London calling - the missing parts

I forgot to add a few great experiences that we had that i forgot to write into my other description of our trip... First i made a bad note on that indian receptionist that to me is still an effin jerk and im not changing my mind on that, no matter what, however not all indian people are bad, that would be a very bad generalisation on my part, and i'd like to mention this guy at Green Park. We went there and shooting pictures about each other with Csilla and me being in hyped shape was jumping around looking for spots and how i could pose to the camera. Generally i dont like to be shot but whatever i was in the mood. :)))

So we are ready to take off to see the Buckingham Palace when this Indian guy is shouting at us to stop and running like crazy and when we turn he shows up with my Iphone. I was like totally shocked... He was like bowing that it is his honor to be in my help. WTF? That was just such an experience... How nice of this guy to see my phone felling out of my pocket and then returning my phone to me. Its so nice, i should have taken a shot of him and put it in my blog, but i was speechless that such good persons still exist. Of course i would return it to the owner if i saw it too, and already have done it couple times, but these kind of events still shock me when they happen, especially to me... It is especially valuable to me since all my contact are synched with google contacts and if i delete a contact from my phone thus gcontacts would get erased as well, thus losing all my contacts. Seriously this gives hope in todays world that there is good ppl out there. I mean most of my friends are good people, as this was my choice at some fraction of my life to surround myself with good people but still there are so many ugly things out there... Im really shocked... and i wish i could tell this guy in the face, how much he did to me... i guess i will have to do something good to others to just get even with this... I hope this guy lives a good life, i wish him the best....i feel like i took mostly and less often was giving in life and i must revert that at some point.

This was most important i left out from my previous blog, but there are 2 more things i wanna quickly mention... If u ride the huge wheel called London Eye in spring or in the summer, when girls wear skirts, then there is a funny panoramic view when their cabin moves above your cabin and at some point it does, you can look under or in between or you know what i mean, i just realised that as one girl during our ride showed us some extra extension to our London skyline. :))) Just in case u riding the London Eye you might take this free ride too :)
LOL

Last thing, Kwok who lived in London for all his life, he is now in Macau, being another member in our team he advised me to visit Borough Markets, now i would most likely visit Portobello road or some other markets but never this one. Its pretty much hidden from the very tourist stuff, but that place rocks... This place is like a special market place where people sell cheese, wine, fruits, some special meat... but everything there is to this place is all of that comes from a special region, like one stand sells french cheese and to that they sell racqluette sandwiches, some other stands were offering caramelised almonds and nuts and all kinds of sweets, then there were stands with other dutch and swiss products... shells, fishes really everything, but all that you dont normally find in supermarkets, more like delicatesse stores where ppl find special borough products ... I had the option to try a specialty from Lyon region that i had never had the opportunity to visit before. They have this food called Cassoulette and it is pretty good stuff, i would definitely buy myself a bowl if i was hungry but we ate such a huge breakfast i was just completely stuffed... For reference the market is open from thursdays to saturdays.

I tought these things should be mentioned in my blog as they amazed me quite a bit. Well not the wheel, I just wrote about that for fun and sharing ... :)

London, May, Bets and Record Attempts

This is one of my other posts that im using in my poker crew and i mostly use it for poker blogs, but this one post im gonna publish here as well. The blog about London is going to get a new post and it will be coming shortly as soon as my pics are uploaded to Picasa as a slideshow of that will be included in the post. The blog is ready to publish and its saved but im only publishing it once the pics are ready. So till then here is a bit from my other blog.

Just arrived from London and the city brought me new inspirations. I am really shocked how much the city has to offer, since im from a small town big cities always shocked me. I would consider living in a big city any day, but it would have to be at a place that is a really cool neighborhood. Also i realised that there are as few british ppl in London as can be. Anything where we went were bunch of indian, east european and african people. I mean where are all the british people disappeared from London? Beyond me... After checking out NYC last year there was a good comparison basis for me in between 2 cities. They are very similar in multiple ways, there is SOHO, Times Square vs Picadelly Circus, the parks... and different sightseeing stuff... Well, everything that NYC has to offer is bigger, richer, in most terms , but London has more history and feelings for its streets. Both cities are awesome, but i could only imagine myself living in the better parts in both cases, in NYC that would be Soho or Upper East and West side, in London it would be most Soho, Mayfair, and some parts of central London. Living in zone 2 and zone 3 really is not matching my expectations. Anyways, it was a cool 4 day vacation and the environment change was nice. One negative aspect of the city i realised is how most people judge others on looks, race, ranks and stuff... it just proves my beliefs that Europe is the most racist (by any means of prejudice) place on earth.

