and headed back to Komarno. On the road i picked up some meal in McDs, not what i was waiting for but the meal is so heavy it soaked up all the alcohol really quick and my head ache was gone after the meal too.

Heading back on the highways i tried my car and put it to the test for a few minutes. I got it run up to 210 km/h (132 mph), it was fun passing cars like they were just standing in one place although they were also doing 130-150 kmh. I tried this speed with my dad's car once, i sweated my pants to dirty at this speed, but today with my car was so much more stable and it was just so easy to drive it even such high speeds. I didn't even feel the difference, it just came so easy to my wagen that only adjustment i had to make is watching harder not to hit others :)))

I got back home and started with work, and then took a day off from poker and decided to take my wifey to the movies. We saw Eagle Eye, and as much as the movie was tearing another skin off this Artificial Intelligence robot gets mad theme, the movie was definitely enjoyable and lot of fun. Definitely a 5 star of 5 for me.

Today's my cousin's 18th birthday. Some more partying and more weight gained to be predicted.
And as i hear Csilla talking on the phone with her brother, i see us going visiting there tonight as well.

I am off to grind my first session today.

Light in the dark

2008-10-14T06:54:00.002+02:00

There is some good news in these not too good days of my life. Well nothing special is really that bad, i was more in a depressed state when i wrote my last blog. Yes Benny was absolutely shocking me then and i just saw everything in dark. But to help this I guess somebody listens to my prayers. Our dog afterall does not have the brain damage i was writing about.

Thing is it was saturday we brought Benny to the doctor and the one we usually take him to of course is a sucker in emergency cases. A big turn down for me in fact we might not go back to him for this alone. Anyways, he is a good doctor, so we will see. So Csilla took Benny to an old very kind but not very competitive doctor. He earned his degree back in 1950 or soish so i guess that is pretty much out of validity. Being said that he gave us a false diagnosis of Benny for the second time and if it was on him Benny would be long gone by now.

Lesson learned. Benny was totally looking sick, in fact he is still, but Csilla took her to another doctor to Tata, and 2 vets diagnosed him with the same ear problem. Rather than a brain damage it's somewhat a good news to hear. What poor baby has is a major ear problem that attacked his nerve system, so it will take a bit of time to heal back to healthy from here, but we can see the light in the dark now. And it feels very comforting.

Another good thing that is very nice, that the whole family and environment around us stepped behind us with a supportive manner and Csilla and me flashed our strong ties in even such not so good times. We both just stepped up and showed our support and signed that we are going to keep on fighting and supporting each other in whatever we have to do.

Shit must be coming through pipes

2008-10-12T02:35:00.003+02:00

Lately i've been bragging of how the blingest lifestyle im living. It started end of 2006 probabily November when things started to get for the better and peaked pretty much sometime this summer. I guess that was the end of my ever rising happy time rollercoaster ride as it seems to turn back in recent weeks. I might be on a bigger slope than i was prepared for and i am pretty much down for it right now, although as much as possible i still try to keep a straight positive thinking.

So why all this complaining. First of all, the change in the business structure that i am in is basically halfing my income from October 1st. There is no quick replacement for the lost money in the short future unless i leave everything behind and start building a separate carrier outside of family influences. This deal actually doubles my work while cutting my personal revenues into half, not to mention tearing business profits into pieces. Now the deal is that my sister and i are now 50-50 on the businesses we run , i used to run alone. I guess all the bling life, the trips I've been making recently and buying spree i was on made my dad rethink his line and took this new approach. Now my sister just received an apartment, she will need more money towards that and she cannot support herself alone (after her divorce). My dad was kind of being tired of her and taking care of her all the time so he put the pressure on my shoulders instead. When you screw up somebody teaching bad ideas of life then get tired of her the way to handle this to leave on her own. Not to pressure someone else too just so that someone could fuck herself up even more. Problem's i am talking about is my sister's unconciousness tells her she does not have to work in life, because we are so rich, when in fact we are just higher mid income class. She always got what she asked for and never had to put down anything for this. That is bad training from my parent's side. Now she is so fucked up and recently her demands become bigger. Which my dad solved again and gave her half my business. Good job dad. Congratulations. Instead of solving a life you screwed up the other one too. Let alone this would be the slightest problem in my life if nothing else came. But i am absolutely not happy about it anyways.

I have not written much about poker lately but i have had never in my life ran KKs into AA so much. Of course not all this bad i used to get AA vs KK too, but i lost it all. I ran so fucking bad in poker i can't believe this is happening just right now when my life could take a small support here and there. No, god decided to play a game with me. It's the new trial if i'm ready to take a next step or i dont know what the hell it is then. I guess this is a new opportunity for me to get better and to get stronger. i guess. I guess it must be since i don't understand why all this is happening everything at once. I have lost about 6K dollars just the last few weeks and i really am depressed about it. Not just about the money, rather that my good hands when i put my money in well don't hold up. And it's now so sickening that psychologically put me pretty much down.

I also see Csilla having a bit of fatigue and she would love to party it up, when i have the least amount of mood for that. But we decided that we will go tonight. Didn't happen, as i was sleeping till midnight. Why is that? My sleeping is so fucked up again. I could never stop living fucked up. So my standard day is still around 18 hrs long and i need the standard 7-8 hrs of sleep. If you can calculate this (i assume you do) I wake up each day an hr later and go to sleep an hour later. So days like today i go to sleep at 5PM in the afternoon and wake up midnight. I am so sick of all this shit. I could just run out of this world right now.

They used to say shit comes through in pipes. But it does right now i can tell. Biggest tragedy just hit me today. We realised something up with Benny (4 yr old Cocker Spaniel). He acts weird loses balance from time to time, shakes his head all day long and eats like a pig drooling all over the place, which he normally doesn't. So we try the doctor but he is not available on saturday afternoons, we call another and he waits us at 6PM, so i go and sleep. Csilla takes him to the doctor alone and comes home and when i wake up waits me with the bad news. Our dog suffered a brain hameorrhage. So he might not be the same he was anymore. I was crying like a baby when i got the news. So next week, luckily i will be in my daylight hours, i will run around with benny to figure if there is any good treatment for this. I hope for the best.

I am really really shocked from all this bad news that took place in the last 3 weeks. Seriously i am trying harder than ever but all this does not motivate the fuck out from me. I never concentrated this much on my game in poker, i work harder on changing things in business and all this happens to me. What the fuck is going on?

I am very positive that things will turn around again very soon, and life will start going normal again, but can i just get a break now>?!!!

Madonna was here * Superstar vs donk crowd *

2008-09-29T14:13:00.004+02:00

Every now and then we like to see a concert of a big Star. It happened to be that Madonna was coming to town, well not to Komarno, but to Vienna. So Csilla was telling me about her and stuff all the time and gave a good probability of seeing her. Until around the 17th of September. Then i decided we are going on a concert. Problem was there was Coldplay and Madonna on the same day. Well we both prefered Madonna over Coldplay as their new album didnt turn out to be that supeeeer. Anyways, Madonna is all famous for her great shows and her last concert i saw in tv was remarkably good. So on 17th i start to look for tickets (concert is on 23rd) and online its all sold out. Fuck, im like starting to get a bit stressed about the situation, mainly because i have decided to buy these tickets the last minute just as usual. Nothing extraordinary for me. Then i call the agency in Hungary and they had the last 2 tickets saved for me. So i hit the road and got the tickets. Anyways, long story short we headed to see Madonna.

Of course we wanted to go early so we can get as close to the stage as possible. Not happening. Csilla has a nightmare shift in work, she works all night. I play poker till the morning. Our planned noon start delays to like 3 PM. Still we made it thankfully to my lil gps device we managed to get there pretty well, but by the time we found a decent parking place they started to let people in which i knew was a disaster in terms of quality of our place in this concert.

We got in. Got ourselves drinks and headed to explore the area. We went pretty close to the stage but since there was a small hill for the people close to the stage it looked to us like there are 2.25m tall people standing in front of us. So we moved back where we found a good place to stay and it was also pretty empty. Little did we know at that time, about 15 minutes later we got supercrowded, so much that in the pretty cold 13-14 degrees i felt like im getting hot again. So it was not very good plus we stood like 50m far away from the stage so all the people were like ants or something. It was horrible. Next time i seriously am going to start going to a concert in the morning.

There was a small concert given by this new rising star... fuck i don't know her name. She was pretty awesome...i got it it's Robin... She was pretty good, but the main show was yet to be started. There were a couple of bad signs... First of all its Austria, freaking cold , the people are also somewhat reserved and tickets at least to us were available 1 week before the concert was happening. Now in Rome or in Rio de Janeiro tickets were sold out half year before even marketing could take place. So i took this as lack of fans here in east europe or the shift of madonna's image from her old self. Can't really understand though. Anyways, the concert started it was fantastic if u ask me, other than Madonna being a bit off key here and there with her voice ( i can totally understand that though ) she was being miraculous. She is a wonder to me and anyone can say whatever they want she is still the biggest superstar on earth (i'm sorry for all you Britney fans, she still has some catching up to do). She was dancing throughout the whole concert, jumping at the same time singing. The effects and coreography was made to perfection. Smart money can buy you a huge show, but in my eyes Madonna is a freaking superstar. There are bunch of others who could also do that, and still they suck at giving concerts. She is a real performer. And at this age giving the performance she did to us, is just amazing. I was very sorry that we couldn't get VIP tickets like we got on George Michael so we could see her face to face. It was a better experience to me because of that. I would love to see Madonna again but from a closer distance. So we will see if there will be any more opportunities. But i learned something again. The early bird gets the worm. :)

Another observation i had is the crowd was totally sleeping. I mean i know it was a bit cold, it was too far away for some. But the show was great and cheering would be absolutely awesome. But no most people were standing there like they are listening to Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. Seriously Austria is not just conservative, but they kind of chilled their blood where there is no coming back :)) It seemed like this was Madonna's sleepiest most boring crowd ever. I don't blame her not finish off the concert with the additional extra song stars used to do when they are cheered back at end of concert. In addition she flipped off the crowd a couple of times which we deserved absolutely. :))) She left finishing the concert and there was silence people leaving the stadium. Im sure she would be better off coming to Budapest atmoshpere wise.

One more sidenote that i want to put public here. We hungarians are not loved in the world. There are several reasons for it and they are absolutely just imo. There were more than 50K people on this show, but ive seen not one person being impolite or rude to any degree. Not one except plenty of hungarians. They are intrusive, arrogant, cocky fuckers. Some came pushing through the crowd like a tank saying fuck all you im going to the front. Some where trying to slide through people but there were only a few exceptions around us that were not all fucking assholes. Why are we so fucking assholes. I must generalize unfortunately here as this was not the first event nor the first place for me to see it. It's always the hungarians. It's always them. Now there were a couple of incidents that some hungarians got their arms and bones broken. I can totally understand someone being pissed off and kick the shit out of them. Yes, the media just saying hungarian citizens were beaten but they never search for the cause or anything. I believe a good beating here and there is pretty just. Especially to arrogant fucks.

Other thing that is not hungarian related. It's more like being a cheap bastard. So here is the deal you pay 100 EUR for a ticket. You travel between 2-400 kms to get there. And once you get there and invested as a group of people between 300-800 EUR you try to save on parking fees. So what the stupid assholes, slovaks, slovenians and hungarians also did is they went and parked their cars in front of a supermarket. Now there were clear signs showing paid parking was next 200m from there but why fucking pay for parking, right? Why the fuck, afterall there are only 50K people coming at least 50% coming by car, who the fuck would notice if i parked my car in front of the supermarket. I guess the manager of the supermarket did and called the towing service and all cars were towed away and paying a nice 300 EUR fine plus waiting for their cars till 3AM. That was a smart deal for sure. Us paying 10 while them 300. Smart ass fuckers. I am happy when justified penalties are due to people. I pay for my fuck up but then i am happy when people are stupid and get penalized. After all the stupid should pay!!!

Anyways, just to finish this aggro post, i enjoyed the concert very much and i think another concert is due very soon. I can't help it i love concerts.

Summer of 69

2008-09-25T20:36:00.004+02:00

Yesterday i went on life tilt. My dad mentioned a few minor "quality issues" in my businesses that throw me off the hook so bad that i went on a major cussing and screaming tilt. It was seriously funny. Well it does look scarry when i do it, but looking back at myself i am absolutely hopeless those times. I just can't help myself and beat up furniture and sometimes the wall. Should i go to the psychiatrist? Well i don't know, sure it is not very healthy for my brain and my heart but i always feel so relieved after it. And so i went to play poker as i usually go every wednesday or close to every wednesday to Bratislava where we play some high stakes poker. High stakes i mean 1650 dollar Sit N Goes and 5-10 EUR blind NL Holdem with minimum buyin 1000 EUR. So when i go live games i might say i went up in limit quite bad. Anyways yesterday i won the SNG and won some at the cash game which made me a happy person. Not that i am not anyways, but when i win at poker and so much as i did yesterday, i just feel obviously high for at least a whole day after that. We got home today at 9.00 in the morning, felt very sick from being tired and having to drive home in the early morning rush hour. I was sick from it and promised i will never prolong my sessions to so long. Well it was my poker buddy Kojak who is obviously having his life tilt in both poker and sportsbook betting... So he is on a major fall and a major rollercoaster ride ahead of himself. If he can cope with the psychological pitfalls of gambling he should be fine. Anyways, so because of him I was waiting about an hour or more so this morning plus that we had to drive in morning rush hour that added an extra hour to our drive home. Was really really sickening... So i got home about 9AM and went immediately to bed and fainted myself into the bed and was probabily out and sleeping by 9.01 AM :))

Anyways, i made myself wake up at 14.00 so i would be able to enjoy the glory of the previous night today a bit. And so i did. I went to work a bit... helped a bit in the restaurant... looked around in work... saw my family working like a crowd of bees and had a great Thursday afternoon Brunch. So when i left the place i had really not much to do and since i was pretty tired and almost everyone went home by now i decided I'm gonna hit the road and will clear my head from all the hype and all the glory. This is one of the many hobbies i like to do. It's pointless... it's fun... it's a waste... but i so much love to do it ever since i'm 18 years old. Since i enjoy it so much i guess it's not so pointless is it? So i went on to hit the roads and hooked up my Ipod Mini to my car where i store some of my favorite songs and just drove and drove into the sunset... It was so great, sometimes i was just pushing my car to the limits sometime i pushed my voice there :))) I clear my head out from all the mess that i receive in everyday life... so much that i got myself into this super sentimental feeling about my past. Well it was Bryan Adam's Summer of 69 after i just listened to an older song from Eros Ramazzotti... These two songs just got me into this state of mind where i could live a few minutes in my past daydreaming. By this time i got home and was just listening to these 2 songs repeatedly while sitting in the car. Daydreaming is awesome. I do it sometimes and it's so awesome it's really unbelievable. Do you day dream of your past ever? Do you wish you could go back in time to relive a moment that happened before to you? Do you wanna go back to enjoy your first trip with your buddies or girlfriend, to relive the first sexual moment , the first joint of pot or first time you got drunk a special occasion with your family? I do. I so really love my past that sometimes i would want to live in it forever. Time to time it seems to me that i can never turn back time again and i never gonna be as happy as i was when i was a teenager or my college years, but you know... when i think about it - leave my body on the ground and just let my soul crawl above all humanly and just look at myself from bird eye view i realize that at those times i lived those fantastic moments i was wishing for something more and i was wanting for something different, something crazily great... I lived those times with the same state of mind that i live my life today... it's just those special days, special moments that want me to go back there... i just haven't got myself thinking about it till now, but those special moments meant i was LIVING THE LIFE of a teenager/of a college person/and now i live a life after college.... I am pretty sure ten years from now i will look back at the days i live today and will be wanting to come back to relive the days of today. Sure it will be nice to come back and time travel a bit in our minds and just look back at 30 year old Vas and how he lived his life. Only i can make it happen that i remember these days 5 or 10 or 20 years later.

I may sound like i want to live in the past but that's not case. It's just it's great to go back and think about some great stuff that happened then. It happens to make me a small sensation feeling that lifts me up if in a bad mood. Anyways, i'm so random topic today it's unreal :) lol

So i will continue here with my randomness. :)))
I believe the key to success is to LIVE your life. That doesn't mean you should go crack yourself and get high every minute. No this means you should set yourself goals that you want to achieve set yourself shorter and longer term midterm achievements and yeah work on it to reach all this. And while doing and working on your goals cut some time off for your health your family and friends and your hobbies and all of a sudden you know you are living a life. Make special random trips, celebrate special days... just go out and hang around you like and 10 years from now you will see yourself doing all this stuff and great a life you lived back then. If you will not, i believe you did something wrong in the past or you just started to live your life right then and have no time to think about your past. But i recommend you to relax put on some song that cause you some sensation feeling and travel back your best days... Can you identify your Summer of 69?

I hope all of you who read my blogs have a few more than just one. I have a bunch of Summer of 69s.... And i believe i will have a lot more.

This post is a bit awkward, but hey... sometimes that's who i am.