New inspirations to get better, to work harder and to do it now, as the opportunity is right here, right now, and who knows what will be in the future 5 yrs from now. So i decided to overcome all aspects of my bad habbits i will challenge myself for one month to really really overwork myself. How will it go i will keep u posted in my new Twitter blog. Link will be posted at the end of blog. Now to keep the motivation and to keep people interested I am giving u a short update on my history. My biggest month in terms of hrs played was sometimes last year where i managed to pull 102 hrs. This year i never really reached close to that number. So you might say am i gonna try outdo myself? Well, that is not the question here. THat is pretty obvious, but im trying to match my playing hrs with the working hour of an avg. individual working 9 to 5 working days. That is my goal for next month starting May 1st. I want to play 160 hrs, regardless of how i feel or how i play. I just wanna prove myself that it is possible, i wanna feel some kind of achievement, and outside these hrs i will still need to do family, work, HEM(Holdem Manager reviews) and doctor appointments that are due because of my bad neck. It will sure be a tough month, to keep myself focused, to get better, and to play mostly on a good scale compared to the players i play against. I think it will improve me in a lot of spots and i will get to know of more of my weak spots. In times when a player sets himself conditions he is uncomfortable with can he make the most improvements. It will be in fact good in terms of my tilt control and i will try to revert my tilting back to my A game that is always going to be in focus for all sessions. There are some leaks that can find correction during this month. Im just looking forward for this month pretty much. Im organizing my life towards noone really disrupting me and noone pissing me off and im asking for the support, so we will see how things will go. I put up a prop bet with Jason, for 120 dollars he is against me doing it and i have still 380 dollars available for more prop bets if anyone is interested. My limit is 500 dollars.

Im also having a budget to satellite myself into the WSOP 2009 main event. Im posting my updates on that how things go again in my twitter blog... It was just so awesome playing last year and this year i would do so many things differently, regards in going out and playing poker. My game improved a lot. I believe Heaven and Earth Poker where i reside at the moment would welcome a world champion in that event. :) So im excited to play 1 day/week full of satellites on Pokerstars again, that is to be added to my 160hrs of play. It will definitely be a hectic month so im looking forward to it very very much. Oh yeah, and there is some homework im working on to make it harder to reach my goals. Im so positive though that i will be able to do it. Wish me luck or challenge me with the prop bet.

Anyone interested in the prop bet, message me on skype.

London calling

As we get further along the pregnancy period so do we run out of time to travel or take holidays. This is in mucho terms a good thing as we getting closer to become parents, but at the same time it requires some more planning on how we do get our time well spent on ourselves. So i got in planning earlier this month and planned a 4 day trip to London, that was made happen this weekend.

For the last couple of years, our interest, and in most parts our interest covers MY interest is all about big cities and a bit about beaches and hiking. Old historical stuff does not interest us, small town life either. We came from a small town, thus we are not as much interested in country culture as much as Metro life. And thus the choice for Paris, NY and recently London. It also gives us a good comparison of the different cities, their culture and motion they live. Anyways, not to go far away from the topic we went to London for a weekend.

It was a great trip, with a few hickups and few angry moments here and there. It changed my view on a few things in life which had to be realized sooner or later. Anyways, our trip started out with a flight that was almost as cool as it ever gets, fast without problems and being spot on all aspects to be a good flight, that is for me as Csilla had a bit of a pain feeling in her belly which made her panic quite badly. Also a new feat i found out that Ryanair seats are non adjustable, which means Ryanair is not gonna have us as customers in the near future, i mean Wizzair and Easy Jet they both have adjustable seats why the hell it is not possible to do it for RyanAir when obviously price is the same. I am really not picky for flights and i most of the time chose a decently priced option, but non-adjustable seats???!!! Common you guys can do better... Anyways, no ones telling me to fly with them so thats ok... Also they offered me the only option to make a reservation online, which other sites clearly lacked as their sight is down as of today... Maybe it is something on my side, but i really dont think so... Well other than that the flight was ok, on time, very precise, in fact never been so precise with any flights in my life.