New Post announcement - Great start of day

2008-09-17T07:35:00.002+02:00

So im starting to get back to normal again. I try to wake up early and go to sleep also at early hours. My body feels so different now. Anyways, what i wanted to have in my blog today is a great start of the day. So it's pretty cold right now here at nights. It gets close to freezing point right now. This morning 5AM i go and take Benny for a walk. It was a nice breezy morning and i brought my iphone with me just to listen to it while walking. It was amazing. I just started it to shuffle up all my songs and i could not by myself choose a better playlist for this morning. It mixed some chillout songs first like i need to wake up then went with a few R&B stuff that worked well with the autumn/fall theme and it matched so well with my mood the weather and the dawn to morning shift. It was so perfect. Best of all is that i didn't know most songs so everything was pretty new. Because I load full albums of some artists in there it happens some of the songs i don't know. Mr. Random sometimes shuffles so badly but today it hit perfect score... Thought i would post this now as i don't think i would remember this morning a few weeks from now.

Also a post was made below somewhere around september 1. I do make drafts and save my posts rather than publish them fresh and then i publish them when im in writing mood or when i need a bit of memory refreshing. This one's named More New York Love Part 2...

Hasta luego

A shift from vacationing towards the working life

2008-09-15T03:23:00.029+02:00

Long time listening... yeah that could be the name of my blog for the last months. What can i say ... i was having a life vacation... A life vacation what i mean by this is most people take such long vacation when they are retired or they finish college and they go take a nice tour visiting the world before they start to get in line to the long-enduring rat race... For me it was a bit of unusual break that i would never think would just happen. For sure it wasn't planned. First it came the American trip, which for vacation reasons still not finished blogged about... It was a great trip . Blogginng to be coming soon...these are mostly going to be written for my record, but "luckily" you will be able to witness at some point. Anyways, i lost a bit of control and kept on vacationing even in June when i got back... First i won a seat to the WSOP which like lifted me above life and brought me into some UBERrealistic world where no bad feelings just success and hype and happyness exist. This feeling was boosted when i got my brand new Alfa Brera...Now I felt like you would need and appointment to talk to me because i was so high up to my ass with myself...U wouldnt realise but i was still and i know i was a fucker in that sense. Other than that i was still nice to people as i think we all should be, but i was well.... pretty pretty pretty carried away with O'mighty VAS...  Really things changed ... And i was like the King of the World... Then i went to Vegas where i did OK, and learned a bunch and had some fun and although all that many good things happened i kind of didnt feel myself at my best anymore... Something was wrong... other than showing the world how to lose ... :))) I tell you what... when you are not productive, you will never feel good no matter what... i think this was one of my thing... Anyways, going on i got home in one piece with a whole week of extending my Vegas vacation and not too much long after i got home i just planned my next trip to Croatia, because no summer can go without visiting the sea. So, we go to Croatia in mid august. Im not going to go into this in detail, i have a whole blog saved for this trip, but it come down to is that since May 5th i have not been doing jack shit for work till i would say 1st of September. This is 4 months doing only fun stuff... Guys it's some very long time, and i must say everyone who feels a bit burnt out of life should do it once in a while. Maybe not for 4 months, but take a 2-3 months break. Just breaking out of routine really helps your body to refresh your mind to revitalise and your soul to clear from all the hassle... It feels just great. And since september 1 i am kind of getting back to my old routine which consists of lots of poker, lots of work and from time to time thinking back the good old days of this great break.

It really created a huge break and i feel like i was reborn. I am ready to take on new tasks and new goals and continue on improving on being a better person. Really there are so many stuff that is coming up as a change in life that I really feel like this break was on purpose so i have the energy to carry on well. Before i talk about all these changes i must say i am now committed to live a healthier life. I kind of tried to live a double life consisting of my poker life and my business life along with my family life. I didn't cope very well since one was carried into the nights and it went to the contrary for my other life. I was trying to satisfy both a bit and could satisfy neither well. So for now i am committing myself to a somewhat healthier life where i try to eat less processed food, less caffeine less alcoholic drinks(not that i was a drinker anyways) and will try to eat like healthy food during the day all put in systematic timing. So really this is no.1 change that im trying to accomplish for my own long term good. Secondly i am trying to avoid night shifts that i am actually in right now, but im in a process to avoid night shifts as much as possible and try to fit in work and poker and family into the daylight hours... I am pretty optimistic about my success in that, so i put on a daily routine to be followed for myself.  This was very important to do for me , since i can choose my own hours to work and sleep and everything i can very easily choose for not working at all and live like a bum on the streets, except with the higher expectations and higher demands towards life on my side. Anyways, so i am going to try to live a healthier life... workout , healthy food and healthy sleeping schedule... This is pretty much normal for the average person today, but it was so much to work after for me and still is. But without trying i won't even know. And bad weather is to come for the next months i will have to get the energy from somewhere and my old lifestyle was clearly not enough to merit from. If all things were going so well for me you might ask why to change? And this is my answer... because this whole lot of good cannot be maintained for long with the tempo and with the lifestyle im pursuing. So im going to try to maintain this while changing a few bits in my life and im absolutely ready to take another 4 months break in the next 5 yrs again when i feel like i have accomplished my deserved break time. Will it ever happen? I dont know. But im going to work on it so it would.

So what's been a change? My dad seeing my flourishing life and my bling lifestyle happening and on the other hand consider my sister's life who's life was falling apart for the last couple of years, he decided to take a bit from my side and give to the other side. So my sister was living a bit of a crazy life and i must admit i wouldn't be strong as she is to carry on that well. I mean she is not carrying on well, but i would be much worse i believe. I'm not sure though as i take on much more conservative lines she takes towards life. So she got married way too early without much consideration, decided on an emotional hunch. I don't have to say how badly it backfired especially with a child on the way by the time of her wedding. So many people say children will take the worst out of both of you in the couple. And i must say this is so true although i have not experienced it on my own, but i saw them making critical mistakes. And ever since her life is on a downfall. Divorce, work problems, taking care of children and the mental stuff that comes after a divorce. Now my belief is that a divorce can be conducted in a nice and peaceful way, but what my sister and his exhusband did was just beyond insanity. Yes she is confused right now and my dad and i had some talks and we decided to give her a helping hand. Yes believe it or not i was for this even though it has a great impact on my life and radical changes to be cope with will follow.

So this new business idea where i will have to enter into the Cafe business and my sister coming into the Hotel business. You do not have to take by word, but we are now 50-50 renters (this is important to note that we were never owners which means a good chunk of our profits are paid as rent) of these businesses. My pockets are about 40% emptied, and my sister's are like 150% filled. I don't mind this deal as my father believes this is fair from his side. I have my own opinion on all this, but time will tell who's right and who's not. I will let you know about this in a few years maybe... Anyway, i understand for the sake of family peace we have to do anything and i won't even get a bit upset on this decision.  For now i am just going to remodel this whole business, do a lot of new remarketing and renovations and build a new system to work with. Since i was away for this long there is like a year worth of work for me to do. all in the next 2 months. Do not worry about me i am really up for this challenge. Wether i can bring these two businesses to a level where i want to or not time will tell, but hey... do not think for one second that i am giving up on my poker dreams.(in some way i think a big part for my dad's decision was to get me away from the poker tables other than spending some on my sis, as his beliefs are that this is just another gambling activity like roulette and all he knows is people loosing their whole life, property and sanity over this- well the way i treat poker is like a sport, and this sport is getting more and more serious). A year and half ago when i started to play No limit Holdem i said i am going to be a professional one day, and this dream is still pursued, no matter what changes of life take place. My predictions on this is that it would take maybe another 2-3 years when i can clearly state im a semi-professional player. To some it comes easily... some can do it in a year or less... But to me is coming a bit harder(I believe i don't have the natural talent as a poker player, and i believe that i have a great amount of bad habits that slow me down on improving to be a great poker player, BUT... with hard work i will get there)

And a good friend of mine sent me this email not so long ago. Unfortunately i have not even thank for it. So here is my thank you for you. I share it with everyone that read my blog. rather than emailing it. I am just really bad at emailing people. This helped me beat down the first few barriers thrown at me and im telling you i will keep tearing down these barriers no matter what!!! So here is the quote!!!

"DARE TO  DREAM
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The main thing that keeps an objective out of  reach is your assumption that you cannot reach it. You're able to do precisely  what you expect to be able to do.
Are there dreams that you dare not to dream  because you've decided that you cannot attain them? If so, then your negative  expectation has become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Before you abandon or  downgrade your most treasured dreams, consider this. When your goal is  personally meaningful and compelling, you can achieve it, whatever it may  be.

You are never too old or too young, too rich or too poor, to direct  the energy of your life toward a compelling objective. Life is about making a  difference, and that's something you can do no matter what your circumstances  may be.

There is somewhere you truly wish to go, something you sincerely  desire to achieve, right this very moment. Take the time to find it, commit  yourself to it, and make the effort to make it happen.

Your dreams  represent some of the most valuable gifts you have to give to life. Dare to  dream, and allow the best of who you are to be fully expressed. "
-- Ralph  Marston

So yes, there's been a few change in our business model, we've got a new partner. A smaller income that is needed to be compensated in some way. Will i find out the way for this? I am pretty sure i will. Time will tell... Maybe a long time listening will have to be neccessary again, but this time not for vacation purposes.

Don't worry blogging keeps coming...

Help needed

2008-09-05T03:57:00.003+02:00

Ok, i was apparently a Windows Vista fan, but that is till today when i got fed up with this piece of shit. Here's the thing i have a fucking 3.5Mbit connection and that piece of crap limits me down to 50KB/sec. I know of its TCPIP limitations because of the P2P applications. If continuos connections per second reach over 25 it gives a 4226 error in Event Viewer and limits my connection down to 80KB/sec... Because of that fact i have not used P2P for almost 3 months now other than on my laptop. Still Vista's top speed is 50KB and i kind of never even was close to the point where it bugged me. WTF Microsoft ? What is going on? So im testing my PC and i check my facebook on my Iphone through home wireless connection. And look there is a miracle. My PC speeds up for like 2 minutes... Then i do something again on my Iphone and yes my computer starts downloading faster... What the hell could be going on? It must be some wireless bug in either windows or it could be USB wireless card for my PC not being too compatible with my wireless setup... Something's up... so my temporary fix for this until i correct this issue is to keep my laptop on with wifi connection and that solves the problem... What the hell can be going on i really don't know, but anyways i hate Vista...

I hate Vista for limiting my connection when i don't ask for it... That's all... i however patched the system just today succesfully so it is working again... with my laptop on... 400 KB speed downloads welcome back... lol..still my laptop is always on... fuck this shit...

Anyways? Anyone know a method to fix this problem? I'd be happy to hear from them...

Vas

Cicmicke

2008-09-01T12:08:00.004+02:00

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So what's this picture all about? This was the fist picture i have taken with my IPHONE!!! I got an early present from Csilla for my coming 30th birthday and i must say i LOVE it. I always was a gadget freak and i bought HTC Tytn back 2 yrs ago. Windows Mobile sucked so bad, i wanted to get rid of the phone a long time ago... It just didn't do anything well, it was half phone, half PDA, big, heavy and super unstylish... Now things have changed. The Iphone does perfectly as a phone if not the best phone ive ever had or seen... It is by far the easiest to use and the lack of keyboard i would say is the most fantastic thing that could happen to this device as Apple's onboard keyboard works like a charm. So as a phone it is the best thing, i like the video and Ipod functionality as well, it is almost 100% Ipod functionality and here i mean the classic Ipod with its fantastic controls... Since nothing is comparable to the classic ipod... however this one got other great features that the classic therefore does not support... like the huge screen you can watch movies on... Bluetooth is perfectly compatible with my car, so i can turn on bluetooth and i can drive safely with all controls at my hand while driving... pretty sweet... There are nice gaming features as well and some other cool appz i already downloaded from appstore and hell they are like 80% cheaper than Windows Mobile Stuff and work 100% better thanks to Iphone's fantastic UI.... At the end it all comes down to just one phone device... but it's so much more... the whole internet is in my hands... i can IM anyone , i can email anyone, i can use internet appz on it, and the best thing is it all works really well... I love it and there is nothing i hate about it yet....

SUMMARY, the best phone yet ever... THe best internet device ever... Functional perfection at your hands... Super stylish... Anything more you wish for?! Maybe a better quality camera with flash :))) Maybe ?!!!

Thanks baby for this awesome present!!! :P

More New York Love!!! Part 2

2008-09-01T07:55:00.002+02:00

Struggling to finish my blog with America, but you know there was so much to write about it. And if i did it at once i would just burn the hell out of myself of blogging. Maybe i would never come back and write.

So the story continues ... :))) (i write this like there is an ending of it... :))) maybe i finish it with a happy ending :P

Day 5

We had not much luck with the weather in New York. The most we could get is have a nice day for our trip to Central Park. But Monday was just another sucky weather for us. Not to mention we were so ready for the summer and didn't bring any winter clothes. We were kind of ready to stay home just because the weather was so bad... and me not wanting to listen Csilla's wining and deal with the weather too was just a horrible idea. But luckily we have some good friends all over the place and really the idea just came for Csilla to borrow some clothes from Erika, and for me too. So i grab Justin's jacket and it makes me wonder how the hell this jacket fits Justin when it fits my fat-ass so well. Anyway's problem solved so we can head out to MET (thus Metropolitan Museum of Arts... Erica joins us, she is also curious what it has to offer. I am really not a museum guy but i make a few exceptions here and there and this world famous museum just gotta be one that i see. Taking into consideration, that most tourism and travelling we do is without much planning so it is not a big miracle or a hugely unfortunate moment when we realise the museum is closed only on MONDAYs. So that was it. We saw it from the outside. This is not the first time in our life as we managed to miss the Louvre in Paris as well, as it was only closed on Tuesdays :))) Anyways, taking the walk towards the big shopping part of the 5th avenue we were laughing up a few unusual dog sitters. Well unusual for us i guess, since we always walk our own dogs. But the rich of New York hires dog sitters in a bunch and these guys hold like 10 dogs and walk them around central park. I've seen such in the movies but in real life it was interesting so we reached for our cameras and were shooting like Japanese tourists. Unfortunately i missed a few good shots like one dog starts peeing the other starts the poo poo thing and the sitters just walks like nothing is happening. :))) Poor dogs... they had to do their thing in a pretty hectic environment... :S

So yes what else can we do in a shitty weather... i know ... hit the tables... or watch some movies... or go to a nice restaurant or a fitness club.... nah.... the girls figure it out faster... their brain functions so well in emergency situations.... and since this one was one they really quickly agreed on going to shopping a bit... I knew the disaster is just ahead... Could not enjoy anything more than shopping in a crappy weather in a crowded city where 20 minute line is standard to wait in line for trying a shirt or trying some pants on. So yes, my day is ruined... it is the end of world... and yes i'm fucked....

Turns out Csilla is a shopping freak. Not that i didn't know it before, but just realised in NYC how excited she gets about shopping and i don't think there is a better place than NYC. Well there is but let me not spoil it so ahead. So she is like a bull when seeing moving objects... Totally hyped and her social and human sensors are totally turned off, she just goes on and looks for clothes, colors, matches, deals, sizes... all her world turns into is a world seen through pink glasses she is happy , she feels glory and yes time to time she feels pain, when there is too much stuff to choose from. What we outsiders see is that she comes up to me and ask what i think of this and that... and here is the worst part... SHE COMES UP TO ME THAT SHE BUYS THE THING... of course im happy we can go on shopping is over and everyone is happy... then the next moment SHE GOES LIKE IM NOT GOING TO BUY IT, I NEED TO LOOK A BIT MORE I DONT WANNA HURRY THINGS, I'LL THINK ABOUT IT... im like OMFG you already looked for 2 hrs what else can you see? Seriously we saw every bit of the clothes designers came out from 1990 till 2008 may 10th... And she wants to look... I get depressed again... Erika bought some shirt i think... not 100% sure... maybe she changes her mind at the cashier.... oh no , she's quick... she snapped off the deal. I get no such luck with Csilla :S

So after we spent a few hours shopping and i'm like finally we can go eat something... the girls remind me we have a dinner appointment in Blue Note so i don't want to eat before it, and that they would like to go to GAP and MACY's... Oh no, someone please drop a nuclear bomb on NY, please shoot me or something just strike me in a way i dont have to go all this... Seriously, since we are in NYC all we do is shopping.

So we go to GAP. Csilla takes the women's department and since i have nothing to do there i go to see the men's department maybe i can find some good shirts that i always loved having from american stores... Their quality is good and not pricey which is important for me. So i go there and just for fun i try on half GAP's offerings... and it takes only 30 minutes and i buy 4 shirts for 60 bucks total... pfff.... good deal .... by the time i finish at the cashier i see the girls waiting for me with a bit of killer look, like what the fuck took so long... So far i bought 4 shirts Csilla bought absolutely nothing... I know the disaster is to be coming... first of all she is still just looking and i see no end to this... and she hasn't yet opened the wallet... which if comes.... don't even want to think about it... Seriously... i am afraid... i must tell this story of ours... one day we went to shop for her... only her... now usually these type of shopping sprees end by me buying a ton of shit for myself and she buys like nothing... lol ... so this one time she was like looking for clothes finds nothing and almost starts to cry like a baby... well she did cry... it was horrible and some funny shit at the same time... but me being present there have to be all understanding her feelings and provide support in such fallen moments. When most i would love to do is laughing how ridiculous this is... Anyways coming back to my old subject i know something like this is going to happen. But so far she is calm and excited... We go to Macy's ...i've done all the shopping for America and i want to have a coffee and let them do some shopping. They get like 2 hrs to do it and i said im going to wait for them at Starbucks...It is a freaking long time to wait 2 hrs slurping one coffee... But hey im a tourist so im about to get a new coffee experience... So we don't have Starbucks and we don't drink coffee too much either... So im like i need to warm up so i drink the biggest Frappucino there is. Since it ends with ...pucino i think it's going to be a cappucino in a starbucks way... Turns out i ordered a huge glass of ice coffee... Im cheap and i dont want to look retarded i take it as if this was exactly what was on my mind and this is it what i was waiting for... and i go to find a seat in an already full place... I wait till some seats free up then i jump on to the available seat like a tiger... By this time the tiger was all frozen holding this shit cold glass and my whole body was like freezing from. Brrrrr.... But no starbucks can mess with me i paid 5 bucks for this piece of crap im not going to throw it out. Im gonna drink it all... 1 and half hrs was necessary to get to the end of this thing and i only drank it because i was so bored. By the end of the glass i was sipping my nose and feeling all sick... Good i just got sick of drinking cold while the weather was also crappy... nice hit to my immune body... So Csilla and Erica found me finally... they bought nothing... and mostly they were looking for me since there was like 7 starbucks in that building of Macy's. Welcome to New York.

So it is dinner time and we decided to meet up with Justin somewhere in Soho ( im not sure if that was the place, but let's just say it was) so we meet up with him and after the tiring day my well deserved dinner and concert is to be coming in Blue Note. Now this place was awesome. We got a very nice young afro-american waitress. She was SO SO SO nice to us it's unbelievable. Now only if the concert and meal will be this good im leaving the standard 20% tip for sho... Don't have to say the concert was fabulous with this crazy chick called Maya Azucena... I hope her carrier will reach to the very top. She was remarkably good and the concert during the dinner was amazing. The dinner was also amazing, it turned out that after coming back to America 12 yrs later they managed to learn how good steaks are done. I had a Fillet Mignon and it was perfectly prepaired. Well done blue note you earned the five star entertainment place from me. My shopping spree just started here... so i went upstairs to real quickly buy the CD of her. And we headed home from me being in such a crazy state of mind that she was in when she was shopping. It was my time of payback...nonetheless it looked like they all enjoyed it quite much. Well there was a bit of misunderstanding about shooting photos in the place between J and Erica but i think they coped well with it.

So after this long day we get home ready to hit the bed but something had the urge in me so i had to sit a few hours playing poker. Played till like 4 AM. Was worth it i made 600 bucks, but i knew the next day was going to be even longer. I just messed up my sleeping again.

And before i finish this blog and this blog post will be my signature under my divorce papers i have to apologize to my little baby. You know i love you and you can shop all you care. I love you no matter what.

to be continued...

More New York Love!!!

2008-08-27T01:11:00.004+02:00

So before i talk about recent emotions and feelings about life i will try finish up our american trip that was simply one of the best trips i had in my life. I always say that after each trip and surely it is true to some point but this one was just something real special to me and most memorable for all time. Maybe i am a bit biased for my love of America and NYC surely didnt disappoint me in that matter. Before you ask me how i do remember stuff from 3 months ago... here is the thing... all my blogs are drafted... so i make simple drafts that makes me remember most important memories and that way i can put together my blog even 3-4 months later than the actual event happened. Gotta love Blogger for these features... well most have it but since i use this service i am mentioning it just for the love of it anyways... But before i write 30 lines of nothing i continue on my journey to NYC...

DAY 4

Day started out like a bad day for me... when i woke up it seemed i am gonna die from flu... or allergy i dont know but it passed by pretty well after i took a hot shower and you know some comfort here and there is nice, like Csilla went exploring the neighborhood and got me some nice breakfast wich was canadian bacon cream cheese and french bread... At this point i actually was happy not to eat cereals or the likes that fast paced americans eat. I was thinking of myself as a euro guy and i eat euro breakfast for being as that... So plan is that we go explore Central Park, weather was just perfect around low 20s which is the perfectest weather with some nice brease and sunshine. Let's go to CP then, but everyone needed to get ready first and i get bored really easily i sit by the computer to check my emails and next thing i realised Fulltilt software was downloaded and i was playing two tables of 1-2NL ring games. In the hurry i made 370 bucks just on the fly and everyone was surprised how could i make 370 in like 45 minutes or so ish... Anyways it was a better kick for the start for the day especially that i woke up quite sick. Note on sideline that i used to have a very good mood when i win in poker. So that was a good moment for the day, but everyone started to be loosing their patience and i was off the tables and ready to hit Central Park. Central Park we are coming be prepared!!!! Yippppeeeeeee!!!!

We take the subways as it was best way to get around NYC and next thing we realise we are at the corner of 5th avenue and central park. From the far i take a look at Macs newly opened store that is a fantastic looking store for sure. So i am ready to hit the other side of the road but everyone directs me the opposite direction just to see that park im talking about... No need to be exaggerate here... I was fucking shocked and awed for like the whole day and my good old habit was kicking in telling Csilla how i could imagine moving to NYC... Csilla was of course not impressed with New York too much, and for some reason i understood her. U love it or you hate it, but for most part there are the lovers 85% and haters 15%... I guess im in the first group while csilla is in the second. That doesnt mean she didnt enjoy herself just that we visited some other parts of America that fit more with her style... ;) more to come on that soon... :P

So what is it that's so shocking about this park? Afterall, it's just a park... nothing else... well, i think it should be in world's 100 wonders if it's not already there... First thing the park is placed in the forrest of skyscraping buildings and you have a twisted feeling trying to figure out that you are in the city or the wilderness... going more inside the park the traffic noise disappears and you can enjoy the island of peace in the wild wild east... so nice... the park is just fantastically designed and the features it provides to people is just amazing... bike roads, baseball fields, wireless sail boats (it was my favorite, such a relaxing thing) and many many artists and rollerbladers that are putting up a great show for the visitor. The thousands of families having picnics get your mood in a very positivie and light manner. That place just made me unbelievably relaxed, but i guess nature in itself does that to me.

So anyways, we decide to have a seat in the grass and start to do some light picnicking while Justin arranges a meeting with his friends Paul and Katie over the phone. Don't need to wait for long and they meet us up with their parents. Very nice people. What we didnt expect is that they are the real american family bringing football (the american egg like ball) and bat and some light ball to play fetchball or something ... i didnt quite get the name but sure it was something like baseball and next thing we realise girls learning and throwing the ball to each other. Not an easy thing first but they coped pretty well. I'm laughing a few times at them then i get to throw the ball once and i so fail at it. Crazy but that was probabily the worst throw of all times :))) To save my pride i did throw a couple of good ones too!!! We do play a bit finish our food, Paul's mom stuffing me with some apple pie (forgot the name it's sick, but it's the same thing they are selling at Starbucks... real sweet ... and it's sweeyat!!!!). At that point i already realised i was getting fat from the american junk that i eat everyday especially that my body had hard time digesting it :))) So i look on most of our picture like i swallowed an airballoon... Being pretty tired of all that walking i had zero mood to go walk the city but i was keen to as J and Erika wanted to go to Bloomingsdale to check out some wedding dress. Csilla definitely didn't mind to window shop a bit while i decided to sit in a bar and watch the NBA playoffs. Funny thing is i don't know anyone there but everyone's like talking to me at the bar. Next thing i hear is waitress (decently hot) asks me if i'm good at math. So here she goes after trying to figure out something real hard :

Excuse me, are you good at math?
Sure i am ! - I can't deny that im good in it.
So she goes - Would you help me please with some calculations?
Sure what is it?
So guest's bill is 137 and he gave me 200. How much do i give him?
I'm like seriously WTF?! And i throw 63 back at her but am like is this a candid camera or something and actually was looking around if somebody is watching us or what the hell is going on ? I mean how the hell could she get this job if she can't do a simple deduction math. OMG That was seriously sick. But she was very thankful and i'm sure she would be up for a date if she was asked. Unfortunately for her I'm taken ;) I still haven't figured out if she was gonna try to get hooked with me or if she was that dumb. For her sake i hope she tried the first. :)))

Then we meet up and decide to go for a dinner and while sitting in the bar the bartender sent us to a chinese place a few blocks down. We go there and the most ridiculous thing happens to us. We wait in line... Yes you read it well, W E W A I T I N L I N E .... this is ridiculous and while service was lower than mediocre imo i thought the food was pretty good. I understand some people like the place for the quality of food. And i couldn't really complain about the crowd as i wasn't in some random village but Upper Eastside New York City. It's just crazy that every place in NYC is packed with customers... every place we've been to at least :)

To be continued...

Sorry for the delay...

2008-08-25T23:30:00.003+02:00

I must apologize to all my loyal blog followers. The last 3 and a half months were a blast so much that i kind of lost touch with reality. I am forcing myself back to normal, normal that is to me, but hell i failed to get back for like the last 2 months. Seriously that must be changed. I promise though i shortly will be back with all the good stuff that was up with me. Hold on guys... lots of stories to be coming. And sorry for not writing to ya... and to me too... it's just been a nice break from the rat race... i needed some time to enjoy it. Actually i miss writing these blogs now so i will catch up real quick... Till then...

My promise to all of you and mostly to myself... 1 blog a day for like a full week... It's gonna be hard... damn... i should not be throwing promises just like that... damn...

WSOP Day 2

2008-07-18T16:20:00.004+02:00

So here i am back at home... Lots of stuff happened recently and am gasping for some air to get myself back to good ol' routine... Don't know when it happens though... I think since i wrote these lines about a month ago i did start to get my routine back... But it came slowly and it was pain in the ass and at the same time some new powers and actions started to kick in but those will be clear to me tommorow... anyways.... some new events in life coming soon.... But here is how Vegas was....

So i was still in day 2 in WSOP main event. I was really happy about my first day as it looked pretty much like i was out of the tournament. But still i could face my destiny and continue on playing my A+ game. And with some miraculous draw of cards i made it to day 2. There were a couple of so called fishes at my table, but 6 players were constant as we started day 1 with them we finished with them only changing the 3 other players consistently.

Next day we decided to head out and relax in Vegas city. Our major fun time was done on New York New York's yellow cab rollercoaster were we rode a couple of rounds. Was pretty fun, but was hell of a hot weather. So we were like crazy looking for some bar to rest and refresh our bodies. Nonetheless my body was still in somewhat of a cycle and didn't accept the Vegas temperatures... No shit man, it was 115 out there and it was heavy for even the Vegas crowd.

On the 6th we just layed back and mostly spent time by the pools. There was a big story however, Dag Palovic a slovakian pro was inviting us out for dinner. He knows how to live and so do i so we decided to find a nice place and eat out and skip the buffets, Kojak's favorite place. So we go to Bellagio and as far as i remembered reading Vegas reviews i learned Fix was one of the best places around to have steaks. Of course we go there it's fully packed and we see people are put on waiting lists and we are like hell with that. Ok, so Dag has an idea... he tells me to go up to the ladies and ask them if we can get a table, that he is the european poker federation's president and we have to go to a meeting and would like to just eat something real quick. First i was a bit wondering about what the hell is he doing, but i thought what can i loose and you know everything can happen in Vegas... so i went up there and said my lines and the ladies though not falling for the first time, but when i asked about any place we could eat fast and quality wise good meal, a boss kind of person stepped up to me and offered immediate seats. Pretty awesome if you ask me, however.... Dag is always into gambling and since we are also kind of into it :) we fell for his trap and went on a credit card gamble kind draw.. so whoever card was chosen was paying for the dinner... guess who paid... it was my time of bad beats... and it was just starting right there... so what happened is i paid $240 bucks for a dinner i didn't enjoy... not that the food was not good, but rather my choice was a bit risky and i didn't like it. Anyways, i was pretty sick about that beat, but whenever there is risk involved I'm in for it baby... so we signed up to play some poker but there was no way the Bellagio could get me in to their tables without waiting 2 hrs at least so Kojak and me went back to his place, the Flamingo... really i must say the tables there are freaking soft... so i sign up for some low stake game and head out to play some Black Jack till my seat is available. I have to say I'm on a lifetime good run with Black Jack...and won a 100 bucks while waiting for my seat and then i crushed the tables pretty badly... that was that...

Day 2 was some sick day. I got a freaking tough table with some online pros mixed with some vegas professionals. I really felt no edge in my game, but still played i would say within my A+ and A- games, that was pretty good and managed to collect a few chips throughout the day... I had some lucky cards, i was bluffed and i felt into some pretty ugly monsters too, so it was one horrible day for me, and i was finishing it and surviving it. I guess that was the goal... All i could hope for is on day 3 i am going to get lucky and get a softer table. One interesting hand happened on day 2 though. Kojak and his totally inexperienced poker got him into some kind of trouble... so his opponent raises and he sees pocket aces when he looks down so he reraises and after his opponent calls all in ... i am envy for such situations as this is one that you wish for when the tournament is so rich... and you immediately go for an all in call of course.,... not Kojak, he is the tough cowboy of poker :))) so what he does is asks the dealer to count the chip of his opponent and then slowly counts his chips and matches his opponents chips... then he says... "I cannot fold... :))) and shows the NUTS and shows pocket aces...the boo of the table and the awe of the players attracted all media and he was mentioned immediately that night in Pokerlisting news... so if you know poker a bit you can tell this was one horrible SLOWROLL that you might just get shot for in earlier days of this card game... he was not shot but he was definitely mixed up as the guy shaked hand with everyone at the table just not him... and his focus immidiately shifted from the tournament to something else... After this second day finish I was quite happy I earned 7 more nights of free hotel room and since we had some rest time the next day we went to a bar and i crushed myself down to total unsoberness with 3 shots of high quality whisky. Believe me it was so enough. Than i hit the tables of Mr. Black and i left about 100 dollars for the casino in about 30 minutes. Good thing i didnt have more money with me as it could end real bad. Anyways, i will have more blog on Vegas slowly and will talk about the feeling of gambling and the dangers waiting in the BIG SHOW....

So for now some of the promises are kept, but still way behind... can't believe i fell so behind... Can't believe it... So messed up...

WSOP Day 1

2008-07-04T12:53:00.005+02:00

This day was fucking ridiculous. I couldn't believe it. It started out with 20,000 chips and 50-100 blinds and blinds went up every 2 hrs with 20 minute breaks except after the 3rd level there was 90 minutes for dinner...

First level... I am 200 BB (Big Blinds) deep and i know how to play that game and actually found myself with an edge. I go up to 26, 000 chip count and leading the table... Nothing spectacular... 2hrs of patience game trying to make the best of my cards , getting reads on opponents... Immediately 2 on my left was a superagressive norwegian player so i had to play extra cautiously because of him...

Break 20 min... I am proud and feel invincible that this is not that hard and now i feel comfortable... Back in the game Blinds 100-200 now we are mostly around 100BB deep. Still a good game. Now there is so much more chance i can get a hand to go all in with. So here it is ... i am in big blind... and get 5 limpers... I check with Q8s (s=suited)... flop comes 674 rainbow... I make an initial bet of half the pot i get one caller... turn is the 5 ... all suites are different so there is no fear from flush maximum a set that can make a full house by the river... So i bet a bit more than half the pot ... guy behind me raises ... could be a bluff a set or even a 3 to 7 straight... definitely 8 is an option too. so i reraise and he goes all in ... i call and feel sick and i want to throw up when i see he has 89... i am down to 3700 and go for the break... and in some way i actually do fucking believe that my tourney is over... must had happen on the very beginning...

Level 3 ... don't know what i was doing ... tryed to play my game ... was patient and just played my hands as i was supposed to... I doubled up with 33 against AK... my 3s held up so i had around 8500 by the end of this level...

We have dinner with Kojak and i get sick so sick in fact that the first half hour of level 4 i was just trying to get myself over the heavy food... a slice of pepperoni pizza and fruits... i drink and energy drink and that starts to get me back on my feet... I play and slowly collect myself up to 12000 chips by end of level. Still i am the short stack at the table...

Level 5 ... last level and we are moving to next day, i play ok, i get a few good hands and win a coin flip situation with AKs against TT where i flop and A and that holds up... I am about 28000 at this point... later against same guy i make an incredible read and call his big bet with medium pair... and from that point i was boosting my roll to 48125 and finish the day with an average or somewhat above average stack...

There were around 1300 players at the tourney on day 1 and 650 of us made it through day 2... there is last day of day one which is sunday that is already full... so that means about 2500 players... but there is tommorow and after tommorow... i think the total participants will run up to around 6000 players... definitely fewer than last year... where has all the money gone ???!!!!!

I am effin exhausted right now and dont expect me to wake up earlier than 12 tommorow... This is the toughest tournament i have ever been to... Just at my tables there were 5 poker pros playing ... making it real tough to survive... I am glad i went through though... however money is still very far out of reach there... the experience is a BLAST !!!

More coming soon...

Update on the Vegas Story

2008-07-04T12:53:00.001+02:00

So i arrived in Vegas 2 days ago late at night (2AM more precisely). The flight to Vegas i would rate 2 out of 5. From Budapest to New York Delta's headphone and entertaining system was down so i was not able to watch movies nor to listen to anything other than my iPod that i am glad i brought with myself. Had some company though, from Budapest. About 60 yr old lady keeping me talking a good part of the trip. She was very nice though so this is not a complaint.