Ok, London... I made a reservation online for a Hilton hotel as there was a pretty good deal on it, including breakfast the room cost us 159 EUR/night. That is not too bad considering we stayed at the gates of Hyde Park and at a good local area. One thing i can clearly say is that I am the unluckiest person regarding hotel reservations. In the past we stayed at Formula One, got a room for handicapped ppl, we had a deluxe room reservation in MGM Grand we got a room for disabled ppl, guess what happened this time? Ok, here is my expectation... we get a room somewhere around mid high floors as the hotel has 28 stories... and we will have a beatiful view of either the Regents Park, either the Hyde Park or the London Eye... Pretty much you must get one of these options... Ok, so here goes my luck with hotels... We get a room mid high floor, guy (Looks like Indian, or gipsy... whatever it is not the point, but...) keeps telling us hotel is so busy, and they have late departures... So he gives us the room and i find out we get a room for disabled ppl. Now there is really nothing wrong with these rooms, but they give me this creepy feeling, wide seat toilets with bunch of rails and holders in the bath... they seriously creep me out... And if it happened first time i wouldnt say anything... but it looks like im running into this things recently almost 80% of the time. Also my first 2 rooms we received after 1 am, that is acceptable and we had it changed next morning. If we had those in the hotel i would not even bother renting the room out for non disabled ppl. Maybe it was on our forehead written hey pls, fuck us real good, we dont care afterall what we get, its an honor to stay at your hotel as we are young and east europeans... Now if i knew that at first place that this is the treat we are getting in Hilton im never even considering making the reservation... Oh yeah, the skyline of London was fucking beatiful ... from the west we could see a very nice tall wall of the hotel... the window looked straight down the roofs the local buildings and it had a feel like im standing on the edge of a cliff making me dizzy ... and no view on any of the attractions i was talking about above... oh yeah one queen size bed for 2... Fuck me if this is real... im going down to the reception demanding another room... "Demanding"...i walk up to this guy and say " We dont like the room" so he goes into his computer and finds us a King Size bed with somewhat better view on the 5th floor... nothing spectacular, but did we have to wait 20 mins and immediately get a new room, why the hell couldnt he tell us at first place... what an idiotic jerk that guy was... must have had a lot of prejudices against east europeans or young ppl. It turned out later at the trip that the room we got was possibly even worse what we could imagine... I mean the standard of the room was top notch... but here is the thing... we are on the 5th floor. Now obviously priority guests get high floors so the elevator system works like this. It collects the ppl on high floors then by the time it gets to the 5th floor it is full. And it starts over, until the whole hotel is emptied out... Now this is only a small issue in the morning hours when most people want to go for breakfast, checking out or just leave the hotel for their own business... Not a big thing if u like to wait 30 fucking minutes to get to the lobby from the 5th floor... A normal person would ask why wait, its just the 5th floor afterall a small walk is no big feat... Well, London Hilton had no stairs or in fact no emergency stairs to that end... All they had is a hook in the wall that you can use with a tough wire and u could use it to jump out the window in case of emergency. Well a breakfast is not an emergency so we got the option to wait 30 minutes for a fucking lift... I was so pissed at the hotel that there is seriously no money i would go and stay in any Hilton facility ever in my life. I mean yeah there is some money, if for some miraculous reason someone pays me, but the chance of that is pretty close to 0.00%, so yeah... no more Hilton for me... these hotels are seriously overrated. The staff is really not friendly and not professional, the restaurant is a peace of crap, they ran out of Honey in the morning when I wanted to drink my tea with honey... that is ridiculous... Anyways, the trip was great, and the hotel didnt bug as at all that much, but i had to give my opinion on them in my blog, and of course i make sure this goes up to tripadvisor and some other major booking sites. Like it does matter :) Just to point out why we were treated as is I assume is that the 90% of customers Hilton had were late middle age business men or old couples or royal Arab families... we dont fit the picture, or do we? Its just me who always have to go to these 5 star hotels, and to be honest if any 2 star hotel would offer the type of breakfast these hotels offer i would go and stay there any time... The breakfast is just unfuckingbelievably awesome!!!