Flight from NY to Vegas was even worse. I was ready to watch some movies finally. I bought a sweatshirt for myself in NYC just to keep myself warm at the airport and in the plane as i was pretty cold most of the day. It didnt help. So as i said i was ready to watch some movies even though i was already up around 23 hrs without sleeping. I guess i don't have to mention i have no luck with planes, the whole sattelite system was down so there was no TV or movies available. So i try to sleep, but there is no blanket on the plane. WTF?!!! Delta definitely needs to improve on customer service. Anyways this lady from Vegas shared her blanket as she saw i was was shivering from being cold and tired. That was really nice from her even though i couldn't sleep one minute. On the airport i met a few hungarian dudes, some coming to the WSOP to play poker some for the US OPEN table tennis championship. We decided to meet up, but they have not answered me as of yet.

Anyways there was 2 days here in Vegas and not much has happened. We went to the Rio with Kojak, and had a good lunch and had some talks about them being screwed by Vegas ppl. So then we headed to get our seat assignments (mine too, although i already got mine i wanted to change days from 3rd to 1st) . Kojak also won his seat on a 1000 dollar sattelite. Sweet, 2 players from Komarno are sure playing. I don't know about Romi playing since he is pretty bad at keeping contact abroad i guess... :S So we go there and here that Kojak hasn't cashed out his reward after the sattelite so we had a few unquestionably tense moments till we found out he was eligible and we eventually got his entry after talking to a zillion organizers and Rio staff. Btw, they were all very helpful, just a bit uninformed.

So another 20 minutes in line and we are about to get our vouchers for the main event. Then took a taxi and headed back to our hotel which is about 400 meters away from the Rio, but there is no way i am going out exposing myself to this heat. By the way for today that is the 3rd there was an excessive heat warning by weather forecast as it is 115 Fahrenheits that is about 45 Celsius. I am actually glad i chose today to play.

So we got back to the hotel talked a bit about some fun stuff such as sportsbooks and bet trading which is an interesting concept out there and i might actually give it a look later this year. Anyways, we decided to head out to play some cash game down in my hotel lobby, but Kojak got tired and decided to go back to his hotel. So i played till like 2 in the morning when i decided to call it a night. I managed to grind out some profit and met some people and i know now that the field on the WSOP can be very mixed. There are some top professionals just as much as some weakish players, but i think there are definitely more players shifting toward being semi-pro players. So it will be interesting to see what the mix will be on my table later today.

Yesterday i was staying in my room mostly, then went out to the pools and after about 35-45 minutes i decided i can't stand the heat no more and come back. Next thing i realise that it's 5 in the morning. :))) So i got plenty of sleep, had a huge breakfast, chose my STARS gear that i received from pokerstars ( i received a bunch load, like 5 hats, 6 shirts and 1 hoodie sweatshirt and another sweatshirt and a pokerstars sports bag. So i had actually received a full closet worth of clothes. )... and now i am waiting for the shuttle bus at 10.30 that will get us to the rio.
Wish me luck... More updates coming...

This gotta be the peak of it!!!

2008-06-26T05:48:00.002+02:00

People run good and bad in poker just as much as in life. It is mostly a roller coaster ride and as much as i was sunk two years ago, that's how good i feel right now. I am sure GOD has to do with some of it and he is rewarding for my work and determination right now. Of course i decided this year is just gonna be the year of rewards for me. So finishing up this half of the year goes like this...

-Starting January... my new year's promise... i gotta get up for myself and start taking poker as a serious money making hobby... so far one check... it is in continuous progress ion still :)

- secondly i wanted a very good gaming computer that just has the power to blast me off my chair if i need to and so i fixed this new room for myself where i really get my privacy and i can get some work done and i can relax at the same time... Added a nice feature to the room and hooked up my high end mini speakers and high end Bryston amp to get the sound i am accustomed to on my PC...

- taking on the usual yearly skiing trip... was fantastic and because of the wellness features the trip actually turned out very relaxing...

- my taking on golf lessons kind of failed due to a pursuit of success at the tables and preparing for a huge vacation to America

- the trip actually takes place in May and i fell in love with America second time again...got to see my friend's wedding and meet all the people i loved to spend time with... Saw the most beautiful places on earth... Although i got only a teaser from Vegas, i managed to win a seat to the World Series of Poker and a free trip to Las Vegas (hotel and flight included alongside with some extra cash to spend for food)...that is just about coming up... in JULY...

- almost forgot but in the meantime i bought a brand new ALFA ROMEO BRERA... that just arrived yesterday and i am fucking WOWing out most people who see it... The car is so much better with the automatic gearshift then the one with manual that we tried in the test drive...and it looks so much better in real than on any picture or video... ;)

- and finally but not least... Csilla and I are getting along pretty well...that is definitely an A+ thing in life...

So i am very thankful for GOD and my environment and the people surrounding me that all this could come together all in just half a year... of course there is lots of work behind all this, but my environment helped me a great time achieving all this... i hope i can stay this positive for some time that is to come and get some more barriers and new goals behind me... I am screaming out loud here, so i knock on wood, just to keep up this pace of life i am living right now...

Unfortunately as for all things there is some sideeffect to this as well. I might never finish my blogging on america with this pace... :((( And i think i am a bit carried away right now with myself and life, so i have to come back to earth and live the normal life again...

This is my last blog till i come back from Vegas... wish me luck i will really need it :)))

NYC i Luv Yuh

2008-06-24T00:14:00.002+02:00

My blog takes forever... It doesn't just comes down to me being a lazy ass and deal with everything else but this... so i am forcing myself right now to write... I hope i can keep it short though since im so not feeling to write right now...My life just got a bit busier since i won the WSOP seat in Vegas, and now i have to do everything in my power to finish my blog before that. I know being lazy is not a hip thing anymore at least to me it is not. So i will work hard on finishing the blog before i leave town. So here comes 2nd and 3rd day of NY City...

So we arrived in New York and after my cockroach commando and sleepless night i decided i head out to town by myself leaving everybody sleeping. Ok, it was on purpose since it was only 5.30 AM...So i go out check out the neighborhood and go for shopping for groceries... in the meantime i was taking shots of buildings and stores and the feeling of Queens in the morning... weather was really nice... it was about to start raining and yeah it was windy as hell and as i remember it was like mid 50s.... you know i just love crappy weather... so New York what are you to offer me ...

After breakfast we decided to head out with Csilla. Erica was smart enough not to join us and stay home as the weather turned into a real nightmare. The wind just got stronger and the rain was heavier than ever.... so the most memorable minutes we had from new york from Friday was a few broken umbrellas (broken by strong wind) and some crappy shopping malls were we browsed through time to time just to warm our bodies up. On the sidelines i have to say i told Csilla not to bring anything warm - clothes wise... afterall it's may and it's summer time... isn't it... Not in New York Baby.. NY was living it as in November...

Well not all is that bad in New York of course... our real first stop was Times Square... i had absolutely no expectations about that i saw it a few times in the movies and in some tv shows so i thought you know we go there and spend a minute or 2 there than head out south to ground zero... now i must tell i was amazed of Time Square... first of all it's huge... huge all around... noise wise ... commercial wise ... traffic wise and all around it's kind of like sniffing too much cocaine up in the brain and get shocked and get high and get just all the adrenaline a city can cause to human brain... that was Time Square for me... nothing much but it was A BLAST... :)))

Then we decided to walk around a bit, went to see Madison Square Garden, ate lunch at Penn Station... lol.... There i ate my first american soup... what can i say i love soups... but that was the worst piece of crap i ever ate there... guess it's no good idea to eat at Penn Station... Throughout our fight with the weather we managed to see some parts of the financial district and went to see Ground Zero... Hell yeah the sight was closed due to construction... I guess the new towers or tower is due ... By the time we got here we were so freezing cold we just wanted to go home...

We were pretty much lost all day and didn't know where the hell we are...and i got tired of Csilla's whining about the weather... Well she was totally right about that but still... so we decided to go to see a movie... and that was great... we found a great theatre bought our tickets... i almost left 40 dollar tip as i left the change at the cashier... luckily the guy at the cashier was nice enough to run after me and give me back my money... that was the better side of those human moments ... we then saw 21. The movie was enjoyable especially that it's theme was based around gambling activities... hehe, but seriously the movie was ok to pass time for 2 hrs ... we headed back home later that evening and told our stories to J and Erica ... they were kind of laughing about us till they found out that we used their umbrellas and got all scared for a moment if we broke it ... that was one of those SHOULD'VE SEEN YOUR FACE moments .... haha ... anyways, we called it a night as we were all exhausted...

New York is so unbelievably huge... you just can't do a whole lot in a day... travelling takes up quite a bit of your time... luckily the subway is perfectly built out for any traveller and in fact any NYer to use. By the end of the day we pretty much learned to use the subway and figured how getting to places in NY is done... Pretty easy...

Day 3 - Weather got so much better and we headed out to explore NYC by walk, at least a larger portion that we could manage within the daylight hours. This was the day to see New York City's changing face. We explored West village and Soho and part of greenwich and walked all over the place, such as litte italy and chinatown. The city just amazed us with all its faces...

Chinatown is crazy... it's just as much of a rush as Times Square in a chinese way... the stress on the street is just there you can just stand there and feel it. The people are going crazy all crowded and rushing through the chinese streets of New York. Same thing for little Italy... Italy is one of those places in the world where you would expect absolute peace on the romantic streets, must emphasize STREETS not ROADS, but in New york it means something different.. Pizza and Pasta... nothing more ... there is no stopping for the people and places though they looked amazing with great ambience i still found it too touristy... maybe Italy is just about Pizza and Pasta afterall, but i really don't think so...

If i had to choose the favorite spot in the day it was definitely Soho, with the NYU surrondings... The university feel of a great city is just amazing, great pubs and bars growing from all angles to your reach with some ethnic spices. I must say i loved the place. Also at some streets it was as quiet as a little town. This was really surprising to me and i was just shocked how nice of a living THE CITY can offer to the luckier ones. At this place Justin introduced us to by us never experienced Brunch... it is a neat idea of the Breakfast and Lunch mixed in a word ... So those who like to sleep in late in the weekends, definitely a college lifestyle... than you can have breakfast for lunch... sweet... definitely a Vas kind of lifestyle... :))) if you know what i mean !!!

So we found this great place there and it was one of the best breakfast meals throughout our whoole trip... Erica had pancakes and fruits... That was one hell of a great chef that made those pancakes as they were the most delicious ones ive ever tried... we had the good old american burger with justin... what can i say... american's just know how to make good burgers... in europe u dont have good burgers... in fact we believe Burger King has good burger compared to like McDonalds...because that's all we have... and it was in our plans to avoid these two places while in america.... and for our good decision we were spoiled by some fat burger places that offered better and even better burgers throughout our trip... After we filled our bellies we rushed through some busier streets and crossed little italy and chinatown in a bit of a hurry just to make it to the financial district and see city hall. The new thing for us are sqruarrels so we were reaching for our cameras whenever we saw one. And city hall of NYC and the park just in front of it was a great place to take pictures of them... There were so many... unbelievable...

By the end of the day we decided we tired out ourselves enough to go back home but before that there was one more challenge to get behind us. You guessed it right it was Brooklyn Bridge... It was a great walk especially that most of us had to use the restrooms so bad that we hardly could make it :)) But if you like city seeing and i think i like to do it every couple of years than this is one of those places you should go and not take the tour bus... At the end of the bridge we received our reward, a huge $8 Banana Split in Brooklyn's Ice Cream Factory. The funny thing was that we were so greedy and got 3 of it and then we ate only like 3rd of our portions, except Justin. Justin is a fatass and he chugged it all down... :) We were so freaking tired that we wanted to go home very bad, BUT.... there was one thing i was really missing and it was already 3rd day... and still hadn't had Taco Bell food... I knew a place at Penn Station so we went there... and i got my badly wanted tacos and Csilla got some spicy chicken at KFC... Csilla just couldn't eat the chicken as it was so gross. In fact i don't know if any one person on earth likes that taste... it was just simply one of the worst of human food... so then i told Csilla to get something else and then the most hilarious moment happened when a homeless bum came over to us asking for a dollar and Justin with his prepared mind immediately reacted with a half negative answer. "We don't have money, but here's some food" and passed Csilla's spicy chicken over. You should have seen the face of this guy he was just so thankful, i actually believed him at that moment he really wanted that dollar for food and not booze... I was so sorry for him after i saw biting into that chicken and his face was totally like "WTF"? I couldn't help myself and was laughing myself till my tears started falling...and it ended up in a chain reaction and everyone taking over my hilarious laughing outrage...It was a funny moment, we cracked our asses up and at the same time "helped" a hungry person... This was saturday so when we got home all our plans to go party that night just were crushed by everyone being exhausted... I guess that's it for partying in NYC... :((( But i didn't mind ... i was crushed ... was so tired... fell asleep so quick.... it had to do with my Jet Lag too... it was still somewhat in tact... Day 3 over... We all sleeping...

Can't believe this is just day 3... there is still 23 left... i guess there was just so much happening throughout this month ... guess more then what happens to us in a year... sick i know.... Ok LATER GATOR...

Got some news to announce - Beware gambling talk ahead

2008-06-16T15:14:00.006+02:00

I never got to catch up with myself!!! So this blog is not anything about the trip i went to last month. It will just have to wait for now as i have this BITCH ASS HUGE thing to announce.

So Friday we have a friend of ours in the hotel. Friday 13 is usually one of the luckiest days for me historically with little standard deviation from it :))) The day started out this way... I look into my sporting bet account... and after i withdrew all my money from there i realized that the money has arrived to my Click2Pay Wallet account and i still have the same amount there... What a blast... since it is not sure if i can play with that money or if i can ever withdraw it from there i just said lets do some sports so i go and find out that Boston Celtics at Los Angeles Lakers Game 4 Boston's multiplier is 3.8... i made some calculations and decided it was good enough to make a good bet on Boston even if Lakers is such a huge favorite in that game. Well i didn't think so ... but anyways i made a 20 EUR bet and after 10 minutes of searching for my ticket and unsuccessful searches i realized i must have not made the bet, so i made another bet of 50 EUR this time... immediately the next thing i realized was there was this small link to Account history. Where of course now there was a 70 EUR bet for the Boston game... of course irreversible...that sucks as i never bet sports and never for that much money... anyways for some reason i decided it was positive EV (expected value for noobs) and since the money is free on this site i didn't care. So Friday 13... In this country at least ...3 AM in the morning game starts... Of course Lakers go and freaking dominate first half and fucking trail by 18 points so at 4.30 i decided to call it a night and blamed Friday 13 for the bad luck... waking up a few hrs later i checked the stats and to my biggest surprise the Lakers where so dumbshit dumbasses that they were capable of loosing it by 6 points... :)))) So 190 EUR that is net winnings for me... WEEEHAAA....

So later this night as i said we are going out with Paul , a friend of ours from Ireland and decided to take him out for a good poker game... And it was in the Evening and looked like i can make it easily in the money... but that wasn't the case... I actually had to rebuy once and lost 2 buyins worth... Friday 13? On Friday 13 I was the chipleader, on Saturday 14 at 12.30 AM yes i busted out. Now you must know that Saturday 14 to me is historically the worst freaking day. Don't know why that is but that's how it is and i accept it now knowing i won't do much gambling or paradox things that can have multiple outcomes in the future or for the day....So this pokerpal of mine during the game says:
Romi: - man come to Vegas we are going to the WSOP ... it will be fun
Me: - man i would, Vegas is effin awesome....
Romi: - There is a Stars sattelite for 370 where 200 seats are guaranteed....
Me: - I am aware of that i might play there (thinking bullshit im not going to spend 370 on a satelite when i have like 1% chance to make it maybe even less - now with even knowledge and even skills and even luck there is 2.7% chance to make it... but there are better and worse players out there so this deviates from even chances and is probabily less than 2.7% for me)
Romi: - so sunday i'll see you on Stars *pokerstars is the organizer of this huge satellite*
Me: - We'll see....

Ok now at this point the tournament had around 1400 players and i realized it could actually be a good idea and sent some money onto Pokerstars!!! Just in case you know ;) My thinking went into Daydreaming mode and Vegas effin charmed me so bad that i was really going to willing to gamble for 370 and maybe once in my life i can get really lucky and get a $12500 package for the World Series of Poker (WSOP). That package consists of $10000 buy-in for the main event and $2500 dollar travel expenses of which 370 is my money... :( Still a pretty sweet deal if you ask me... but the chances are to make it is really really low... If you think 2% is low.... :)))

Sunday - Day of the event
I buy in for the satellite....
Later that day... I go talk to a poker coach from England and he gave me a free session and analysed my game for a bit and talked to him about coaching me so i can become from mediocre to really good cash game player... So he says my game is mediocre to him at best, and i really believe him as i think i am not playing my A game these days, although i am confident this is still enough to beat the games by a small margin, but i have to improve my game so i can crush them... anyways, i'm convinced that i need to improve and decided not to take part afterall in the tournament which i feel is a totally different game from cash games... ( and in fact i don't like to play them ) ... so i go and try to unregister but there is NO WAY... Once you put the money in you are no way eligible to unregister... what a fucking ripp off, i am a bit mad and angry... but than Jason (the coach) calms me down, gives me a bit of advice, and wishes me good luck as we say goodbye to each other...

I run marginally good, have a few good hands , dodge bullets really only ONCE, that is a freaking miracle and play the tourney.... there are 8076 players enrolled and only 226 will make it to the WSOP... a real deal if you ask me LOL.... This is like the hardest field of players to get through and because of huge hype in my bloodpressure and enormous Nirvana feeling in my brain i don't remember how i did it but by now you may guess... I F#$%in MADE IT!!!! I am so happy i can't find words... Experiencing the WSOP at age of 29 to me seems like the biggest thing on earth and i am really really stoked about GOING TO VEGAS BABY!!! 2nd time in 2 months...

Dont know why it is so fuzzy, but here is the text you supposed to be able to read on the picture:
"Dear wfox007,

Dear PokerStars player:

Congratulation on winning a WSOP* Main Event satellite! You’re now on your way to follow in the footsteps of great players such as Chris Moneymaker, Greg Raymer and Joe Hachem, and become a World Champion!"

So July 3 to July 9th expect me to be in Vegas... Anyone want to meet us up?!!! :)

And one small thank you note to GOD!!! Thank you for giving me all the strength, stamina and luck to get through this field, thank you for giving me the ability to play poker and live the life i want to live. I think you have to do a lot with this achievement!!! Just want to scream out loud I LOVE U and i am so thankful to you!!!

Had to do a bit of braggin (I start to be like Stefan , dude but seriously :P) and promise i post my trip as soon as possible as it is still in Draft mode but a bit of progress is made to it continuously ... Hasta Luego...

Leaving Town - New York City we are coming

2008-06-06T17:47:00.002+02:00

So here we are back at home to Slovakia. We had a wonderful 4 weeks in the states and i can not find words how good i felt for this time... I suppose this trip was meant to be a trip of a lifetime... certainly it was for me... I think it was for Csilla, too :)))

There was just so much going on for the last month that i decided to break up my blog into some smaller parts... do not expect anything short here either... this was a freaking ridiculously long trip and we have a shit load of great memories ... i so f...ing loved it... America is just my favorite spots in the world to go to and i decided i never gonna go east to travel as it has so little to offer me, i just love the west as is western europe and North America... So let me start up with a bit of a blogging here...:)))

Day 1 started out good. For whatever insane reason (i wanted to see America so badly) i woke up like i slept 12 hours i was all relaxed and for once in my life it was also plenty of time ahead of my departure from home. So time for getting ready seemed plentyful, however with my tempo it never is... So Csilla's parents come to pick us up and off we go to Budapest Ferihegy... There was a slight traffic jam on the way to the airport which freaked me out so bad you would never believe that... i mean at this time i was so panicked that i started yelling and screaming in car that this is not happening to me... i was just so panicked that i miss the flight after so much planning that i totally freaked out.... only for a moment though when csilla calmed me down with her strict tone and by totally yelling at me ... of course i said to myself : HEY DUDE CALM DOWN ... As you can guess by now we made it... and i must say as much as Malev is the shittiest airline in the world that much i loved the flight ... The food was just terrible and they still show movies for everybody instead of letting the customer choose what he really wants to see... i thought that was pretty lame especially the selection of 2 movies they had... this had some history to it... We watched Jumper in the movies the week before our flight... guess what was on show in the flight... yes JUMPER it is... The movie was pretty cool for the first time but for the second time it only falls a bit short of a piece of shit movie...The other movie was the worst of my life... Seriously Malev had to choose the worst movie ever... i don't know how they decide on it but with this second movie they must have go to simply try to choose the worst ever... probabily we were filmed for some candid camera show as they were recording our face reactions to it... the movie was THE WEDDING SINGER with Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore acting in it. So we were through with the flight and to my surprise JFK is a bit smaller Airport what i had in mind. Also America found a way to charge for internet when it is already a free service everywhere in major European airports... How shity is that ... so i go and ask some lady how can i get internet at the airport for free and they send me to Terminal 4. Im like all ... SWEET ... let's go there... Now before you ask why the fuck i am so addicted to internet, i am not.... i just figured i get justin's address at the airport from my gmail account... yeah right, good luck with that in NY... So i go up to T4 and im finding my space and finding out the place charges 5 bucks for 3 minutes... and believe it or not i was absolutely cool with that... until i sat down at the machine and the internet was as slow as a dial up connection... for 5 minutes i could not load up gmail... so i gave up and left the place leaving 5 less in my pocket... Next thing i sign up with Boingo for 10 bucks and check my email... it is the story of a dumb tourist... my advice is never go away from home without knowing where you going... it's plain stupid...Anyways we made it there and got to see my good old friend Justin and his new boss Erica... i liked their apartment it had a fantastic view on manhattan and the neighborhood was really nice.... And what i mean nice is relative to NYC... I would say not that nice in California, but for NY it is definitely a good place to live at. Just on a short notice J -knowing that i'm shit scared of cockroaches- mentions in a very flat tone that they found a cockroach first day when they moved in... GREAT !!!! So what happens is we go out for a pizza and pass out right after that... we were freaking exhausted but you what the hell we stayed up like 21 hrs so it's cool... A few hours later my phobia was all in tact... i had to dream about something because half awake i was like something crawling on my arms... and next thing my brain alarms that it's a cockroach... i got so freaked out that immediately i turned on all lights and went for a cockroach commando searching to KILL... Well i didn't find anything, but still i wasn't able to go back to sleep anyways... so i stayed up all night... that's for day 1... long story short... we arrived in NYC... to be continued... don't worry i will get lazy and my stories will shorten up quite much...

Trying out Clipmark

2008-06-04T12:28:00.001+02:00

Trying out clipping webpages and content of webpages with Clipmark... Just got home from America and playing around with a few applications before sending out my BLOG... Check back later...

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http://rovassy.blogspot.com

Long time no see

2008-05-04T01:45:00.005+02:00

I disappeared. It's not that i didn't have time to blog, it's not that i did not want to blog it's just somehow slipped out of my way as usual. :) So anyways, there was quite a lot going on in the last 2 months since we arrived from our last trip, but basically same old stuff. As u know i am living up to my style and play a lot of poker, do a little work and at this time i planned ahead with other things such as buying a new car and getting ready for our next BIG trip.

So it was starting someday in mid march that we were going to get our VISA to the USA. You know we didnt have a plan on when to take the trip, we only wanted to go like NOT in the summer time when it's full of tourists and full of hot weather. That i would hate. So spring looked good and May especially. Anyways, at this time there was still no plan made out for us. So we just went to get our VISA as Slovak residents are still required to get one. Pretty sick as is, but i was prepared. I brought so many documents proving i don't wanna leave Slovakia for the states permanently, that i think they bought into that crap and gave us both 10 yrs long tourist Visas meaning i can fly in and out to the states whenever i want whenever i can. Pretty decent deal sealing i won't move there for sure. :) Maybe for shopping for electronics and clothes i go there every once in a while... Anyways, so we got our Visa. It's a pain in the ass to get it i must tell you, not that it is so difficult for people like me, it's rather the road to Bratislava with my wife is usually a biyatch... That is a crappy road , no highways, full of slow cars and i like to drive fast and crazy... Not true but this is how it looks from the seat next to the driver and usually we have a fight on that road, doesn't matter who is sitting in the driver's seat. I must admit i am scarred to death on that road as well when Csilla is driving :))) Well there is more to this i guess. She panics... I remember she drove like 120km/h on the road a few years ago and there was a wasp or a bee in the car... she panicked so much that she let go of the steering wheel and started to scream and even got her hands on her face covering her eyes... Scary moment believe me, and it wasn't the wasp!!!! :))) Now yes the new story is we are coming home from Bratislava, a hungry pheasant is looking around on the left side of the road. Csilla discovers it, from a pretty far distance. The pheasant thinks ... she needs to go the other side for more food... Maybe to family ... so it is taking his time and starts walking not even taking into account that Csilla is coming... Csilla is in the drivers seat looking and asking me that pheasant is not going to come in our way or is it.... oh no it will !!! at this point i am pretty confident Csilla will stop.... she holds her head with both hands and there we go her legs are so heavy and panicked that she didn't do any slowing down.... One hungry unaware pheasant killed .... Csilla panicked again... luckily we both survived :))) So that is pretty much our story with her driving and we arguing all the time on that road ...

Off topic. But other than that i like to go downtown Bratislava. I actually like the feeling of the city more than Budapest. Pretty crazy i know but still, it has a much more relaxed feeling, kind of like a small town, but again it has all the aspects of a big city... So anyways, that's for the Visa story....

I hate shopping... Yeah it's true... It's so true to the extent that i hate shopping other than electronics... That i actually do love, but that usually happens in front of my screen doing research on products i want to consider buying. So i don't know what came to our mind these last 2 months, but i was spending the most money i have ever done for shopping... It's not just clothes and electronics, it's everything.... I don't know what is going on in the air, maybe it's my positive mood recently. Well that alone made me buy like jeans, plenty of t-shirts like 5 shorts, 2 new shoes and like 4 new baseball caps to which I'd like to add some more while we are in the states. For my balding head i now need accessories which i find a baseball cap is best... So anyways, it's not just that i decided to buy all this for myself from my own money, but my name day is coming soon and usually all the gifts i am getting are money that buys me these things. So i kind of changed my old stuff to new ones now, and i actually kind of like the feeling of wearing new shiyat... :) Before u ask what i am talking about I got used to writing cuss words in Dogg style ever since the poker rooms i recently play at censor shit like fuck , bitch, idiot., dumb ass and asshole... stuff like that that i am using on everyday basis :))) So i need to screw the censoring machine and go Snoop Style baby... :)) which i think is going to be reflected now in my blogs as well.

So doing a lot of shopping around i went on and looked around what kind of gadgets could i get myself... and decided to go for new camera which supposed to be pretty awesome and it's already arrived to Justin. I'm assuming he is trying it out right now making act shots of Erika., supposedly his new BOSS :P Anyways, i look forward to pick it up while in NYC, possibly with the pictures still remaining on it :)))) OK just kidding before i offend somebody here....

There were whole lot of good stuff happening but occasionally some ppl have bad beats as well... my sister does have them recently and it happened in a pretty sick way i must tell you... She was coming home from a small village and she wanted to enter the main road from a small street where there is basically 0.0 meter sight to what is going on on the main road. So you take a gamble and push the car a bit towards the road to see something... now as much as i hate truck drivers on the road this situation made me not like them anything more i guess. SO this truck came into the lane of my sister where she was going to turn right and crashed her car to the graveyard. Luckily nothing happened to her other than going to hospital for 2 days for examination. Of course, the truck driver never stopped probably being drunk and gone with the wind... now the cops decided they blame the truck driver but still made my sister look pretty ugly in the case not preventing the accident and now she is loosing her driver's license i guess. Now there are sideways to get around this if you know what i mean... You can corrupt a cop pretty much anytime you want, they all are very unhelpful even so we have relatives in there, of course this is until you offer them something, and from that point all is pretty easy and you get a lot of assist and friendship from them. Now my idea is fuck the cops. You know if it costs us $1000-$3000 bucks to go corrupt on them my sister could as well hire a driver for the period she will not have a license, at least it's what i would do in her case. Either way it costs us money, but i rather give it to a professional driver than to a corrupt cop. By the way, as you could by now see i hate cops. I really really don't see their role in society. Anyone might give me an idea what it is???!!!! Of course two weeks later they busted me not wearing a seat belt. :) That alone would be enough to hate them but there is just more to it. And then again I am no criminal or anything... But seriously one stupid law could all change everything. IMO, if a driver who dies in accident without wearing a seat belt should loose his/her life insurance and that's it... Insurance companies do better, no need for cops busting ppl for their belts which is not a safety issue from their side, as long as i don't want to save my life , let me effing not get my seat belts on... anyways, this was an upbeat rant on how crazily i am pissed at all that is going on in that department. I mean if i could change the world... it would be pretty much a different place to live for the average person, maybe not any better for the poorest or the richest but for the average... Now Mr. prime minister of Slovakia just created a bunch of great new laws for our system. Now if a cop busts you for speeding, the price can go as high as 20000 SKK which for an average earner is impossible to pay from a 11000-14000 net salary, so all this law brings is more corruption to. As cops will now hold their hands or pockets in that matter to lower the penalty. Actually i support high penalties for speeding as it is for safety measure and in world where justice and 0% corruption was given or robots would control traffic i think this would be a safe idea. As this is not the case it is just coming to bring more corruption under the blankets.... So where do i wanna get here? It all comes down to this... I SO HATE COPS!!!!

I don't like to go this negative....brrrrrrrrrr.... i must clear my mind before i continue... so time for coffee break....

So now to go on a more positive side, i have to say i admire my dad for doing things for us. Now this accident happened with my sister, and here is the thinking... Insurance company says the car is trashed to the graveyard.... They pay some fee that would not cover fixing the car... so what my dad does is makes a fantastic deal with an auto mechanic who buys the car at market price... He probably can use it as parts or something so the deal is both good for him and my sister. So what happens next is the next 2 days he buys a new car for my sister. Well, not a new one but a 3 year old BMW 320d, which is as nice a car as it gets on the used market. The engine and driving experience is nice, the car is comfortable and it didn't cost my dad much. Maybe around 1000 bucks extra... It's a pretty sweet deal to handle things like this.... I mean there are always ppl who laugh at others' miseries and this is a pretty good way to show them a middle finger, if you know what i mean... now maybe i am the son of evil or maybe this comes from me being competitive with others or maybe that's just a negative view on the world from me, call it as you like it but i think this is the way to handle problematic situations.... and on the sidelines i admit creates a few more enemies as well... :))))

Anyways, when my sister got her car, i got a bit envy. Not in a bad manner, if you can be envy in a good way ... but still i didn't envy it from my sister, but rather that i don't have a car that suits a lifestyle that i am living. Well, 2 yrs ago i almost bought a C70 Volvo that is a hard top convertible coupe super stylish car. But it was quite expensive and right after i made the test drive my father called me on the phone that there was a commercial real estate for sale. So i made that purchase over the purchase of my dream car. You know i am not saying that i made a horrible choice, but it made my rest of 2006 a miserable year. There are times when you need to caress your mind with something nice and that was it. The time came to change my car it was 10 yrs old at that time and i wanted a car. Now buying a real estate is not fun at all especially when you know there is a bunch of money to be spent on construction at later time. Anyways, i am still in the phase where i don't regret the deal, but 2 yrs has gone by and i am still riding my old veteran... Now the car is 11 and a half and my sister's new car and the feeling of not living stylish :))) i decided i am not going to wait any longer. I am in desperate need of a new car. And i mean it and i want it a BRAND NEW car... No used 3 yr old that will spend the remaining 6 years i want to keep it at the car shop servicing it, i rather pay the huge amortization costs that go with it in the next few years. So the last 2 months i went on and went shopping ... First and no.1 choices were a Mazda 6 and a new Ford Mondeo... both very nice cars.... i actually did some test driving too and the Mazda 6 was very impressive... Now don't get me wrong it was the perfect car, IF...
- i had kids
- i was 40 yrs old
- i was trying to live a boring life
then the Mazda 6 would have been my ultimate no.1 choice... But u know i believe while i am young i want something that would never come to my mind when i am 40 or older... The C70 was coming to my mind first, not that i will not be happy for that when i will be 40 or older, but for some time i postponed the idea. Till like around the 19th of April or so when there was a car show in Bratislava... We had a rough week in work but i needed to make it there and so we went quite late on Sunday on a last minute view. At this point the Mazda 6 was still my first choice and i wanted to scan the market and see how the car competes face to face with other cars...Now a new car the Passat CC is out but i must say i liked the CC on the website more than in real... Still Mazda 6... Volvo C70 so beautiful... more expensive... so beautiful... i want this car... Now it's Volvo C70 that i want... Until.... and this is interesting because i have never ever thought of this car as an option in fact i didn't really considered it as an existing one on the market and that is Alfa Romeo... their cars are so stylish so beautiful it's amazing... and yes they have worked on the Italian's bad car making reputation. I think all Italian car manufacturer's did by now... So there i stood and seriously among all expensive cars, included Porsche and Mercedes and Beemers... i was most impressed by this Alfa Romeo Brera.... Love at first sight what can i say.... Of course it was quite a bit more expensive what i was going to spend for a car but not that much more... Of course i was just playing with the idea that we could have a car like this but never considered it seriously... This would also be the car i would never consider at any later stage of my life since, it has 2 seats well 4 but the 2 rear seats are basically only enough for our dog....

A week later... Csilla wants to go shopping... I say i go with her over playing the 2000 hands requirement that i set myself a day. turned out i bought more stuff again as she did... this year's clothing line just fits pretty well with my liking ;))) anyways, we went to Dunajska Streda, where this new shopping center is and Csilla likes some store there, of course incidentally there is also an Alfa Romeo dealership in that town and i stopped by like an interested shopper...I test drove it and we came home. The style of the car was perfect and i was still in love with it but driving a car with diesel engine at least this car .... with manual gearshift wasn't very spoiling... We came home and read the automatic gearshift is a perfect solution and that it works pretty well... Yesterday, we went to the dealership and placed the order for a fully equipped Alfa Romeo Brera...RED color one.... So i am pretty excited about this... It supposed to be here around end of June. That is pretty cool as you know we are heading out to America for almost a month and then it will be Euro Cup in June in Austria and a Lenny Kravitz concert that i am planning to go to... So time should fly hopefully fast till the car gets here. Oh and i gotta mention, this car is favored by Csilla, too ... we have a hard line when buying stuff like furniture, our tastes and likings are just usually the total opposite... not with this car though.... :))))

In the me mean time we have planned our TRIP AMERICA as i call it... and plan is pretty much finalized i got the tickets and pretty much planned on our program for the 25 days we will be spending there. I was actually never more stoked about a trip as i am right now. We are going to visit NYC for a week which supposed to be a lot of fun as it was one of the destinations i wanted to go really badly... and then there is good old California where i almost spent one year in my childhood and it got me so many good memories... so i look forward to see everyone and everything back there introducing Csilla the place where i lived... also we plan on some great hiking and some good sightseeing, along some fun stuff such as GREAT AMERICA the best theme park I've ever been to.... I am telling you we will not skip Vegas either... :))) That is for the spoiling of the gambling genes we got boiling in our blood... So i am very very excited and can't wait to it.... 4 more days and off we go.... AMERICA we are comiiiing!!!!!! Weeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I almost forgot to mention poker. I played quite a bit of poker last month. It was my second biggest month ever in regards of no. of hands played, but it was no.1 month considering money made. It was really really an awesome month and my play style turns out to be very very profitable in good months. I made around 3400 bucks including both live and online games. Somehow i crushed all the games. I know i can't maintain this result for a long time but it feels so so awesome right now. Even though the good run is pretty much over, i still feel stoked that i could make this much money in one month.... and i hope i will not stop here and get newer and newer records in the future as my game progresses....