Anyways, once we arrived we started to head out seeing some sight seeing attractions and had a very busy walking weekend. I think last time we walked this much was in Paris, maybe not even there, and back then Csilla was not pregnant. There is nothing much to say about London, its a great city, it really is more comparable to NYC rather then Paris... Everything that is NYC is London, except the streets of London are cooler with more history, i liked this part a bit better about London and that it is a bit more Euro... However NYC is grander and richer and flashier in all aspects then London is... I mean the parks in London are not comparable with the Central Park, however there is a lot more in London, and they are very well used by the ppl. I really liked that London was as green as it is. Now the skyline of London could be viewed from London Eye, a huge wheel that gives a nice panorama of London. Well nice... could be said nice as NYC skyline and panorama is just stunning compared to the low story buildings of London. Anyways, the 2 cities are very close in nature and i wouldnt mind spending some more time in any of them. Oh 2 observations we found funny... british people are seriously non existent in central London, and the pubs always show 30-50 ppl smoking in front of the bars and pubs. That is a funny feat as the new smoking ban laws in public places bring the ppl out to the street, and the street became the social place, well at least for the time of the life of a cigarette bar. In one comparison i could describe London vs NYC is London is the modest, elegant gentleman while NYC is the flashy, new rich Yuppie... They both have their beauty, they are very similar, but in a way they are very different. :)

So yeah, we checked out most parts, like the Buckingham palace, Parliament, London Eye , the Tower bridge and most parks including Green Park, St James Park, Regents park and Hyde Park, and while doing it we checked out the London Zoo, which in size turned out to be a big disappointment. We would think a Zoo in London would be like 10 times bigger than in Budapest but to be honest its probabily the same size if not smaller. :S We also had a whole day of shopping. The shopping are of London is real neat, i really liked the streets, but man there is crowd... Ive never seen this many ppl ever in my life, not even in NYC... that was some crazy experience for sure...

We as always love to go to the movies and so we went to see He's just not that into you ... or something like that with Csilla on Leicester Square... it was a fun movie and we can check that we went to the movies this month as well... We usually go like 2x a month but recently lacked going out to the movies for some reason...

Also the last day we went out to meet Detti a friend of mine from college and had dinner together in a nice pizzeria near Covent garden... it was funny as we had a most likely russian waitress to serve us and it really felt like in the military... she had strict rules and served us accordingly, for one example Csilla was not finished with her pizza yet, but Detti and I wanted to see the desserts available, and she said once she finishes we can have it, and we were like OK, if thats how its done here we wait like little puppies... :))) Another funny thing is that Detti didn't realise Csilla was pregnant. The thing is she barely gained any weight, like 6kilos so far... thats some pretty good result...

The trip really was a good time, we got what we expected, and a bit of change in environment is always good for the mind. Now we are back and getting ready for the grind. At least it I do, as Csilla is soon finishing up with the work, as she will have other priorities in life. :)In fact i have new plans going for the next month that i will post from my other blog that i write for poker.

I post a few pictures below from the trip, they will be familiar to most., after all its gonna be Csilla and me on them :))) I hope to get in the habbit of picturising my blog. And one more thing ... if u use twitter follow my twitting... I made a gadget also on the top of my blog site so you can just come visit it there... They should be more up to date stuff like Facebook updates, except i dont like Facebook so much... so yeah its gonna be this new addition to the site from me always showing as last post.

Latez my brothez

And the promised slideshow...

Health issues/Alfacity/Poker

So last year I turned 30 and ever since some psychological change went through my head. It is one of those times when we start to feel older, mature, i dont know what else, but it did ring a bell to me. I have to watch my health. Recently for the last few months starting last summer i have had some minor migraines. I thought it could have been due to my eyes or could have been from the weather changes or something more serious. So after half a year, dont ask my why i waited this long, i decided to get to the end of this problem. After all it is not normal to have a headache day after day non stop.

In the meantime i bought myself a good chair at the beginning of this year, i changed a bit of my eating habits, i got to improve on my sleeping schedule and just 2 weeks ago i started a self defense class called Krav-Maga. I believe the Israeli secret service and police force is using the techniques so it cant be bad as it is used in our age. So it is a bit different from Aikido or Kung Fu, it is more of a get yourself out of trouble real fast and to give you a better chance of survivor in case of attack or provocation. I dont know if i will need to use it ever, but i like the style and trainings as they are also based on having a good fitness condition, which is definitely what i need. So yes im working out twice a week now. What is nice is Tibi is also coming every time we started it together and another nice feet is that its less then 50m away from my house. So yeah i cant be lazy :)

Anyways, back to my health issues. I organized a couple days around investigating my health. My mom is a nurse so she got me in most places pretty pretty fast. And results turned out that my spine is abit off its normal position, plus my muscles are a bit tight and im holding my neck incorrectly or to that matter my head. So now im going into these rehab facilities and get free massages and laser cure for my neck, so im really glad i started to work in and i hope i get to fix my neck as well, and here i mean fixing how i should hold it. Im concentrating on it most of the time so it is a bit tiring right, but i assume results will come. Im figuring im also sleeping bad as some of headaches come right in the mornings which is supposedly from bad sleeping positions. So im looking into getting myself an orthopedic pillow. Not sure if thats how it called but whatever...