This blog turned out to be a bit of a brag!!! Please forgive me i couldn't help it.... Please accept me for now i promise in the future i tone it down a bit....

See you, see me in a month after we get back from the States... i let everyone know how everything was... i can only hope it will be as much of a brag as this last 2 months ;)

Logging Off playing poker guys.... Hasta Luego!!!!

One hell of a good day

2008-04-16T03:15:00.003+02:00

Hey guys,

i was missing out lately on my blogs and i must dissappoint you but i am not going to update you on much. So this blog is just to brag about how good this day was...

So i woke up today, not very well, i was tired and grumpy, but Csilla made some breakfast and tea with honey as i like it so the day started off much better now and i was getting conscious again. Then i wanted to spend some good time with family and said let's go somewhere to the nature walking and maybe have a picnic or something ... so we did head out to Tata a small hungarian town near Komarno around 20 kms... it has a beautiful nature a nice big lake and today basically no people around. It was just wonderful... Simply awesome feeling...

Since i tend to sit way too much in my room playing poker and playing computer games it is a great change for me to go to the nature and i mean real great change. Actually i do enjoy it more than anything else these times that i make it out there. So i was just listening today to the birds and enjoying the wind and just the view it was awesome.

So then after we had enough i wanted to come home since "work" was waiting for me. I say work because i determined that during weekdays i should play 2000 hands of poker. I can then take it lightly on the weekends or even skip poker if i want to. So i came home and got myself front of the machine and the day continued... as much as i enjoyed the nature in the morning and early afternoon that is how much i enjoyed playing games today... poker was easy i was colluding with god and just draw out on everybody and just simply ran awesome... so awesome in fact that i made my first 550 dollar day winning which is biggest since i am playing competitively poker. This was just a great finish and now i can go and sleep all well... There were some other great things going on today but those i rather not mention in the blog...

I think this is one of those days when just everything comes as you would dream about and i know it will be over tommorrow but i am so happy for this day and i am so hyper about having this great day that i declare this day the ROLAND VAS CELEBRATION DAY... So next year i will celebrate on this day , maybe get drunk or something... :)))

TODAY!!!! TODAY!!!! TODAY!!!!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......

PC arrived

2008-03-20T22:27:00.003+01:00

I am writing this note from my BEAST computer. As you can hear it is a Beast not just performance wide but also size wise. I have never seen a computer as big as this one. Are we living in the future?!!! :S

Crazy but i am stoked and want to play around with the machine. I am trying to set things up in it as this is just what ive achieved so far. Got an internet connection. I still could only get out 74 GBs of space out of the 874GBs. So that is yet to come.

Company in Slovakia did fuck up again. Sent the PC raw without any OS. So i will have to wait another week till Vista makes it to me. :(

Anyways, I am still pretty happy and am amazed how everything is just instant in this monster. Click and go computing was such a dream to me. I was always waiting up for my lappy to do the work. And suddenly it's just over. Even like Mozilla which took about 20 secs to get going is now immediate. Buy buy lappys .... I am not gonna miss you....

YEeeeeehhaaaaaa!!!!!

February usually worst but this time its a mixed bag

2008-03-18T02:49:00.008+01:00

This is me again. For a long time i was away didn't feel at all like putting down here anything. Not that it was all emptyness in my life but pretty much it felt so to me. You'll shortly see it wasn't so.

February used to be the month when i fall into my biggest depression of the year. Usually it happens to me this time of the year, the weather sucks so bad, i am really sick of winter and just nothing really going on these months. Now this time i decided i am going to do something about not getting into depression. Of course one of my goals was to play a lot of poker. Just to mention on the sidelines goal ACHIEVED. :) Since weather sucks so bad i didnt have much option to do i could work or i could play a lot of poker. And i chose the second of course hoping to achieve more in it than what i could by working. Before i go on i must tell you it turned out to be my worst poker month in a long time. I was running bad, i was tilting and i was spewing money everywhere. I don't even know how in the world i ended up 1000 bucks ahead with such a bad play as i did in February. Outcome i hated myself, i hated the world and i hated poker. Oh, and i talked a few times personally to God, how big of a fucker he is and how i hate him. Of course that ain't true but i was so pissed some days i just couldn't resist cussing at him. All in all i think i learned somewhat of all this, and hope to control tilt better in future. So basically it's all poker right, well it is but still i had time for some other great stuff that kept me out of depression this time, well until end of month and beginning of march at least.

So a few good days i remember were Valentine's day. We went out with Csilla, just usual stuff as we like to go to the movies, so we decided to watch a movie and then have a nice dinner. Well the plan is always there for you as a guide for the day but pretty much the outcome is always gonna be totally different as planned. We ended up watching 2 movies :))) Yes we are fanatics and yes we overdo things in general. Big relief for me that Csilla showed great discipline and resisted not to go shopping. As i hate shopping, that sure must be a guy thing. So she didn't do shopping and we had to go to the movie she liked. It was a hungarian romantic comedy we saw and actually i really enjoyed it. The lady inside me i guess totally came out and i lived myself into the movie. So all in all it was a good experience. So next thing we planned was dinner, but as we love popcorn we totally stuffed ourselves with it and had to cool it off before eating anything. So we asked the guy at Subway (yes you heard it, the fancy restaurant turned out to be this one) not close down before 9PM so we could grab something after the movie. Guess what was the next movie we went to see... Okay, i help a bit. This time i chose.... Still nothing ring s a bell? !!!! Hellooo >>>!!!! :))) Okay, i tell you. Since i was always a Sylvester Stallone fan, and of course a big Rocky and Rambo fan too we decided to watch Rambo... Man it was brutal... I mean the movie was great and well thought out, but for Valentines day i could have think of something cheesier.... :S Luckily Csilla enjoyed it too... THis mega movie marathon was like ok, but i felt there was more to it than just that and thought it was another great Valentines day for us.

Now i might have tell you about my goals and tasks and motivational structure that i put up early this year. Some things really do go well, while some others are just not making any progress. So one night i decided i have to do something about the ones i really would hate to do. And i pushed myself into it. And finished one of my greatest and most stressfull task that i could. It was to totally close down my old audio company that ended in a miserable failure. Actually i could sell the one meridian CD player for good money and my ex partner is helping me to sell one more speaker that i got as a spare one. All in all i was very happy about this meeting and that it was over. I think this took a lot of pressure off me. Kind of subconscious pressure that i wasn't aware of but still it was there pushing me from the inside wanted to get out of me day by day and just probabily did more harm than good. And now that i kind of accomplished it and got some good money from the CD Player in Vienna what else could i do.... Go and celebrate... How do you really celebrate when you get some money in your hands?!!! >>>>>>>>>>>>>That's right you go gamble it away, OR you double it up.... So my idea with 1200 EUROs in my pocket was to visit the poker room we found on the way to Munchen. When i was going for the world cup to Munchen by the bus station i found this pokerroom by accident and ever since i did not find a way to make it there. Now there was 1200 worth of those burning papers that really were burning that hole in my pocket wanted to be going on a wager. And so i cancelled out my plans for the evening and headed to the pokerroom. Bought in for 200EUR and next thing i saw was it was 600. So the celebration was great money was made and i sang Bob Marley songs and whatever came to my mind all the way home on the highway... And the best of all this that i kind of feel less stressed ever since i closed this thing down....

This was very important to me that it helped me keep a good positive attitude throughout the month. There were my aunts' birthday party at the end of month, which is on the February 29th... Weirdly she can celebrate every 4th year. Well there are other weird dates in our family like my grandma was born on the 1st of April. And i was born on the name day of my mother and grandmother. Kind of funny. Well the b-day party is always great, lots of great food and drinks and just love the atmosphere at my aunt's house. She gets pretty much wasted everytime by the end of day and when the booze plays well with her body she starts to go around kissing everyone. :))) Gotta see it to see what im talking about but its darn funny stuff....

Another positive feelings for me. Finally my room is finished... Curtains are all set and and this is a very important part of the room. Without them the sound of my hi-fi was just pure shit... Ever since those pieces of clothes are on the window my hifi is like i changed the components from 200 bucks to 3000 bucks components... Really nice feature of my room now... Here is the picture of my room now... Note the stickies on my monitor... They are there to straighten me up in bad times...

I almost forgot, but there was another great night in February, that was a Ball night. On New Year's Eve in a weak drunk moment i talked to my Brother in law and promised him that i go to a ball with them this year. So he was not lazy to get us into some parent's ball in their village. It was really nothing fancy it was taking place in a village nearby where Csilla's brother's family live. The entry fee was (well for us was nothing as we were invited) an unbelievable 4 bucks. I don't know how they did it but you know what... i enjoyed the party more than if i went to an expensive 400 dollar Ball with all the stupid aristocrats showing off what they got... Maybe my blood is just not that aristocrat type... don't know... well i guess it is , since i am so much into anything yuppieish and all the comfort... peoplewise however i prefer the simple average persons. They are just so much more straightforward and easier to digest... And so is Csilla's family and i just like to be with them.... It was fun and definitely looking forward to our next ball night...

OK, all things so far were full optimistic but not everything was cream and butter. Since i was playing 100 hrs of poker online and i was running bad and i was freaking depressed by this. So much that i could cry day after day on the outcome. Mentally i was really tired of it and it never ended till mid march. That is the 9th of march. I really got so many bad news, bad vibes from everyone in addition to my poker failure that i just wanted to quit this world and just take some time by myself or just away from any problems. But this is when planning comes in handy. We planned ahead and planned a trip to skiing to the High Tatras. This year we skipped all skiing trip offers because later we are hoping to go to the US for 3 weeks... So we didnt want to spend too much money on skiing neither timewise we cant afford to take off too much vacation... Not me , CSilla :))) I am all free... :))) Well not really but i try to hide into my dreamland where i am free. Whatever.... So we booked a nice 4 star hotel for 4 nights where we could just spend our time doing Wellness activities if there's no snow. By all the chances we had we picked the only date that pretty much assured that there was no snow so we had to travel 20 kms to find good snow . But fortunately we were able to ski it up well at least for 2 days , because we just decided to do other stuff the other days. I've been really enjoying staying at this hotel we could just use the whirlpool jacuzzi , swimming pool , 4 types of saunas and there was an interesting foot massage therapy pool. Now this is is all cool, but when you have to share it might get you a bit frustrated sometimes. Not for us. Unbelievably we were staying at this 200 room hotel by ourselves with another family staying there too. That pretty much felt like we owned the place and as VIP guests closed it down for our own relaxation. It was great feeling. So with the exception of one day i was spending time at the hotel's wellness facility every day. It was worth every penny. One day we tried *well Csilla have tried before but for me it was first time* squash... I always had big time prejudices against the sport but i must admit it was GREAT... The trip was great, very relaxing and i filled up with a lot of positive energy. In fact one of the nights i got myself to drink a glass of quality Cognac and smoked a fine Cohiba cigar with it at the hotel's night bar. Ever since we are home I am feeling good and running fantastically. :)) I will finish my blog with how good i am running but i wanna say a few more words here.

The Tatras in Slovakia is just darn dead. I am not sure if you heard of it but like 3-4 years ago there was a big storm and it pretty much tore out all trees of the national park. It is really sick how nature slapped itself to the face. Now there is some movement for replanting the trees but its crazy... It used to be all woods and now it looks like a prarie... Unbelievable. Just so you can imagine i uploaded pictures how it looked before and after the storm... I felt sorry for Slovakia since this is their only treasure in this country and it will take about 80 estimated years to grow all that back. Some parts will never be replanted . Those will be for destruction tourism ... or for those tourists who are interested in seeing the destruction. Telling all this probabily is nothing crazy, but seeing it live was pretty amazing, horrifying and sad all at the same time.

Before

After

Off topic...

New fun projects : learn to play golf.... get to the next level in scuba diving.... get a licence for sailing... i might consider taking my lessons in hanggliding, but i am still considering it.

The first project needs some explanation. I am spending very little of my time in the nature or in fact open air. Which i promised to be changed in my life, so Csilla and i are expecting some more hiking trips and some more outside activities in the future. And here comes in golf. I love to play. Not golf. I love to play anything. Anywhere where there is competition i love it. And golf seems beautiful, a complex and hard game that can be learned. I might not like it, but i will try it before i make any prejudice on that as well. However for now i am pretty stoked about trying it out. I am trying to get Csilla into this as well which was a big time cause of frustration for her and for me arguing a lot about it as she is more of a lazy ass and doesnt like trying new things out ;))) But she is a supercool wife and knows how to handle me.

Talking about the supercool wife. Csilla is just a great support in my life. I can really break down from one moment to suddenly the next moment i m hitting ground zero.... She is there to put life back into me and her support is very great and very welcome. It is a groundstone in my development in both poker life and maturity wise. I believe i actually might one day be a serious adult because of her :))) And it is not to be meant falsely that i am a baby or anything, it's just that she fills out the holes when i am in desperate need for help.... I am very grateful for having a superwoman like she is on my side. Thought i share it with the world. Thought i share these thoughts with her too. Not that im not telling this to her every day. ;)

My blogs come like once a month or not even that often but then they are crazy long... I might chop it up the next time so it would be easier to read. Anyways, my computer project was off for a while until at the end of february i had a hand where i had AK. I raised and fish called me. Flop came AK3. I bet fish calls. Turn I bet Fish calls. Turn was a 8. River comes K. Computer starts working hard... working hard.... Im going crazy what if i time out for fuck's sake no, i run so bad, i dont need this... .FUUUUCK... Computer finished its job im sitting out lost the hand that i was supposed to win, lost 15 bucks... Not much... but it was enough for me to go nuts. And there we go... I ordered the PC of my dreams again. I am hoping to get it this week, but again, my expectation regarding speed of deliveries or in fact deliveries at all are very low ... Learned from past experience... and adjusted expectations

Running good... The story is we had a great rest in the Tatras... I am fresh and stoked on playing poker again. I play online daily 4 hrs and run over the games. Well, somewhat run them over, but definitely run better than expectation. New pokerroom opened up again in Komarno... Definitely positive EV .... We went to a 150 dollar buyin tournament in Bratislava this saturday... 24 participants... 9 hrs of suffering pain... Ended up splitting for 1st and 2nd place earning a whopping 900 bucks... Sweet, i just wish i could keep this up for a few months....definitely not maintainable... :(

And for those who do not have time to look up things on the internet there are a few great appz i got aware of and am fully using them to max.... check them out...

www.digsby.com >>>>>>>>>if you use facebook and gmail its a great IM tool....

Dropbox.... its a great online syncing application... Really great and most importantly fast and easy to use...

I am through with my blog for now, i let you know how things evolve in the future, there is definitely some update coming from GOLF, PC, TRAVEL and POKER MATTERS....

Thanks for reading my life....

Roland

Gamer PC no more waiting...

2008-02-01T11:32:00.000+01:00

So i blog again. Last time i blogged i was all hyped about my new PC coming and was all hyped for becoming everything better that i could be. So it's time for some update. I am doing fine. Things are getting done at least twice as fast as they were in last year, i can say thanks for Gmail, and Gcalendar. They are fantastic and very powerful tools in getting organized. They are part of my everyday life and i love to use them. Especially that i have given some thoughts on how to use them efficiently. So i am doing quite well on that area. Still some personal characteristics i have issues with such as LAZYNESS, but i think my will is going to overcome and kill that SOB. :)))

Anyways, the time has passed and waiting is over. That's basically it for my powerhorse new gaming PC. After 40 days of suffering hearing promises from the pc company, they gave up on it. I have chosen all the best technologies *newest* maybe not the best. But they couldnt figure it out how to put it together. Maybe they did, but then again the PC never made it to me. They were saying they had problems with the RAMs, then the GPU, then the motherboard. I just let them know it was enough and asked for my money back. Poor suckers, they will never meet the expectations of a gamer. Probabily there are not that many in Slovakia who want that HIGH END, but that is one of the most profitable parts of the business that should be taken care of. Especially for a company of the size of them. They failed. So i'm kind of sad and pissed but on the other hand i was starting to think how i don't need this computer anyways. Way to save big bucks guys. I still haven't decided what next, maybe a new order? Maybe the Mac Pro Desktop? Really don't know. Maybe a new laptop? Time will tell. I am not a Mac fan but since it is the same PC as they normal PC but have the MAC OS on it and i would put Vista on it too, i might consider that one.

All these hard decision fell into my hands and now i have to deal with them. I will let you know how things will get handled here.

We decided on the dates with Csilla and the Amis that we go and give them a visit in May. So Csilla got her new passport and i said why not i take a shot for a new one too. In the mean time they realized i had 5 passports registered since they were not unregistered from the time when my passports were stolen along with my car 7 yrs ago. So more problems more complications on getting that stupid VISA. Why do we need this anyways? We are not criminals.... Anyways, 100% free travel in the world still remains an utopistic dream. But who knows, since these criminals got a hold of my passports they could do good illegal business with it. Like trading guns to 3rd world countries. I might even get arrested in the end :))) So it has to be done before we can get our visas. Hey, I might just have gotten my car stolen and use my passports for illegal travel. Hey, maybe I AM a criminal :)))

Off. Hotel got its rooms finished. Of course every single employee came holding their hands for wage increase. They see a small expansion and they come and try to skin you. It ended with some disappointment on their side, but we will see who will be disappointed in the end. I am trying to be the best dictator of the company. A nice one in fact, like Saddam was to his people ;) Or no, like Castro rather.... :)))

Poker... As it is a big part of my life i write a few lines on that too. It became big part of my life. I signed up for a coaching site 2 months ago and my results did really improve ever since. So i am taking time to learn the game and improve in it. I did put some quite good effort in playing long hours too. And the results are records records records. I have played just this month more hands than last year from January till October. This doesn't say much since last year i was kind of off poker. But the result is 22,000 hands. And i moved up to .25/.5 games. And seem to have a reasonably good time here too. Also this month is first month ever to pass that 4 figure money that should come with poker. So i am quite happy about that. I can clearly say, if i had no better thing to do, i could earn an income comparable or maybe better somewhat than average than what ppl earn here in Slovakia. But i don't wanna settle with that much, so poker is still a hobby to me. But i am kind of started grinding it a bit as this comes with certain advantages. :))) In a few words January = records = 22,000 hands = 100 hrs played = 4 figure income ..... There is not everything cream and cheese as it sounds. There are downsides in my game too, which i will have to clearly improve upon. Such are TILT... It automatically hits me, when i am down a few hundred bucks i start to TILT, play bad , spew money away. I have made steps on this but still find myself quite frustrated on loosing a few hundred in a session. I try my best to get rid of this as much as possible.

And some update on my married life. :)) So new year started out grumpy and stuff, we had our period in the never stopping roller coaster ride of life. But it was just a very small turn down and we seemed to get through it pretty quickly. A few minutes together can do wonders. So we talked about stuff and we did straighten up things and we are fine again. This was just one of those times when we had very little patience towards each other, but words do make changes if you say it. So i think other than a few argggs, and rrrrrrrrrrrrs we are over it. And in wait for the Valentine's day with ease of mind :))) Not to mention i might have just blown up things in the first place. But there was a splinter in things as i could feel it and we got rid of it as i can feel it :)))

Update finished... Logged off for work....

Roland

Bye Bye 07 Welcome 08

2008-01-18T23:50:00.001+01:00

So it's been quite a while i haven't posted anything i was quite busy organizing my stuff. There were actually quite a lot of reorganization on organizing my life. :))) So now i supposed to have all the tools to be focused.

But, i don't wanna rush too far ahead and want to mention few news that happened here and some x-mas talk and end of year stuff will follow. So first big news actually happened to most of us living in East Europe. We are now in the Schengen Treaty and that means we can go across border without "watchdogs" in our butts. It is nice especially for those of us who had lived here for the last 25 yrs. When i was young we couldn't pass the borders of our country. There was an allowance to go to Hungary twice a year. Not very much considering we were very close neighbors. Borders opened up in 1990, but ever since cops and border patrol kept asking where we are about to go and what are we carrying in our car, like we were all drug dealers and smugglers or something... It eased up some bit but whenever the patrol found a reason to use his power they used in a non bonafide way. It's "total" freedom now, well it feels much better at least. We just go and cross borders, kind of the feeling of the US. It's nice. There is still border patrol but they now exist and function in a different way, they are like cops stopping foreign cars inland Hungary and ask for ID and i must say i'm impressed with their job. They bust so many more ppl this way. Interesting. I am waiting the moment when i will get busted not having my ID card on me, and extradited from the country :))) Anyways, this we find quite interesting and celebrated in an old fashioned way... you know fireworks and politicians having speech of our opportunities... just as always.... if it wasn't negative zillion degrees cold i might have attended.

In the meantime workout is going good, i am really getting my body and muscles in good shape. This really is a great step for me, and i appreciate all the work my personal trainer is doing to get me down to the gym. Well, the hardest part going down there is the start. Once i'm over there i don't really care and enjoy myself working out. So this is been going good and my whole attitude towards it changed in a positive way. On the other hand i couldn't manage to loose weight because of xmas.

Xmas was in many ways very special this year. To me at least it was. Csilla and I spent together Xmas mostly with our families. On the 24th she was working but we closed the business for a few hours giving keys to our customers and headed to my mom and later on to my dad's place having dinner. We usually are in the habit of gifting each other on the night of the 24th and we kind of got tired of buying unnecessary presents for each other and set a limit of $10 for each gift a few yrs ago. I don't have to mention even though we were and are already adults it had its emotional downsize. I must confess i didn't care not getting any gifts, but i saw my sister envying my dad's new stepdaughters. Since the deal was not counting on them they were getting nice outfit , clothes, laptops and bunch of nice stuff that really can warm the heart and make the holidays more special and my sister got a set of soaps or something. Not even personal. Well as i said i didn't really care about not getting anything and not having to buy anything. So i was good with it till last year when i was not in a good shape anyways. My gift was a book on how to be a good dad and parent. Can you believe this shit? I could just take it in a good way, but it was a bit of an impolite gift IMO. Why would parents push their kids into having kids anyways... They will have all the time babysitting our babies when we are travelling around the world and going skiing in the wintertime :))) Not to mention party weekends :)))

So for the few years of negative experience of x-mas for my sister i talked with my dad and about the emotional backside of not getting presents and we changed back to normal, which i used to my advantage and wrote a sackful of items in my wish list ;)
And i have to say it does feel good to get some goodies. The other side is always positive too, since giving to others is just as good of a feeling as getting. So I was absolutely satisfied as how things changed for us this year and for the first time in my life i enjoyed shopping around for x-mas. Weird, that has to be something with getting old and mature :))) I can't know that though, i'm still young ;)

Xmas is always special in a sense that we spend time together what we do every month a few times, but this time it's really special. We don't just come together to eat but give each other presents that come from the heart and just let the others know that we care about them and how much we appreciate they are around us everyday in our life.

Well foodwise Xmas is a disaster. Unfortunately my body is not responding to food as it did during my younger years, so everything i eat stays on some parts of my body. But oh god, can you make me resist? No way, i am not skipping mom's most delicious lentile soup. I normally don't like lentile soup but my mom's is just heaven in all sense. My tasting buds are totally getting high from it so i spoil them accordingly and eat up till im like stuffed. So i was stuffed for most of the 3 days going from one place to another eating all kinds of goodies. And probabily gained some weight too :)) Don't know, since i never had the strength on stepping on those weight measuring liars ;)

As i mentioned in my earlier blogs i was tempted to buy a new Power PC for home and this made my last day's quite busy for the rest of the year. I ordered the PC and i'm still waiting for it. It's due date is on next friday. Till this time i had to refurbish our empty room, which was used as storage room pretty much. I'm 90% finished cleaning it out and putting stuff like my spare High End Speakers on their place the table in the middle of the room and Bryston's super amp so i could hook my computer up to it and listen to my music on quality sound system. So i'm finished with the room, only curtains to be mounted on the windows, but that i do by end of this month. Below you can see how it looks now. I will put curtains later and a PC is to be added soon...

We ended the year with a 4 day shutdown. As business was going slow for the last week of the year almost every year, i decided to shut it down as a meltdown for all workers after a busy year. I found it definitely positive EV for doing so, since i believe cost over revenue was not on the advantageous side for us these days. And so it was. On last day we were definitely open up again.

New Year's Eve. Time of making big promises and resolutions. I decided not to make any. Well, actually there was one i made. I promised this year will be the year of acts and action. I for sure wanted to do some achievements for this year, and have my goals defined on the next day for the year. Parts are personal, some are business and some are pokerwise. I am forcing myself on continuous development in all fields of my life. Time will only tell if all that was efficient in any ways... Anyways, New Year's Eve was fun... i spent some time with my sister and wife in Atrium and had good time with some new friends we made. One girl was celebrating the year from America well from Slovakia but married to an american guy and kind of thought of herself being american so i was in joking way giving her a hard time the whole night. It was fun, now i don't think she will ever wanna be hungarian again :))) Anyways, cheers and Happy NEW Year!!!! I wish you all that you accomplish all your promises. I know it won't happen but still :))))

Pokerwise I can finally say I am back. It had some history that i am now going to share why i was away from poker in sense... So I can thank this poker carrier to my friend Justin. He introduced me to the game and on first sight i fell in love with and started to quickly jump into it loosing and going busto a few times and bought books and learned the game. I definitely could have developed faster and get stronger in the game, but i kind of got my first burnout in 2006 october, when American legislation ruled out online poker as a legal form of gambling. So a big deal on the fish was lost, and only tough money remain online. Ever since the games just got better at all levels. I would say, that 3 yrs ago what the level on 15/30 limits were now became standard on 1/2 - 2/4 dollars. So you can imagine. Anyways my burnout let me let go of poker at least Limit Holdem. In early spring last year though a new sign came and some friends called me over if i wanna go play No Limit poker with them. And so i did. And since i find NL poker much less Tilty i thought it was supposed to be my main game. And now it is. I am mostly playing it and played a lot in 2007 LIVE and ONLINE and made my most profitable year in poker for me. Well it's not much but making $3,500 dollars just from my hobby is pretty ok. Well in 2006 i made $6000 but the pokerroom i was playing at only paid me out 2K and then went busto... So far 3,500 is my biggest gain, but i can pretty surely say this out loud that by end of april i am ready to pass this amount this year... Hope i won't suffer long cold streaks then everything should be fine. Also i decided not to play too many LIVE games and stick to online games mostly. First of all i can play 3-4 tables online which is much more action packed for me and LIVE games somehow depress me. I don't know if that's the ppl i'm playing with or what is it but live poker is definitely not my game. I am everything that the internet player is so i am going to stick to this smartly. So i am now totally determined that i wanna improve and go up limits and reach at least 2 limits above by the end of year where i am right now. We will see how this will go, i keep you posted.

Business wise some changes occurred as well. 3 new rooms were added to the business thanks for my dad and csilla pretty much who were working on it and on the business very hard taking my share of work on themselves. I was missing out on the work lately, but this year as i said above i am about to get things in my hand. So just wanna thank for these 2 great persons that they let me live my life so comfortably and let me pursue in my other goals.

I am still one week away from getting my PC. I can't wait for it. It's gonna be super powerful. It will have a Quad Core 2.66Ghz CPU , 4GBs of RAM, 2x 500 GB HDD in RAID 0 mode which basically means data read will be 2x faster than from one Hard drive. I expect Vista to boot up less than a minute but we will see. And there are some other great features that it will have like top tier graphics card for my gaming needs. Oh, i can't wait to get it. Probabily next weekend i'm gonna be "Out of Office" :)))) playing my games on the new PC. :)))

For now i am going to finish i will let you know of the happenings later, i have a new idea that i saw just recently for how i'm gonna make my blogs a bit more personal. :) But that's just in the future to come :)

Cheers all,

R

Start of the 30th end of the 2007th

2007-12-21T05:39:00.000+01:00

It's been some time since i blogged. Well the reasons are always many not to blog, but the most of all i didnt have the mood to do it. So for those whom i promised to write and those who were expecting lines here i apologize. I was lazy. I will try to do some consistency with my older blogs, i thought this would be a good idea. And easier for me too. So i passed 29 now. Last year in the twenties, kind of sad. I remember it was painful leaving the teens now its the 20s. No particular feelings, that i turned 29. I still feel young. Well, not teenish young but still young. People though try to take it away from me and say im old. I don't know what makes them do it ?!! My balding forehead? Weaker hair in general? Wrinkles or what? They never tell me? Maybe it's just my way of interaction that it is. :)) Anyways i decided to get in shape and stay young forever. That was one of my presents for my b-day. I got a fitness pass and ever since I'm actively working out so far 2x a week. Sadly for me this is going to be double investment. Since I'm paying for the entry and i hired a personal trainer who keeps me motivated and keeps calling my mobile 3x a day so i get my ass to the gym. Not to mention there are the upcoming shopping bills for my new clothes that will be necessary as i get super buff. :)) Other than muscle fever i started up pretty well with training. Though there was a small accident. I did train for my calves and i must have over pushed myself to the limits and i had such a pain in both calves that i couldn't walk for 2 days.

Now these 2 days were the most busy days for my entire year and i had to show myself in front of so many people. Can you imagine going for my mom's 50th birthday party? Everyone dancing and all that stuff and I'm walking from the bar to our table in 20 minutes, just cuz i'm so much in pain. Fortunately there was plenty of food and plenty of drinks (yes, alcohol too) and it really helped me back on my feet. By the morning i could almost normally walk. :)) No pain, nothing. I was fine. Anyways, my muscles are back to normal. Talking of pain killers, there was this guy in our town who got drunk on a party , like real drunk... and 3 in the morning he got starving hungry. And as drunk french fries came to his mind. He started to fry the oil and put the french fries in it. Since he didnt find anything to stir it with he used his hand to do it. Next morning he woke up in killer pain with 2nd level burn spots on his hand. I just wanted to show the power of Bushmill's pain killing side. :)))

A week before my mom's birthday, we celebrated Tibi's son's birthday. I was as always late about an hour or maybe even somewhat more. Beforehand i was attending my friday night poker tournament session and i thought as my luck goes i would be out soon, but no. I made it till the bubble and finished 2 place out of the money, unfortunate, but the good news is we now had a good reason still to be optimistic and go for something great. I grabbed a bottle of wine from my quality collection and brought it to Tibi's place. We were not expecting many ppl to come. They said they started to drink long ago, but the party was so freaking sober i can't imagine what they did throughout that time. So i came for help and think with Tibor we got drunk like in half an hour to an hour time. I never drink Metaxa , but this time i didnt care and went with the flow. Later in the evening we just decided to go to a place where we met up with my sister. It was a shitty party place. Well shitty for looks but the music is always good, and the atmosphere is very positive every time i go there. Well , i ve never been there sober, but still , ive got good memories from there. :)) Hehe, not from this time though, since i relived a long ago experienced blackout from alcohol . In fact i dont know till today how i got home. Only thing came to my mind is to lock the door from the inside, which for me comes instinctively. And this became a problem. Csilla couldn't get in the morning from her 24 hour work shift. I had the car , the keys, the lock from inside and my phone in my coat pocket. Luckily for me she wasn't as pissed as i expected. :)))

We were planning to go to a wellness hotel on my birthday, but as it comes to us a lot of times, one of our employees decided not to come to work the day we were supposed to go. We had to cancel our reservations. You can imagine i was MEGA pissed. So she got away with a warning this time, but there is no more excuse for her. Btw, she did screw us over last year. My patience with people is unlimited i guess, until i fucking explode like a bomb.

Speaking about explosions. I did explode a few times recently. December is again back to the red poker wise. I'm running pretty cold and am discovering a whole lot of problems in my game. This is good. Every down period I'm looking to fix up my game and really it helps me keep alive in today's pretty tough internet games. I am keen playing online as the poker room in Komarno just died, so i cant find games frequently enough. And online is a tough bitch. Internet poker is so different from live games. Also the opposition is very good. So i need to improve. I need to fix up wholes and leaks in my game. I am determined to do it and my entire next year or so to say my last year in the 20s will be spent on fixing up my NL Holdem game, alongside starting up with Omaha HI and Hi/Low. I just found out the excitement of this type of poker just recently and am having great fun playing it for sure.

December was all about x-mas for me. I kind of got early in the x-mas mood but this year its just so much more. Every week there was something to do with it, we decorated the hotel, well i only took some small part of decorating since I'm not very welcome decorating with the girls. They just fancy the decorating on their own in their own style. I must admit i DON'T mind!!! ;)

Then we went shopping, and in some part this is always great this time of the year, everything is full of people, it is tough to find a parking place for the car and some good discounts and stores packed full with great merchandise. Everything is dressed up beautiful, the world is just beautiful this time around. I must say i am very satisfied with the x-mas presents I'm getting. As we got older we don't expect surprises rather surprise each other with stuff we actually wish for. So we ask and i published them in some part on my blog. And there is not one item missing under the x-mas tree and there are some more. I have actually tried a few out, like Logitech's wireless headphones and wireless Wave keyboard. They kick ass. I just love them. I asked my dad to surprise me with a cool office chair that i want to use in our spare room that we have. I wanna move in there with my new PC. Well that PC is just in the plans, i plan to put on the order today, I'm not sure i will buy it, I'm still thinking about it. Since i gave away my PS2 to little Erik i don't have anything to play with. But this new PC is like a wallet hog... Since i have the keyboard and mouse and monitor i only need the PC itself. However i don't need a PC unless for gaming. And those biyotches cost much. Just the graphical card costs me 800 bucks. So i'm still considering it.