Topic change... Cars... Last summer we decided to buy a car and while it is really nice to have a new car there are other nice treats are packed with our Alfa Romeo that we didnt expect to have. A large percent of the people buying Alfa's are big fans, almost fanatics. So the admiration towards the cars is beyond their wifes and life in general. People just go and fan Alfas and they are just like a proud owner having any type of Alfa. So time to time there are meetings could be town meetings or for countries or international. Yesterday a big attempt to make the biggest meeting of Alfa owners happened to take place in our town. The organization was not very good but weve seen close to a 1000 no. of Alfas yesterday. So what is the treat having an Alfa... Well other then its beauty and sporty look, and attention on details and design it is belonging to a small community. The community meets on the road and sign and blink and honk on the road to each other when 2 alfas meet and I can say with some confidence that it is a global european habit as i travelled a lot abroad with the car and i get blinked at from a lot of spots. Its a good fun feeling, its like in older times when there where Trabants and VW Bugs on the roads this was kind of the same feeling for them, but now the feeling is owned by Alfa owners. I just wanted to state Im also a proud of owner of car and after 1 year i can state it was the best choice i could have made. Now i dont know about how i will like it when our baby will be born as it is mostly a 2 seater, but i'll figure it out.

I havent blogged much about my poker game recently, but im trying do ok in that field as well, and im confident ill be able to grow big with my game one day. It is definitely a tough theme to do, the games are very competitive lot of wannabe pros like i am and lot of eager students of the game. Now couple years back, like 5-6 years back from today becoming a high stakes poker player was as easy as to play on my limit right now. The games however got much tougher and raising one's rank in the game is now not an easy endeavor. It requires lot of work, lot of focus, lots of energy and results still come slowly. Now i made a couple of breakthroughs and first time in my life i managed to move up limits again to 200NL, which i occasionaly played before but was a losing player. Now im testing myself at these limits im confident that in time i will be coming out glorious here as well, and im also weting my feet in Full ring games that are played with 9 other players instead of 5 that im mostly playing. It is very different, my style just absolutely killed in those games, and i need to focus on making some good adjustments. So we will see in a couple of months how i do, but im expecting good results. It is funny like last year i played 4 tables of 25NL to 50NL tables involving around 200 dollars top. But today i sit down at 6 to 9 tables depending on if its 6max or fullring games and i always have 1200-1800 dollars minimum at the tables. I had to get used to the amount of money involved in the games, but to be honest im still a small stakes player, and the big bucks are at the mid high stakes. So my path is still a long way to my newly set goal. My initial goal to make a living of poker is probabily will be reached by this end of year, officialy, but i dont wanna go too far ahead, as the game can trick us in a few spots, although for 5 straight months i brought home some nice little profits which im happy i was capable of. So yeah, im still in the fight to get better, and that hopefully wont change. The results should just come after work and training is happening.

I shall stop here for now but as on the sideline i have to mention that a couple weeks ago, at the time of my previous blog we got to know that we are waiting a little boy to extend the love in our family and we were picking a lot of names and lot of choices and so far decided to name him Dennis. It is not a hungarian name which was partialy a priority at the beginning but we decided to go with an international name. It also just came real random as none of us were aware of this possibility but on the way home from the doctor Csilla just was reading some names and this hit us at first listen. So yeah, our little Dennis the Menace is on the way, and we cant look forward to meet him. Thinking of the only Dennis i know in life is Dennis Rodman :) its a bit funny, but hey he played in the Bulls maybe one day our Dennis will too, oh yeah and he dated Madonna, too :) Anyways, this is not final yet, but kind of a most likely name we are giving. I cant wait to meet our boy, but in the meantime im getting to know him through Csilla's belly, we are communicating with him and he talks back kicking and moving signing he is ok. Csilla seems to be also very happy whenever he can feel him moving, for every move he makes Csilla's smile is wider and larger.