Other huge problems i have in life is whether to go with Vista or stay with XP. My new machine would easily take on Vista, i just don't know how the new OS is more superior to the old one. So as you see these tough decisions i have to go through every day. It is very hard on me.

Speaking of hard life i decided to give donation from part of my tax this year to Africa. I really wish the new continent could start up finally. I don't know where, but i read it in an article that black people are stupider than other mutations of human beings. I am not racist or anything but there could be something about it. After all why is that the black continent is in such trouble as is. And just generally in every society very few black ppl made themselves good life by being smart. :)) So all in all i decided to support the stupid, they really need it, and since this money would go into waste if my government would use it up for corrupt business deals and giving it the unemployed gypsy population, i see the good reason why this money will go to Africa. So Africa wait up, I'm shipping it. I was just thinking of one person who is black and kicks the shit out of white ppl. It's Phil Ivey. So sorry black ppl, no harm was intended.

Once i will be really up with poker money i am thinking about donating some percent of it too. After all i am taking this money from other people. I need to give something back to society. By donating back a bit i think is a good start. Anyone any ideas who NEEDS the dough?

So all x-mas presents bought i am eagerly waiting it to exchange them :)) Can't wait my mom's lentil soup and eating turkey and duck all 3 days... I am conscientiously planning to fatten up my belly during the holidays.

I must close my blog out by thanking everyone around me, wife, family, friends and poker fellows that made 2007 such a great year for me. I really loved every moment of it. I hope my next year will reach somewhere this high too, as there are some big plans for that year. New construction start up for my real estate, trip to America and Euro cup and who knows what more... Hope some new challenges will be up as I'm waiting to face 2008 with positive attitude. So 2008 here i come!!!

Finishing up my blog i just wish everyone a Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year.

See ya after the holidays.

R

Birthday time

2007-11-15T20:11:00.000+01:00

Last weekend it was birthday and nameday weekend in my family. Crazy but the last 2 months of the year for us goes wild on b-days and name days. It is my sister's n-day on the 6th, on the 7th Szandri's my dad's new step daughters) b-day, on 19th grandma's and mom's n-day and my b-day , 24th little Erik's b-day and this is just the starter. December 3rd dad's n-day, 6th Santa Clause in town for us, 9th mom's 50th...and i'm sure i left out a few from Csilla's family and then there is X-mas and New Year's Eve. If something is heavy on our wallets then these two months are. Well, i don't really mind, since it is always good fun, great dinners and family hanging together. I usually don't mind these events, especially the uniqueness of them that we don't talk business at all when they happen. That's just a relief. Just last weekend we had roasted duck with potatoes and buck stew with gnochi... Oh man, wanna rewind to that again and again. Thanks mom for the great delicacies you always make for us. I also love going there i get to hang out with little Erik, who is by the way a little devilish beast. But i love to play with him. We just kind of get along very well, which is weird as kids did not love me much before, probably for the fact that my personality is kind of raw. At least for the outsider. But he loves to hang with me and tires me down in that 1-2 hour when we are together. He just has so much energy i used to make him run laps in the apartment pretending I'm measuring his time. He never gets tired by the way. :)))

2 more days and it is my birthday. We haven't plan on much other than go out with a few friends and celebrate by a few glasses (or bottles ;)) of wine, but that is yet to come. Other than that we are going to a wellness spa center in Hungary for 2 days just beginning of next week. Suppose to be fun. The place is in the middle of the woods out of nowhere. But i am hoping for a romantic breakaway there. We will see. Any relaxation that has swimming pool, sauna and massage is good for the kids right ? :))

I can say last year was by far the worst year of my life. I felt shitty, depressed, unmotivated, lost and mentally i was just down to earth, even though great things happened to me as well. Still, i closed the year as the worst year of my life. However, the good things about such times are that they usually end. And then come the good times. Which indeed did, since i feel ok and great again this year. And for that matter, i am experiencing the x-mas mood very early which is rare. I usually start thinking about x-mas in December maybe a few weeks before x-mas, but not this year. This year i was already getting the feel of x-mas in October. It was weird, but i can't wait the season. It is just a great time of the year, everything is dressed in shiny little something, the streets wear extra lights and trees get beautiful decor to themselves. Not only that but the people "fill up" the stores and all they thinking is what they are getting to their loved ones. The whole theme is just so wonderful, looking for the perfect tree, buying x-mas candy it all brings me back to my childhood. I really think i am getting it why traditions are so important now. Does this mean i am getting old? Anyways, as x-mas is coming it is time to extend my wish list so watch out for ideas ;)

Off topic. 2 days ago i was in the hotel and worked my 24 hr shift. It wasn't much to remember, but still. I had my longest chat session with a great friend of mine (Zoli, you might know him from the wedding). It was a long and long chat with him trying to prove his truth against mine. We were discussing a couple of things like how German cars are better over Japanese at least IMO, and his contrary. Also there was a battle on the Leopard vs Windows, me defending the latter. I guess people just do not see the strength of Windows. If i could offer them a few applications that make their job easy and painless, i would be glad to do so. I think i will do that on the end of this blog. So anyways, one of the greatest debate between us is a touchy field. The one where we totally do post for the other side, where absolutely no understanding between us was forgiveness. I was kind of teasing Zoli with how i will enter Cupid's role and get him back to his first Love and i can state the Big LOVE. And he was resisting SO hard, that i kind of believed him he would never forgive the girl who hurt him bad back few years ago. But when you love someone and expect great times with one then isn't forgiveness the right thing to do? Even if you might get hurt again. I don't know but that's what i did, and i can't regret for one second. I think once we stop being stiff and stubborn and start realizing by giving up we might actually gain we would do much better in the long run. It has a lot to do with personality i guess and mostly with ego. I see so many people walking with their head stuck up in their ass they actually hurt themselves with their own principles, like the ones she shot her one bullet away she has no other chance. What? R they so perfect they never made mistakes or what? We all do and in fact we will. Humans are very complex. And we also live in a complex environment. By avoiding the pitfalls and mistakes we also miss out on a lot of things, but by not avoiding we can just hurt sometimes others. And we do that too, all of us make mistakes. Large ones small ones, doesn't matter because that is just a matter of point of view how large or small ones they are. We can't really control that and we especially can't control what mistakes others are doing. But we can control one thing. We can forgive we can love back. It all comes down how we shape it towards our likings. And the future will prevail. Sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse. We just all make mistakes, but can't let our fears interfere with our LiFe.

Ok that philosophic Vas stops for today. Some more random thoughts on poker results for the last week. Online results were particularly good, i also made a breakthrough in improving on my cash game and my sit'n'go game as well. Now i am expecting my results to show that in the next months.

In Imperial in Komarno i also did pretty good. Earlier this week i crashed a table at a long cash game till 5 in the morning. "You can sheer a sheep many times but skin him only once"... a quote from the movie Rounders. But most of you know that already. Now this is what happened a few days back in the cardroom which is one major mistake. We played a sit'n go but unfortunately again i was outmatched. I had to go all in with my pair of aces preflop with being the second largest stack and i got 3 opponnents including the chipleader. Which i took as a horrible result for being against 3 opponents. Couldn't believe it. There are so many fishes at these tables i still have hard time believing it. The good news to my Aces were that my opponents also held pocket pairs and that was Csilla holding KK, the chip leader 88, and another guy holding 22 willing to gamble and go home if he looses. ??!!!!! Of course the chip leader - this last month the luckiest fish on earth - caught and 8 on the flop and made sets. Was pretty crazy especially since he called last preflop. Well i just have to live with it. Such beats got me out of the money for a month now at least in this card room. Until yesterday, where i went to a $40 dollar one re buy and one add-on tournament. It was funny since i left all my money at home so i had to buy-in from Csilla's money and after an unluckily forced re buy i had to borrow from that lucky guy i was talking about earlier. I guess he gave away his luck with that money since i busted him later in the night with pocket Aces and it had to of course improve against his 2 pair, but it did. And there was not much left for me after that just to crush the table. And i did. I think i played very well keeping pressure on the other participants and maintained a chip lead from early after the add-on period till the end. Well we were switching back and forth first and second with another guy, but eventually i killed him heads-up and took the glory and the price. It is an unbelievably great feeling to win. Getting to the money is ok, but winning a tournament is just so much more and for me in fact everything. Well the ending of yesterday was half mixed. Although i beat the game, i also busted Csilla out from the tourney on 5th place when there were 3 places paid. So she was under herself after that making me feel bad also. She was unlucky as she held Jacks against my AK which paired on the turn. So i guess it is for her consideration now to start getting better and avoid me at the tables. ;) BTW, she is getting better and better and i look forward for the days when she will be my biggest opponent at the tables. Anyways, i consider myself mostly a cash game player and not a tournament player and going back to what i started on how I sheered the ship on Tuesday. We were busted out of the tournament and one of the biggest fish (seriously i cannot set up categories now between them) asked me to start playing a cash game at another table. So we started out heads up and fifteen minutes later i took him for 2 buy ins which at .5/1 dollar games was 100 bucks. Not bad after 15 minutes. So we finished and waited for others to join the table because he realized heads up wasn't for him and he would loose too fast. So the other's came and there is this one guy who cries so much how bad his hands are and how unlucky is and how his good pairs get busted all the time. He just doesn't realize how bad he plays his hands. And as it always happens with such ppl, the sky dropped on him. And was outdrawn and outplayed on most hands. But seriously i can't think of too many hands he won that night and 2 of us took him for 200 bucks. He was screaming and yelling how bad we are and how stupid we are, but to me it was all conscious move against his bad play. It is just getting to me how good it is to be better than most players in live games. I think i am the best cash game player in town so i am continuously looking for games to play at. However this is nothing big, since poker is still new here and people are not very good at it, so being best is still not that big of a thing at all. Thanks for my continuous improvement i am now starting to catch up with internet games as well, which are much harder to beat, especially on Full Tilt.

Just to mention we are expanding the hotel with 3 more rooms which we look forward now for years. It will be interesting to see how will we fill them up, but it is definitely a plus for us. We also made a few upgrades such as hairdryers in rooms. Trying to be best in this field is a very demanding job. But i guess we just entered the time of big competition where customer is king. And that's how we comply.

As i promised at the end of my blog i share a few great appz that deserve a try when you hate windows so much. My favorites are:

Volumouse - control volume with mouse

Rocketdock - same dock that apple offers with his OS, kind of replaces the quicklaunch bar in windows and improves on it

SnagIt - The best screenshot capture software, very easy to use, simply awesome

Webrunner - Runs web applications in their own windows, i use a separate one for Gmail and Google Reader

RoboForm - The greatest... I won't say anything try it... get addicted... buy it

The newest Winamp 5.5 - awesome Bento skin

GoodSync - Synchronisation and back up software

Google Desktop, Google Talk with Gmail Notifier and GMAIL

Sticky Notes - for those with shallow memory banks :)))

Once u start using these applications i don't see another reason to switch to mac or Vista or anything. Of course i assume you already use Mozilla or Opera and use some good subscription of Spyware and Antivirus. I use Bit defender and Spy sweeper and they are doing a fantastic job.

I wrote so much i guess i did not leave out anything. So for now i am putting down my pen and leave the field and am going for a walk with little Benny.

Well i left out something, 2 days ago Tibi's son Levente was born. Congrats to you Balogh family. Have fun and happiness raising up your newborn child.

Hasta Luego,

R

2007-10-31T09:39:00.000+01:00

It's been a great last 3 days. Well it was mixed up with good and bad things but overall i think it was more positive than negative. First off, I am temporarily over my sick period of insomnia. I kind of like the feeling of waking myself every morning early at 8 and from this also comes that I'm going to bed latest at midnight. I like it, however it still doesn't fit my poker lifestyle very much. Maybe i will have to find a medium solution, so i can play late at night but be still awake most of the day times. Sounds like the 2AM limitation would solve this. I am now also planning to buy a Parental Lock software on my computer, so i can limit my usage during the nights. Of course my wife would have the password and thus everything is in control. It is necessary to me, since i lack control of myself when I'm sitting in front of my laptop and just can take my time till 8-9 AM playing Tower Defense, Poker and watching videos (Note the waste of time I'm putting in my lappy at nights). So i decided to make initiatives against Vas and won't let him screw around this late. This new software i found called Kids watch Time Control does a great job in many fields such as blocking internet or blocking computer user usage. Now because most of these parental software can limit only internet usage i kind of like this one over any other. Since i have so many TV shows downloaded that i cannot imagine going to bed if only internet would be blocked for me during night shifts. :)))

Two days ago we decided to see The Bourne Ultimatum as its on show time since last Thursday. We kind of fancied the idea with my wife that we can get free tickets from her parents as they get these coupons from Nokia. Pretty sweet. So we started to plan. We go to Tatabanya watch the movie that starts at 13.15 and come home by 17.00 and so i can go and attend the 50K poker tourney in Gyor. At first it looked like a sweet plan. BUT... MURPHY i wish you DIE FOREVER and never come back.... Murphy's law... If you plan up for everything for sure you will need to re plan and you'll end up doing things absolutely differently as you planned first. Now watch this we have 1 hour to make it to the movies. It is 30kms or 20 miles from my house. Reachable goal i think. Now since I'm always a cheap bastard in the beginning of the year, you know New Year promises and shit so i never buy the yearly road fee for the highways. Seriously why the hell am i not doing that? Instead I'm taking the fucking slow ass sideways that gives home to thousands of dears , trucks, traffic lights, train crosses and slow ass drivers who drive 10% slower than the speed limit allows them. For Fuck's sake why are we so freaking careful? I mean every 10 minutes the radios are telling where the police are busting ppl. There is so little risk in driving fast. I kind of realized that ppl are so aware of negative confrontations such as paying a few bills or just getting busted that they live their whole life in a super careful manner. And then they make the stupidest mistakes when it comes to impulsive and emotional choices. Such are gambling, cheating, divorce, financial decisions and many more that i see everyday... Seriously if ppl would of put more effort on these decisions they probably could afford a few negative confrontations with the police and driving at their comfortable speed which for me is usually twice the speed limit. So anyways, i always randomly ramble away from the topic i started recently. Anyways we are heading Tatabanya. We have like 40 minutes we are absolutely in time. Ok, it's pretty slow but we can make it, i'm driving crazily but ok. My nerves are start pumping by each slow car i'm passing so i can break out pretty quickly. Now at this point i hate to get stopped by traffic lights, but Murphy did it for me again. TRAIN STOP!!! OMG somebody shoot me... We waited 20 minutes at the rail cross showing us red light and guess what... NO TRAIN!!! Unfuckingbelievable. In today's tech packed world where communication devices are just everywhere the Hungarian Rail Company still could not figure this thing out. Sooo Sick!!! Anyways we missed the beginning of the movie by about 10 minutes take 5 minutes off the commercials they show with every movie... so we decided to still attend and have a good time... Yeah right my ass... Murphy got there before we did. Because there was no one attendee for the showing they cancelled it ... At that time there was more steam coming out of my head than from a factory chimney.... So fucked up... At this point i had to replan and chose to stay with my wife eat something wait for the next showing and stay with her for the rest of the day skipping the long waited 50K Freeze Out tourney. Maybe for the better. Anyways, the movie so much kicked ass... it was worth all the troubles ... and for some poker action Csilla and I went to the local card room and both of us got busted one place before the money. But yesterday i made a comeback and won it all back and some more at a second place finish. Maybe the one month loosing streak has just ended yesterday? Somebody please confirm !!!

Today i woke up early again. Started my day with two glasses of fresh orange juice and 3 waffles with mapple syrup. Now that was sweat. Read the news and am writing this blog right now. The plan is to go out with Benny and take him for a long walk and then grab him some nice present as it is his birthday today. He is 3. He is a big guy now. I might get him some diet food or something since he is so freaking fat. Crazy. He might get a new name like Garfield or something. We just can't resist him giving food when he's looking at us with that look. I'm sure you all know that. His life is so short, we just make it a pleasure for him to live it. :)))

Anyways, i better get my ass going. A whole bunch of stuff is waiting for me to finish today. So hasta la later

R

Sick period

2007-10-28T05:30:00.000+01:00

Today was the day after i officially called it. I'm soo sick.... After having a 92 hour session of my life awake sleeping 10 hrs in the meantime ... yeah that is total sleeping that I'm talking about... the period is also pretty zombiecal as i call it... since i act and feel like one... really time just passes by and i cant do much productive... the feeling itself is great , like I'm drugged... everything and everybody is just so slow, looking out from two narrow little windows the world is just different at these times and everything just sounds so silent... it feels all ok, but by the end of this period my heart kind of wanted to jump out of its place and made me feel my chest is just one size smaller ... anyways after this crazy period i usually have a real hard time falling asleep just as i had yesterday... took me about 4 hrs just to get to that state... but fortunately it was worth it... slept like a baby for as long as hmmm... with the day light saving issue an hour less but still 11 hrs... and am now up since midnight... this is soo sick... when am i supposed to sleep if not at night... somehow i am a very badly managing myself.... i forgot to learn this at school or again i was ditching classes or maybe there were just no self management classes... not good... i wonder what and how it is possible for others to manage themselves so well in life as in other parts of life... maybe this is gambling and the lifestyle that puts me in this upside down situation...anyways... just wanted to say hi to every subscriber for my blog as i decided to go online... and from time to time i am about to share some of my life with ya... if you care... but enjoy anyways...

R...