For today... Thats all folks !!! Tah tah tah tah tahtahtah taahh tah tah tah tah tahtahtah taahh

The Pregnant Father

It's been 4 months now that Csilla is pregnant and it had huge influence on my life. We went through some pretty big change, and i mean BIG. All of that change is not bad at all, in fact i think things turned towards the better i would say. All i can say is Csilla is taking the pregnancy very well, she is one of those happy mothers who laugh a lot, and really feels good about herself. I think it has to do a lot with support from both families and i cant be too shy of my support either :))) She gives back a lot of love to me as well, that really helps the balance and keep me in good shape as well. In lot of cases during pregnancies the stronger gender feels all left out of the circle and that can really screw up the situation. It's definitely not been the case for us.

I remember how hard it was for my sister, and to be honest i was afraid we could end up like them as well. Her case was very hard had an endangered pregnancy and her husband provided her mostly pain and humiliation and no love at all. I kind of feel for her just now. But looking back at their case was so different. In first place they should never even have a baby back then. Their relationship was absolutely weak. It is said that the baby brings out the worst of people and it will challenge our relationship big time. We are different, we have respect and love and joy in our relationship, even now in a supposedly harder time, but you know what i must thank God to give me such a nice present, such a cool pregnant period, such a great wife. Im just overwhelmingly happy Csilla is going to be the mother of our child. Also facing our worse, I can say i already saw the worst of myself playing cards, and i have turned out to know myself better than anyone else. I got to know my weaknesses and i learned from them and i still learn, and im getting better. Its been really a great journey and i think facing myself in life was the toughest thing to do for me so far. In life many people never face their own self, living life as it is thrown at them. Its a shame, its a great journey exploring once' self its a bumpy ride for sure seeing yourself in a mirror that sometimes just shows pictures you dont want to see, other times it shows pictures of u that are not true... Definitely worth a try to look into your weakest points, where you think you can improve. Luckily for me, poker has been the mirror, it tested me and tests me day in and out. I think it prepared me to be ready as a father and be ready as a good person and to be a more responsible person. But i dont wanna go too far, its not like im flawless now, but to be honest i think grew up. For the first time in life i think i can say that. Its not like a grown up person throws away the fun part of life, men can never be as grown up as women, they just need their little toys and fun time always, but yeah, grown up to me means take life and be responsible living it. This is what im doing, all 2009 is all about that... and time to time it's not easy and other times its the best thing in the world. I dont really know where i will be in 5 or 10 years, but i believe i will fly sky high compared to where i stand at the moment both emotions and both stability wise. We will see, but i will have a say in our future for sure. :) Definitely my no. 1 goal is to provide financial and emotional security for my family, provide a good nest and raise a child with a good heart.

Anyways, i got off the track here a bit and im talking about stuff that is not in main focus these days. Well it is for me, but there is something of higher importance that needs attention. So yeah, Csilla is growing nicely so far gained 5 kilos that is not too bad. If all things go well she will gain up to 15 kilos which is really not bad, and she wont totally deform as a lady either. Saying just that she is totally deformed by now, but in a good way, she is really cute with a little belly, and i totally feel good about her. She is so fit and happy and cute i cant really ask for more. I hope the second half of her pregnancy will go just as good. It's a really nice period we have been talking about names already and how we are going to raise our baby and all that parental stuff... :)

Today we are going to the doctor and hopefully we are going to get to know the gender of our little baby. Im so excited, btw Csilla doesnt really want to know, she wants a surprise. Oh hell yeah, SURPRISE MEEEE, TODAAAYY. So hopefully by end of day i will get to know if we going to have a football star or a pop diva coming to the family :) Anyways either way im totally in madly excitement. For years ive been talking about how i dont want kids and how children are pain in the butt, and how they just are too much responsibility, its a big change for sure, but i cant really wait for the moment to see my baby. In fact im totally emotional these days. Im like a pregnant father. Dont know what has changed in me but my hormones changed me into a very sensible (wo)man :)

Last time we went to the doctor and saw some Ultrasound Pictures my eyes got all wet and i got like totally weak seeing our baby. Its such a weird feeling, and people who never had been pregnant or did not wait a baby probabily dont know what they are missing. Its just been weird seeing something totally new that touches into your heart so strong. We saw the baby crossing his/her little legs it was just an amazing moment. Today we will see him/her even better, i hope i will be strong and wont cry. :) Anyways, either way wether the baby will be a boy or girl i dont care, as long as he/she is healthy. We all say that health is no.1 always, but at first i really wanted a little girl, as i think there is a bit more sensuality between daughters and fathers, but then again there is more context between fathers and sons. So either way it will be a very good story. Life is crazily big, i just realized what a gift we've been given.

Im going to leave with that finish, my updates on other parts of life will come in a different post. So stick around, more coming later.